UGH I CANT GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD

Ever on and on I continue circling with nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing and suddenly I see that I can't break free  I'm bla bla bla bla bla with nothing but the pain and the paralyzingly agony to tell me who I am who I was uncertainty enveloping my mind until I can't break free maybe it's a dream maybe nothing else is real but it wouldn't mean a thing if I tell you how I feel