4/12/20

My heart is swollen
And something hurts.
Not sure what,
But something's off.

What happens when
you love
more than you get loved?

I want to feel and
I want to hold.
I want to speak and
I want to be heard.

What's wrong is that
I know they're there
But they're not showing themselves.

Still my heart is swollen
and hurting.
and raw.

and grasping at things
it thinks it once saw.

I know they're there
and I know I'm loved.

But I'm hurting all the same.
And I

try to fill that void,
to swole my heart,
with inconsistencies
i understand a lot.

because it's been part of me
for a while now
and it's easy to adapt to.

but that, too
is bad.