I think I learned from this. But when I figure it out. Everything that I seemed to connect vanished. I knew she loved me. But still, we both betrayed each other. I just can't figure out what it is. Maybe if I think long and hard and write down some notes then it'll all just stop vanishing and stay there.

We both knew that we were meant for each other. But now, I can't tell. What happened to us? I ponder at night thinking about this all the damn time. She really wanted to be loved and I did too. That is what made us perfect. You'd think opposites attract and the same goes away. But we were a match made in hell.

The limitless options. We were testing them. We never ever seemed to fail. I would take her out by the stars and let her see the night sky. We counted the stars and saw constellations.Our favorite constellation we used to go and see is a picture of a rose. The rose seemed perfectly fine but each day we went out the rose seemed to be growing thorns.

Come to think of it I think the thorns were trying to tell me something. Enough with me, you probably want to know what happened to us, what made us what we are now. She left me. I promise you, if I find her one day, I will make sure that I will never let go.

We were both blinded. Love is always blinded. Maybe that's why we were perfect. Maybe that's why when it rained, we started to cry with it. Maybe that's why we started to grow blinder. Maybe that's why we both made the ultimate price.

Look I'm sorry I'm holding you from knowing the story, but can you please stop writing down notes, it's rather unsettling. You see, we filmed everything together and when we went out. We liked to pretend that it was our own little movie and the random people were our actors.

It was funny at first to think about but now it's only really nice to think about it because that's the only think that makes me smile these days.....

You know what, I'll stop. Your just staring and writing. Being rude! But if you read this later, just realize what you really are trying to save. Realize what you're actually trying to figure out. Realize that this case is even greater than what you had thought. Realize how I can't be fixed. Realize how much an event can change a persons life forever.