Bey POV

I woke up the next morning and my head was banging. I stretched out my body and looked  at where I was at. I was in Shawn's living room. I stood up and walked over to the bathroom. The house was so quiet, I could hear my footsteps as I walked across the cold floor. I went into the half-bath and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked an absolute mess. My mascara was smudged and my eyes looked puffy. I grabbed some soap and washed my face, so I could at least look decent. I really try hard not to sleep in my makeup. I walked out and I looked around the house. Bit and pieces of the night came to me. I remember Shawn and I in his room and then I remember sleeping on the couch. I figured it would come to me later, but for the life of me, I couldn't figure out what happened between that.

I walked upstairs and went to Tierra's room. She was gone and so was Erin. I went, knocked on Shawn's door and so was he. I freaked out a little, but tried to be rational and call him. I called but he didn't answer. His phone would ring and then go to voicemail. I ran around the house looking for them. I called the school and luckily they were there. I know Shawn is a good guy, but I don't play about my baby. If I'm not in the know, I spazz.

It wasn't long before I heard my stomach grumble. I needed to eat and brush my teeth. I went to Shawn's bedroom to look for a toothbrush. That's when I noticed my bra on the floor. I went to pick it up and underneath was a gold packet. I thought about being in Shawn's room last night. Did we have sex? OMG, DID WE HAVE SEX AND NOT USE A CONDOM? "FUCK," I yelled aloud. I ran my fingers through my hair. I can't believe I got so drunk and had sex. I'm so stupid. I didn't want it to go down like that between us. Especially when we haven't even stopped fighting, but then again if we had sex maybe that was make up sex. I prayed that Shawn at least pulled out.

I went into the bathroom, put on my bra and continued  thinking about last night as I looked for a toothbrush. I found one under the counter and began to brush my teeth. 

It wasn't long before I finished up and walked back downstairs. I called Shawn again but he didn't answer. I figured I would help myself to the kitchen. I saw that he had pancakes, eggs and bacon. I cooked the eggs and bacon, luckily the pancakes were left overs so I didn't have to make those myself. I finished in about 15 minutes. I heard the door open and waited to face Shawn. I wasn't too sure if I was ready to see him just yet. I wonder what he would think about me now, knowing that he's seen me and tasted me.

I turned off the stove as he walked in. It was silent as we stared at each other.

"HI.."

"Hi.."

The tension was thick I could cut it with a knife.

"I tried to call you because I didn't know if I could cook in here, but you didn't answer."

"Yea, I was with a client. I always turn it down when Im working, but I see you helped yourself."

"Yea , sorry."

"It's ok. I don't mind." Shawn gave me a slight smile.

I smiled back until I thought about asking him about yesterday

"Shawn, I need to asked you something."

"Ok.."

"Did we have sex last night?"

"No, we didn't."

"Please don't lie to me. My bra was on the floor and there was a condom packet on the ground."

"Bey, I promise you, we didn't have intercourse. We were going to but didn't, thats why the condom was unopened."

"Thank you." I grabbed the pan that was in front of me and scraped the food out and onto the plate with the pancakes.

"You want some?" I said looked at Shawn, who was staring at me.

"No, I ate already."

"Ok" I went to the sink and I started to wash the dishes. I started thinking about why we didn't have sex and I started to remember us stopping. Shawn was on top and then he just put his boxers on and wouldn't tell me what was wrong. I remember feeling like I was no good. It was still a little hazy but I know I left. I got sad as I thought bout how  unwanted he made me feel and how insecure I felt about myself.

I finished the dishes and grabbed my food and sat at the table. Shawn sat on the side of me and we talked lightly.

"Bey, what you doing today?"

"Nothing."

"I was thinking we could go out to see a movie or maybe go shopping."

"I'm ok."

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"You can't say nothing when its clearly something. We talked about communicating."

"How can you tell me to communicate when you can't?"

"What are you talking about?"

"We were close, you were on top and then you just got off. You didn't even tell me why. You just made me feel like I was not good enough." I talked fast because I knew if I didn't, I wouldn't finish what I had to say.

"Bey. I....I.. care about you, a lot. I never want to take advantage of you and I didn't want you to regret it. I could tell that you were upset just because you thought we did it. Imagine how you would've felt if we really had. I didn't want you to feel like I was using you especially after the last couple of days and what you said about Keith."

I looked at Shawn like he was crazy. "Keith?"

"Yea, you told me about him last night?"

"Oh my gosh." I covered my face from embarrassment. I can't believe I told him something so personal.

"Bey, stop. You are amazing, theres nothing to be ashamed about."

"What did I tell you?"

"The basics, that he was an ass and that he hurt you and you left him after he yelled at Erin one day. Erin filled me in on the rest."

"HE WHAT?"

"Don't be mad. After our fight yesterday, he came to me and asked me if I was going to hurt you like Keith? I didn't know what he meant so I asked him to explain and he told me he used to put his hands on you. Then you confirmed it when you told me more last night." Shawn grabbed my hand and wiped the tears that slid down my face.

