" Niall, could I sleep in your room tonight?" I asked timidly.

"Of course, I want to spend as much time with you as possible before I leave again." He smiled and kissed my forehead.

I gave a little smile in response, I did want to spend time with him, but I was more afraid of the nightmares that were sure to come when my eyes blinked shut.

We had just come back from the hospital and Eleanor had hopped in the shower so it was just the two of us in the living room with the television on. I snuggled into Niall's side and in response he put his arm around my shoulders and gave them a squeeze.

"Hey Niall." I whispered softly.

"Yeah babe?" He murmured.

"Can I tell you why I had a panic attack." I said trying to be fearless, but just thinking of it made my heart pound.

"Of course." He paused the TV and focused his eyes on me.

"Well, it was Jason he-"

"That son of a - " He started furious.

"Hey, calm down it's okay." I said putting my arm on his shoulder.

"It's not okay, did he hurt you? What did he do?" His eyebrows were furrowed in anger as he looked at me.

"He didn't touch me, he sent me a text. H-he said that he's coming for me." That's when I fell apart I wrapped my arms around Niall and cried into his shoulder. "I'm so scared." I whispered.

"Jess, I'm not going to let him get anywhere near you okay?" He murmured kissing my forehead and wiping the tears falling down my face away.

"But you, you're leaving." I said sniffing.

"I know, but maybe you can come with... I don't know. I'll let Simon know and see what he says." He wrapped me in his arms and rocked me back and forth until I had calmed down.

"Do you want to go out for ice cream?" He asked softly a few moments later.

"Sure, is Eleanor going to come?"

"If she wants to." He smiled and stood up grabbing my hand and pulling me up also.

"Okay." I was only in sweatpants so I told Niall I was going to change and ran upstairs quick. I threw on a nicer outfit and brushed my hair before putting it in a messy bun.

I went over and knocked on Louis' door. I didn't hear the shower running which meant she was probably out.

"Yeah?" She said cheerfully.

"Do you want to go for ice cream?"

"Of course!" She squealed.

"Okay," I smiled at her enthusiasm, " I'll see you downstairs."

I walked downstairs to the living room and plopped myself beside Niall, who was once again sitting on the couch. 

"Is she coming?"

"Yep." 

"Okay." He smiled and grabbed my hand interlacing our fingers. "You look beautiful." He said softly before kissing my hand.

I blushed, "Thanks Niall." I boldly leaned over and pressed my lips against his. We broke apart when we heard Eleanor thumping down the stairs.

"Let's go guys!" She was so excited is was comical.

Ice cream was nice and relaxing, but I quickly worked myself into a panic when I realized Niall was leaving soon.

"Hey Jess, good news, you can come along for the rest of the week!" Niall said peeking his head into my room.

I breathed a sigh of relief and the panic that had been building in my chest dissipated. But what about Eleanor. I would feel so guilty leaving her. Maybe I would stay, for her.

"That's great babe, but what about Eleanor?"

"She can come to! It'll be a bit squishy on the bus though."

"That's okay." I smiled at him and he gave a smile back before coming over and flopping on the bed beside me.

"We're leaving in an hour, so you might want to get packing."

"Okay." I grabbed my suitcase from the closet and started grabbing clothes that I wanted to take.

Niall stood up and folded my pile of clothes before nicely stacking them in the suitcase.

"Thanks." I smiled and pecked his cheek once we had finished.

"Of course." He said as he smiled back.

I was overjoyed that I wouldn't have to spend any more time away from Niall. I know I was such a clingy girlfriend, but I was scared of being alone. I was scared to of how attached I was to Niall. I'm sure eventually he would find someone prettier and more interesting then me and move on. I don't know if I could ever truly recover from that. I pushed those thoughts aside and tuned into what Niall was saying. The only thing that mattered was that I was here right now with him, I didn't need to worry about what might happen.

"Do you think when we get back you might want to go check out a cafe to work at?" He asked turning his head to look at me.

"Yeah, that would be great." I was excited about the prospect of working, I could meet new people and gain some experience not to mention I would be able to contribute to living at the house more then I did now.

