Chapter 20

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It was one month later and Yoongi was sitting on his bed in complete silence, staring at the sweater hanging in his closet. The sweater Jimin had left here the last time he came over. The one he had borrowed from Yoongi.

He did not come back. Yoongi wasn't sure whether or not he was intending on coming back, but it hurt quite a bit. Maybe he had noticed the way Yoongi had been this close to kissing him. Maybe he had grown tired of spending so much time with him. Why would he do that anyways?

Yoongi never really liked himself so why would Jimin?

He took a deep breath. He could feel his anxiety creeping up on him, but he didn't want to give in to it. He had mainly gotten over it some time ago, but from time to time it just kept coming back for him. Up to this point he had simply pushed any thought of Jimin away. Trying not to think about something that made him this anxious. Something that made him feel this bad about himself. He had opened up to Jimin. Showed him his real self, if one could call it that. But now that he was in his room, his new song and even the lyrics done... he felt horrible about himself.

The weird thing was the way Jimin had simply disappeared and it felt like he never had been here in the first place. Namjoon never met him. The only place he connected to Jimin was the sea and the sea didn't change just because there was no one in there anymore. The only thing that was solid proof for Jimin's existence in the first place was a sea shell Jimin had given to him as a present for his birthday.

Jimin hadn't known anything about the fact that it was his birthday that day and when Yoongi told him had without a word plunged into the water, clothes still on, before reappearing with a wide grin and shoving the shell into his face. Yoongi couldn't help but smile at the memory. He carefully took the present and ran his finger over the harsh edge of the shell.

He had to get himself together. Where was the trust he was supposed to have in Jimin? There was no way he would just leave like that and Yoongi would have to believe in that. After all, Jimin was the only person Yoongi could actually talk to about everything. So how come he seemed to lose all faith just because of a month of no contact?

"Please come back, will you?" He felt insane to talk to a shell, but even then it felt good. Like he was actually talking to Jimin. Hopefully he wasn't going insane.

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Sorry for all the updates😂