I won't stay silent with all her treatment again. not for the umpteenth time.

"I'm sorry Jeongguk, if there's any chance... we can start again from the beginning as usual.."

who does she think she is? she left our engagement ring and said that she wasn't ready. unbelievable reason considering we have been together for eight years.

I'm sure the offer of a new job and education in London also has a big stake in her decision. finally I had to accept the fact that for her, our wedding plan was no more important than her ambition.

who knows what she is doing now in the world there?
back to this bitter but soothing vodka. only this drink can give me a little peace at a time like this. I will make her regret her decision to just leave me and shamelessly contact me and telling me that she will back to me.

the figure in my mind just appeared. seen a man pulled her forcefully following the man through the crowd who were enjoying the music. I'm sure I haven't been completely drunk. at least not enough with the two vodka glasses I spent.

she was repeatedly seen trying to let go of the old man's grip on her wrist. It's just that I don't think she has enough energy for that because she was finally able to get on the second floor.

I accelerated my pace after that two person. even though it's hard to find a reason for how she can be in another country but here, I still can't stop the steps to ensure my sanity.

arriving at the second floor, there was a sound of laughter echoing from men who were standing in circles with puffs of smoke in the air.

more effort is needed to break into the bunch of people whose attention is focused on two figures in the middle of the circle. finally I managed to get a place to stand.

the man who is standing now I believe is drunk. his eyes were red and his tubers repeatedly staggered right and left alternately. his hand still gripped on her milky white small wrist.

her eyes are brown. her face was innocent without a smile on her face. her hair is long and loose. even with almost the same posture and face shape, she is clearly not Jieun.
her eyes are red. she had been holding her tears. but her gaze did not ask for mercy but seemed angry and ready to strike.

"who wants to pay the most expensive... you can bring this girl."

the old drunk man talked again followed by the laughter of several people watching. he must be crazy to think that he could sell girls amidst bars like this.

the girl seemed to be trying to let go of the grip of the man's hand, but her efforts were back in vain.

I felt my cellphone vibrate again, the sound of music in this room made the ringtone that was no longer heard. foreign numbers with foreign codes. I clearly know who is behind there trying to contact me.

I shifted the green button on the screen and pressed my cellphone into my ear.

"Jeongguk? hello Jeongguk?"

the voice I missed was heard again after all this time.

"please answer me where are you?"

"what do you really care about?"

"I told you we could start everything from the beginning when I'm back."

she always knew how to play with me and put it all together including the relationship between us.

"please don't be reckless, Jeongguk, stop hurting yourself by get out from where you are now."

"you caused this all."

the girl rebelled and this time looked with all her strength to let go of the old man's grip in his hand. the drunk old man looked annoyed at the girl's efforts. not to mention that no one responded to his offer. his hands were clenched in the air. a punch is ready to be sent to the girl, but some men manage to hold the blow.

"Jeongguk, stop being childish."

childish she said? after what she did, now she call me childish?

"I still have a lot of business."
with one touch I turned off the cellphone.

I immediately reached for the wallet that was in my pocket and moved quickly through the crowd of men.

"Is this enough?"

the old man smiled at the money I had handed him. he returned to smug satisfied before finally releasing his grip to the girl.

"here is yours"

the girl is now staring at me.

let's see how childish I am, Jieun Lee.

**

me and her already arrived at my apartment. she was still behind me until I sat on the sofa.

"please sit down."

"why do you want to do that? why do you want to pay me?"
she said but he still stood in her place. her voice was calm but her nervousness was clear.

"because at least you can survive from the drunk man."

"if it's like that, can you let me get out from here?" her face was so innocent.

"i can't waste my money just like that."
she looked at me in disbelief.

"I will give you anything with one agreement."
she seemed to think for a moment while still looking at me coldly.

"what is that?"

I stood up from the couch and walked toward her. I touch her soft cheeks. she didn't react but looked nervous.

"I will tell you when the time is right."

even though this room was dark and only the lights on the table lit up, I could see how white the skin of her body. she has a nice curve body. she kept closing her eyes showing how embarrassed and afraid she is in the situation like this.

I'm really considering it. I have never done this with anyone. this is my first time.

she gripped my hand hard when I tried to put it in slowly. her eyes still closed and our breath was held together. her nail clawed at my hand. i'm a little shock when I saw a speck of blood in mine.

virgin...?

a tear ran down her cheek. she looks painful when mine is completely inside.

she's my first and i'm her first...