"We should probably get going." Niall said glancing at his phone.

"Okay, I'll go see how Eleanor is doing with her packing." I hopped off the bed and went over to check on her. She was just zipping up her suitcase when I reached the doorway. I told her to meet us downstairs in a minute and she nodded grabbing a few miscellaneous things.

We drove a little while before stopping at a hotel off the highway. I saw their tour bus parked behind so I guessed it was where the rest of the boys were also staying.

"Here we are." Niall said pulling into a parking space.

We walked to the receptionist desk and she quickly checked us in and handed us our keys. Niall and I were sharing a room as were Louis and Eleanor.

"Fourth floor, any takers on the elevator?" Niall said with a smile.

"Hell yes, there's no way I'm walking up all those stairs." I said laughing, although maybe the exercise would be good for me. I shrugged off the thought and hopped into the elevator followed by Eleanor.

We reached the fourth floor and walked down the long hallway to the very end. Our rooms were right across from each other which was convenient.

"Sleep tight." Eleanor said reaching over and squeezing me in a quick hug before unlocking her door and going in.

"You to." I called in after her, she smiled before shutting the door.

"I guess we're over here." Niall pointed to the other door.

"Yep." I said crossing my arms over my chest.

He unlocked the door and we stepped inside. It was a beautiful room. Id never been in a hotel so fancy, there was a wide open living room that flowed into a small game room, which had a three doors branching off. Which I'm guessing were the two bedrooms and bathroom. Their were windows all along the wall covered in bamboo shades. It was truly a beautiful design.

"It's lovely to bad we're only staying for one night." I said dragging my suitcase to the one room.

"Yeah, although we'll have a little time tomorrow before we have to leave to hang out." Niall walked in beside me and flopped himself on the bed.

"Okay. Sounds good." I layed my suitcase down and joined him on the bed. It wasn't long before Niall leaned over and placed a soft kiss on my cheek. I smiled and turned my head brushing my lips against his.

He put his hand on the back of my head, tangling it in my hair,and deepened the kiss. I closed my eyes and hungrily kissed him. The touch of his lips on mine was like fire igniting passion inside me for more of him.

He shifted so he was completely on top of me and continued kissing me softer now, but still with as much passion. His hand fell lower and lightly traced over my stomach making me gasp. He smiled into the kiss and pulled away for a second. I smiled at him reassuring him I was fine and he leaned down kissing me again.

"God, why are you so beautiful?" He breathed between kisses.

I blushed bright red which made him smile. He pulled away leaving my lips longing for his and lay down beside me.

"I love you so much Jess." He murmured grabbing my hand.

"Me to." I said before mentally smacking myself. I couldn't even say the words I love you how pathetic.

We spent the rest of the evening watching movies. He didn't even ask about dinner, oddly enough. He must have been very preoccupied.

I glanced over as the credits were rolling and smiled he was out. I switched off the TV and gave his shoulder a gentle shake.

"Mmmm," He murmured," Jess?"

"Yeah, wake up. You're still in your clothes." I whispered in his ear.

"Okay." He mumbled sliding off the bed. I smiled at his sleepiness it was adorable.

I got changed while he went to the bathroom and by the time he was back I was in my PJ's and laying back on the bed.

"Wow, that was quick." He said rubbing the sleep from his eyes as he came in the room.

"Yep." I smiled and let my eyes trace over his shirtless torso.

He caught me staring and raised his eyebrows making me quickly look away as I burned with embarrassment.

I put my face in the pillow as he changed into a pair of sweats instead of the jeans he had had on earlier. I felt the bed dip beside me and I looked over locking eyes with him. He smiled and softly kissed me.

"Good night love." He murmured before kissing my cheek.

"Good night Niall" I turned around and he wrapped his arms lightly around my waist. I dozed off in no time in his secure arms.

Okay, I know it's been forever and you all probably hate me, but here it is. I'm going to try and do better, but life has just been really hard.
Love you all and please vote for comment if you enjoyed it!

~Ash

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