I cried
I freaking cried.
I don't cry at things I can't understand.
Why am I crying?

It's me, isn't it?
I smile too much
I laugh too loud,
# was right,
When she said I'm stealing you.
I just wanted someone new.

I'm not mad.
That's a lie.
I'm furious.
At myself.
WHY DO I SAY THINGS I CAN'T TAKE BACK?
And if I tried to it'll make it worse?

Calm down, Kelli.
It might not even be you.
But it is. Isn't it.
I'm smiling.
And it's not funny.