Chapter 43

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When Yoongi finally started stirring again around 9 am, Jimin was there right away to check on him. He'd been sitting on the corner of the bed, leaning against the wall and reading one of the books Yoongi had recommended to him a couple of weeks ago.

Yoongi looked just as tired as Jimin felt when he opened his eyes and stared at Jimin, who was sitting next to him. He just silently stared. Not saying anything. So Jimin decided to talk in his place.

"How do you feel?"

"Honest answer?" Yoongi chuckled tiredly, with a bitter undertone. Jimin could feel his chest tighten at the sound. "Like shit." Yoongi sat up, breathing in deeply before closing his eyes, probably collecting himself. "I should take a shower. I feel dirty."

Jimin nodded slowly. "You can. Maybe I should warn you though. Namjoonie is here."

His surprise was pretty obvious on Yoongi's face. "He's here? Why is he here?"

"He said he needs a place to crash for a couple of days and he finished editing the songs, so he wanted to show them to you." Jimin explained, watching Yoongi getting up. He tried to read Yoongi's face. Did he not want to talk about what had happened the day before? If he didn't Jimin was okay with it. He was just worried that Yoongi might need it anyways.

"Why didn't he go to the studio?" Yoongi asked confusedly but Jimin could only shrug. Yoongi would have to ask Namjoon later.

"You wanted to take a shower." Jimin brought Yoongi back on track.

"Ah, right." The boy said absentmindedly before walking over to the closet and grabbing some comfortable at home clothes. There was a second of hesitation before Jimin called out to Yoongi again. "Uhm... do you want to talk about yesterday or should I just act like nothing happened?"

He looked at Yoongi with expecting eyes. The boy turned around, looking a bit unsure. He bit his lip, glancing to the side, before going back to Jimin. "It's... we can talk... just not now. Give me time to let that sink in." And with that he closed the door to the bathroom and Jimin was alone.

Once he had left the room, Jimin climbed out of bed and walked out of the bedroom. He'd need to distract himself. Was he just imagining things or was Yoongi acting colder towards him? Or was it just the consequences of what had happened yesterday?

If it was... shouldn't Jimin be helping Yoongi, instead of letting himself be pushed away? Why did this have to be so complicated?

At least one thing he could do was to make sure that Yoongi was well fed even throughout harder times, so that was what he was going to focus on, at least until Yoongi would be willing to talk about what had happened.

"Morning, Namjoon." Namjoon was sitting on the wooden bank they had tried to turn into a bed last night and typing away on his laptop. When Jimin entered the room he glanced up shortly and gave him an acknowledging nod and smile before going back to what he was working on.

Jimin knew that behavior way too well from Yoongi when he was focused so he didn't feel offended by the reaction. Instead he let the man work and made his way over to the kitchen counter.

Okay, so Yoongi clearly needed some sugar so he was going to make hot chocolate. He also needed some energy to get through the day so maybe eggs would be a good idea... and he liked toast a lot. Jimin decided to prepare two hard boiled eggs for extra energy, toast with ham and cheese and hot chocolate.

Of course he also made some for himself and Namjoon, but Yoongi was the focus here.

When Yoongi came back from the shower he was wearing a white hoodie and sweats. The hood, which was pulled into his face, couldn't hide the deep bags under his eyes though.

"Morning, Namjoon." Same reaction as before. A short nod and smile and silence. Jimin had to hold back a laugh at the way the look on Yoongi's face morphed into confusion and then realization. He probably had the exact same train of thought as Jimin.

"Did you sleep well?" Jimin asked softly, moving over to Yoongi and hesitantly grabbing his hand. He still wasn't a hundred percent sure whether Yoongi was angry with him or just not in a good mood.

Luckily it seemed to be the second, since Yoongi sighed a bit tiredly and played with Jimin's hand. "I... didn't really have any nightmares but I feel like I didn't sleep at all if I'm being honest."

Jimin frowned, leaning forward and pushing the bangs out of Yoongi's face. "Are you sure you don't want to talk about yesterday? Maybe it would help."

"We will... just not now. I have to gather my thoughts a bit... and please don't think I'm angry with you. I'm really not. Just need some time to process everything." Yoongi reassured, placing his hands on Jimin's cheeks and kissing him shortly.

"I know you're not... and just know you can always talk to me." They were both whispering since Namjoon was still right there, in the same room. Even if he was wearing headphones.

"I know." Yoongi sighed deeply. "And I will. It's just... a lot, I guess."

"We'll work through it." Jimin reassured quickly before leaning forward again and pecking Yoongi's cheek. "How about we start with a great breakfast?" Jimin pointed at the almost done toasts and already poured cups of hot chocolate. "What do you think?"

For the first time that day Yoongi smiled. "Sounds great."

A/N

THE NOTIFICATIONS ARE WORKING