Warnings: Fluff and smut. Mentions of suicide and actions suck as cutting and blood will also be in this oneshot. If you are sensitive to this please don't read this chapter.

Key:

Thoughts
Feelings
"Speech"
Emphasis
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I'm so tired

I want to cry but I can't

The pressure is building up inside of my chest and I want it to go away.

Nobody cares...they wouldn't care if I left. Nobody loves me, they pity me. I could die and nobody would know.

"F*ggot"
"Loser"
"Go die"
"You don't deserve to be alive"

I saw the blade shine out of the corner of my eye. Grabbing it, I went to my bedroom. I rolled up my sleeves and brought it to my wrist. That stinging sensation my brain and body longed for. In the midst of all this I saw all of the other scars on my arm. That wasn't the only one either...

One

"Baby"

Two
Three
Four

"You don't deserve to be alive"

Five
Six
Seven

"You should be dead, you don't deserve life you f*ggot"

Eight
Nine
Ten

"He will never love you"
"Attention whore"
"He would hate you for this"

I felt myself become lightheaded. Maybe I could finally be free. Nobody would need to worry about me anymore and could have my weight off their shoulders.

*Knock*

*Knock*

"Hey Cory are you okay? I heard you crying. Can I come in?"

The world was starting to spin and it was hard to put words together. I tried as best as I can to tell him no. I just want to die

"Nnnnick, I'm fiiiiine" I slurred.

"Cory?! I'm coming in!"

I tried to respond but I couldn't. My vision was getting dark at the edges, I can finally go...

Nick's Pov
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I

went to open the door but it was locked. Good thing these are bad doors. I ran my elbow into the door until it finally opened. What I saw as a result is something I will never wanted to see;
Cory laying in his bed with open, bleeding cuts on his arms.

I ran over to him just as he fainted.

"Cory!? Cory stay with me! Anyone but you! You don't deserve this!"

I ran to the bathroom and grabbed the first aid kit and a washcloth. When I returned he was a bit paler and his breathing was really slow. I quickly cleaned up his arm and wrapped a bandage around it so he wouldn't loose anymore blood. Thank god I learned first aid basics. He was gaining color again and his breath was faster. Now all I could do is wait

Why didn't he tell me?

I should have been there for him.

I'm such a bad friend

I almost lost him. Almost lost my love...

Both Pov
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Cory woke up on a bed with a blinding light in his face. As his vision focused again he realized he was still in my room. Cory heard crying and turned his head toward it. Nick was at the other side of his bed, in the feadle position, crying.

Why did he keep me alive
Why didn't he just let me die like I wanted to

"N-Nick?"

Nick looked toward Cory, eyes wide, and hugged him. Nick was crying even harder now. Cory wrapped my arms around him and returned the hug, a little confused.

He doesn't hate me? He isn't mad?

"Cory *sniffle* w-why did you do this?" Nick asked him

"N-Nick I-" Cory got cut off

"You don't deserve this Cory! *sniffle* You, of all people, don't need this!" He sobbed

"Nick?"

"Y-Yeah?"

"Please calm down. You shouldn't be crying over me anyways, I'm useless. There are much better people out there than me anyways. W-why didn't you just let me die?"

Nick's heart shattered

"Why didn't I let you die?! Cory why would I let you die? I love you!" Nick regretted that the second he said it. His friendship is most likely gone now.

"Y-You love me?" Cory had no words. His crush just said he loved him!

"Y-Yeah...and I know you probably don't like me back but-

Cory cut him off and kissed him. Nick was shocked at first but slowly kissed back. Their mouths were like puzzle pieces cause they fit together perfectly. Cory's hands found their way around Nick's neck while Nick put his hands around Cory's waist. Nick gently bit Cort's lip, asking for entrance. Cory accepted and didn't even try fighting for dominance. Nick's hand went though Cory's blond hair, urging him forward a bit. Cory let out a low moan, he was in heaven. They separated, only a string of saliva keeping them connected.

"Wow" Cory couldn't believe what just happend.

"Yeah. Um Cory?" Nick asked

"Hm?" The blonde replied

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

"I would love to Nick!"

"Just please, don't do that again...I don't know what would happen if I lost you..."

"I promise Nick, I won't." He meant it to. He knew that Nick would always be there for him.