"Do you think I'm damaged?"

"No Bey, absolutely not. I think your a phenomenal woman. I just wanted out first time together to be one you would actually remember and be comfortable with. I wouldn't want to do anything that made you feel unsure of yourself. I'm sorry, If I made you second guess how fucking amazing you are."

"Thank you. I appreciate that a lot." I reached over the table to hug Shawn tight. He pulled me around and sat me in his lap. We hugged and laughed a little as he rocked me.

"Go finish your food."

I walked back over to my seat and ate up the rest of my food. I actually did a pretty decent job. I was somewhat proud of myself. Shawn and I talked some more and I am so happy we are back to how we first started.

"Shawn, I don't have any clothes."

"Its alright, just hop in the shower and Ill find you something to wear."

"Ok."

Shawn led me to his bathroom and gave me a towel and washcloth.

"Here, you know how to work the shower?"

I looked over to the knobs and shook my head no.

"Alright." Shawn leaned into the shower and turned the water on for me. I touched it to get a feel for the temperature.

"Can you make it hotter please?"

"Damn, how hot do you want it?"

"I like for it to give me a slight burn."

"Oh yea, we definitely will not be taking a shower together." He said as he turned his back to me as he adjusted the temperature.

I blushed at Shawn's idea. I thought about us in the shower and how steamy we would be. No pun intended. Then I remember that he's already seen me naked. I decided to tease him as much as possible. I took of the shirt that I slept in and stood in my bra and panties.

"Are you sure, Shawn?" He turned around and his eyes got big.

"I..Damn.. Bey. Fuck. You look good."

"Thank you, but that's not an answer."

"Shit, I'm not sure."

"Why don't we try it out now, so you will be?"

I grabbed his arm and pulled him towards me. He took off his shirt and tie and I started laughing.

"Nigga please. I'm not giving you no cookie. Move."

Shawn groaned. "How you gonna play with me like that Bey?"

"I needed to see if I still had it."

"Bey, you know damn well you still have it."

"Goodbye Shawn."

"Wow, that was cold blooded." I kept laughing and Shawn walked out closing the door behind him.

I took off the rest of my clothes and stepped into the shower. It felt so good. My body felt relieved and relaxed. I just stood there for 5 minutes letting the water hit me. I began to wash up and then I saw the door open. Shawn walked in.

"SHAWN, WHAT THE HELL?"

"My bad ma. Want to me to leave?" He said smirking at me through the glass door.

"Duh Shawn." I laughed trying to cover up my body.

"Alright" Shawn took his time slowly walking to the door while he kept his eyes glued to me.

I smirked at his foolishness before opening the door and throwing a bar of soap. He ran out the bathroom laughing. I finished washing up with the body wash that hung in the caddy. I couldn't help but smile at how Shawn and I were getting along. I'm so happy we made up, even if he does know the truth about Keith.

It wasn't long before I stepped out the bathroom and entered his bedroom. There he was sitting on the bed with an outfit laid out next to him.

"Wheres the rest of it at?"

"What you mean?"

"I mean, this is just a shirt, where the pants. I can't get some basketball shorts."

"No girl, you don't need them. My shirt will cover you enough. Here"

I grabbed the white shirt from Shawns hands and stared at him so he could turn around.

"Bey, its not like I haven't seen you before."

"Shawn, turn your ass around." I turned him around and dropped my towel. I put on the shirt and as it got over my head, I saw Shawn turn back around.

"You are helpless, huh."

"Well, I like to admire the curves of a woman's body, I am a feminist after all."

"Is that so?"

"Yea, I am all for taking care of the female body, the same way I took care of you last night."

"SHAWN, YOU SAID WE DIDNT HAVE SEX"

"We didn't, I just ate you out." He replied licking his lips.

"And whats that called , Shawn?"

"Head"

"Oral SEX.."

"I mean if you want to get technical."

"Duh nigga, of course I mean technical. Well let me ask this in laymen's terms, did we fuck, make love, bone, or put your dick in me?"

"Nah we didn't get that far, honest to God."

"mhmm alright."

"But that pussy was juicy as fuck, if you don't mind me saying."

"Well you must've not eaten it that good if I cant remember it."

"Wow.. that was hurtful." Shawn held his hand across his heart acting like he was hurt.

"Thats not my fault, you couldn't make it memorable."

"I can definitely change that tonight."

"No, Shawn. I want to wait before we get that far. I want to take it slow and not rush into things. Sex complicates things. Although it may be tempting, the last thing I want to do it is, make anymore mistakes."

"I hear you, but just know. If you with me, it wont be a mistake." Shawn looked at me with all seriousness.

I smiled at his comment, it was so nice to feel cared about and wanted. I lotion up my body and slid on some sneakers I left here a while ago.

 I grabbed my bag and we left. We took my car and went to Roosevelt Mall.

This was my shit. This mall had all my top stores. I was so excited that we were here, that I grabbed Shawns hand and practically dragged him behind me. Our first store was Saks Fifth Ave., this store had everything I wanted. I pushed a cart around the store as Shawn and I made small talk.

