My head was buzzing. I've always wanted to get married, everyone does. I do love Blaine, at some level of course. But now... Now it seems, almost rushed.

"So I called the realtor for that castle ,and they said if I fix it up we can-"

"Please, stop." I said stopping whatever he was saying.

"Get married in it..." He mumbled the last part quietly. "Baby, you've been acting weird..." Blaine said looking at me.

"Don't you think this is all... I don't know... A bit rushed." I said putting a hand through my hair, ruining the style of it. Honestly at the moment I couldn't bring myself to care about it.

"Rushed?" Blaine asked taking off his glasses, and putting them on his head.

"Yeah... I mean... We haven't even had the baby yet... We're having the wedding after the baby, and-um.. Maybe we should start to plan then." I said going back and forth, picking at my finger nails.

"Darling, your pacing. What's wrong?" Blaine asked looking at me curiously.

"I didn't think we'd be getting married so soon... You only proposed to me a week ago... It's still a lot to take in.. I haven't even thought if I'm truly ready to commit like that! I've always wanted to ,but still ,it's so much ,and I'm only twenty one. I haven't even seen half the world yet!"
I paced faster and faster, while my voice grew with it.

Blaine got up ,and held my shoulders steady. I stopped and looked up at him. "Babe, your freaking out... You have to relax. You know weddings take a year or so to plan... I'm getting a head start, your helping to, but you keep worrying yourself."

I sighed and took his hands off my shoulder. "I feel... Like... I don't know... You.. You only love me because... I'm pregnant." I mumbled looking down.

"Why on earth would you think that?" Blaine asked lifting my chin up.

"We only started this relationship, because we were desperate for sex." I said looking at him.

Blaine sighed and rubbed his eyes. At that moment, he almost looked older. I could see the crease by his eyes, and his laugh lines in a frown.

"You remember your first day at Vogue?" Blaine said looking up at me.

I nodded at him.

"You, you were- well still are- amazing. Your designs were unlike anything I could ever do. That made me nervous. I saw you and thought you were beautiful. I knew if I published them, you'd go away. Become CEO instead of me, or ever corporate. Companies would be better to you and you'd have a star treatment. You'd be gone forever. I'd never see you again." Blaine said looking at me.

"All this time.. My drawings were good?" I said looking at him.

His hazel eyes met mine, and that smile I adored was back.
"Almost as beautiful as you... I was never desperate. All I wanted to do was hold you. I got my wish, now we'll get married, and I'll be able to hold you forever." Blaine smiled taking my hands.

I smiled back at him, he knew me too well.

"I know it's a lot to take in, but we'll get through it. I'd never say I love you, if I didn't think we'd were soulmates." Blaine smiled cupping my cheek.

I smiled and hugged him close.

Rushed didn't sound so bad now.

A/N
Thanks to ellienerd14 , my British twin, for giving me ideas. :)
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