don't have self-esteem.
maybe it's a word I deserve to see what I'm doing now.

I sat in the middle of the room hoping that he would appear soon.

I still remember how that night ended. he said nothing even when I decided to get out of his car. that night was the last night I communicated with him.

I spent the night staring at the ceiling from the sofa where I lay. the bed in the room ended up untouched.

he didn't come that night. the next morning, he come back only to change his clothes. he ignored my presence sitting silently staring at every move. in the end, his figure disappeared again.

this thing happened again last night. he also didn't come back and only came the next day as if clearly expressing his unwillingness to spend the night in this room with me.

all my things are neatly packed. I have decided to leave this apartment if he doesn't come back tonight.
for me, what he did was enough to explain that he hoped that I would leave right away.

the doorbell sound managed to break my daydream. there is usually no one who comes to visit in the late evening like this.

at first I decided not to ignore the call. but the sound of the bell sounded again as if the person behind this door knew there was someone in this apartment.

slowly I opened the door hoping that the decision I'd taken was right.

when the door began to open, the scent of roses mixed with soft vanilla instantly attracted my sense of smell.

her hair was loose this time and her face looked calm at my presence.

"can we talk for a while?"

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"not much has changed from this place.." she said as she entered the apartment. she sat on the white sofa without being welcome.

"what do you want to talk about?"

"of course the man who owns this place."

the floral motif skirts she was wearing again reminded me of a collection of dresses with similar models that exist in the Jeongguk wardrobe.

"he.. really tried too hard but everything looks.. not real"

"what do u mean?"

"interaction between him and you"

"it's just your opinion."

"I know him long before you know him"

"someone can turn into someone who is far different."

"for me, Jeongguk remains the same. he is still the Jeongguk I know." she said it while looking at the Jeongguk photo frame on the TV table.

"I remember when I took this photo. maybe about three years ago? at that time he was... "

"so what exactly do you really want to say?"
I didn't want to spend more time listening to their past stories. seeing my reaction, she smiled then moved to her feet.

"I did make a mistake by leaving him. but like what happened before, we will come back together. "

"I was just a little surprised because this time he involved other people in a brief quarrel between us." A brief quarrel, she said.

"I've decided not to let him go." faith and sincerity emanated from her eyes.

"I just want you to know that"

the sound of the door being opened distracted us.

he's back.

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