"What about this?" Shawn said holding up a simple black dress.

"It's not bad, but I want something sexier. I'll try it on though."

"Aye, you should get this shit here, It would love good as fuck on you."

I looked at the red bralette and figured it couldn't hurt.

"Ok, help me find some skirts."

We looked around the store for about an hour and stayed in the dressing room for another 30 minutes. Out of all the outfits we had, I only ended up getting three including the two pieces that Shawn picked out.

Our next stop was Paul, the jeweler, apparently that was Shawn's friend.

"Aye, Jay. Whats up man?"

"Nothing man. Im here with my friend, trying to find her some jewelry."

"Oh just a friend?"

"Yea man." Shawn looked over smirking at me.

I smiled back at him before turning my attention to Paul.

"Hello, I'm Bey."

"Nice to meet you Bey." Paul extended his hand over the counter to shake mine. "What kind of pieces are you looking for?"

"Well, I was thinking about some rings because I wear them with almost everything. Oo and an anklet and a bracelet."

"So you want the works, huh I can hook you up with whatever you want."

"Thank You."

"Nah, thank Shawn. He's the one that be pulling rank around here."

"Oh really?" I said giving Shawn a mischievous grin.

"Aye girl, don't be getting any ideas."

I laughed and told him not to worry. Paul walked us around the store showing us his most beautiful pieces. I saw three rings, two bracelets and three anklets I wanted. They were so gorgeous.

"I can't decide which one to get, Shawn" I whined.

"Get them all Bey, I got you taken care of." HE said putting his arm around me.

"Really?" I asked excitedly, while looking down at the jewelry on my hands.

"Yea, it was my idea to come in here, so I'll handle it. Paul, can you box these up for me?"

"Yea bro."

 I jumped onto Shawn and attacked him with kisses. I was so damn happy.

"Thank you so much. I really appreciate it baby,"

"Baby?" He started grinning.

"It was a slip up. Sorry."

"Its cool, now I know you want it too. ITs just a matter of time."

"Yea Yea whatever."

"It's cool, look around some more and see if you eye anything else."

"Ok" I walked away from Shawn and went to my birthstone, Sapphire. It was a beautiful deep, blue. There were so many beautiful gems but I didn't want to get anything else because Shawn was paying. I'd definitely be back though. I kept looking until I heard some woman talking.

"That nigga really in here shopping by himself?" Bitter ass bitch..

"Mhmm, probably using his money to spend on some broad."

"I'm glad I left him when I did. I can't believe I wasted my time on Shawn's pathetic ass."

"Me either. He was a trash ass man, girl."

I listened as the females bashed him behind me, but I got fed up and turned around.

"I don't know either one of you, but the fact that you keep talking shit about a man that isn't even thinking about you is pathetic. He is an amazing person and it's sad that you guys cant see past that. Do yourselves a favor and stop worrying about what the fuck he's doing for someone else, because to me it sounds like the ranting of a bitter and cynical woman."

I walked pass them. While Shawn and Paul looked at me shocked. The store was small so its not surprising that they overheard me.

"Bey, what happened?" Shawn asked concerned.

"Those females were just talking shit about you and I couldn't just stand there and not say anything. Who are they?"

"Well the one in the dark green is my ex, Kay. We dated for about a month and the other one is her friend Bria."

"They really was about to catch the fade." I said with all seriousness.

"Oh so you a thug now" Shawn asked putting his arm around me.

"Hell yea. I've always been a thug." I laughed pooping my collar.

"Mhm cute ass. C'mon, lets roll out."

"Bye Paul." I waved.

"Bye Wifey." He replied. I chuckled while Shawn mean-mugged him.

I carried my jewelry while Shawn held my other hand and we walked out.

"Bey?

"Yea." I said while looking around.

"You care about me a lot huh?"

"Yea I do. You not mine, but you're my closest friend. I can tell you anything and I hate when people disrespect you like how she was back there." I felt myself getting heated as I thought about the previous encounter.

"What was she saying?"

"You wasn't shit and you basically brought her down when you guys were together."

"Thats wild because I gave her whatever she needed. She just mad that I didn't want her anymore.She became too entitled. She always wanted more and expected me to just give it to her. That's dead."

"I hate females like that. I swear Ill never be like them. Shit like that irks me."

"Because you're independent and I love that about you."

"Thank you. You know what has anybody ever catered to you?"

"What you mean?"

"Like ran you a bath and cooked for you and took you out?"

"Nah, I do that for the women."

"Well Im gonna be the first. Tonight, I want you to find a sitter for tomorrow and get ready to be pampered because I am going to show you how it feels to be taken care of."

"Be thats—"

"Not up for discussion."

"Alright, Ill find someone for both of us."

Good, let me know when everything is set."

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Thanks for reading! Hope it was to your liking.  Any questions or suggestions let me know.

What do you think Bey should do for Shawn?

What about those bitter ass females talking shit?

Do you think Shawn and Bey will take the next step soon or will it be a while?