Daniel's POV

My inside world sometimes crumbled down for no apparent reason. Sometimes I just feel like I'm falling down in a hole, cold inside and full of thoughts. They come and go, come and go...never ending, in no particular order, puncturing my mind. My head was a scary place sometimes, but I never let this go without a fight. Some of those moments were gold for my inspiration, so much words and feelings filling every corner of my mind. I just need my pad and my favourite black pen to write it all down, almost feeling the combination of chords and words inside my head, making all that virtual mess real, neat and tidy like some glorified pill popping in the center of my head. Teenage angst makes me feel like a deluded boy every now and then, and that's where I was. Even now that I know who I am and that I accepted my emotions and feelings, I wonder myself how this build up inside of me for so long before I actually spotted the right answer.

All those years together, creating, melting into our minds to get the best out of each other to express ourselves through our music. We shared so much from the beggining, I just thought my feelings reflected a true sense of friendship after everything we've been through. Thing is, as hard as it was for me to accept it, a tingle began to grow on my chest and cheeks everytime I was with Ben. Everytime he laughs I feel a little ray of sunshine opening inside of me, everytime he looks directly at my eyes, my dopamine snaps and I'm complete again. And everytime I get these feelings I don't know how to control myself. Like, wtf, am I in love or something? What should I do with this? Why am I feeling this? But I'm feeling it, I'm in love with Ben. And I can't dissociate no more, this is something I have to learn how to live with, and someday, how to express it. Cause nobody knows I'm a lesbian.