Bey POV

As soon as he was going to respond, Shawn opened the door.

I thanked Ray and pushed pass Shawn.

"Move." I walked to the couch and plopped down kicking off my heels.

"Bey don't start that shit with me. You're drunk af and the kids are sleep."

"BeY DoN'T sTaRt thAT sHIt WiTh ME. You'RE DruNK aF And THE KidS ArE SleEP." I repeated mocking him. "Shut the hell up.. Shawn. YOU ACT ALL butthurt and shit but you don't care about me."

"BEY, sit down and drink some water." Shawn told me as he put base in his voice.

"OH AM I ALLOWED TO DRINK WATER NOW?" I said standing up. I must've stood up too fast because I fell and bust my ass. I couldn't help, but laugh at myself. I probably looked a mess.

I leaned my back against the couch sitting on the floor and unzipped my dress. It was so tight and I just wanted to be free. I used the couch to stand up and I slid the dress from off my shoulders and onto the ground. I stepped out of it and Shawn looked at me as I stripped down into my white lace lingerie. I started walking to the other couch but not before falling again. I ended up just getting on all fours and crawling back up towards the other couch opposite of him.

I felt Shawn watch me as I climbed up and laid down. He stood and walked over to me handing me the water. I turned my head away and hugged the pillow that was in my arms.

"Bey, drink the water."

"No."

"BEY DRINK THE DAMN WATER." He raised his voice at me

I turned over, grabbed the water and the aspirin that was in his hand. I sat up and drank it. I was like a man in the desert. I drank that water so fast it spilt over onto my chest leaving me a little wet.

Shawn watched me like a hawk and took my glass, placing it on the table. He stared at me for a second before standing up to leave.

"NOOOO" I screamed causing him to spin around quickly

"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

"I don't want you to leave me." I started crying heavily as Shawn stood there. It wasn't a cute cry either, it was bawling, with a red face and a little bit of snot.

"Bey, I'll be back, relax."

"No, Shawn. Don't go." I tried to stand up, but my balance was off. Shawn came over and helped me up.

"Bey, I'm just getting you a shirt."

"I don't care."

He sighed and put his head under my arm to walk with me. We made our way up stairs and into his bedroom. It was huge.

"Damn." I said looking around. Shawn chuckled while looking at me.

"Sit on the bed." I walked over to his body mirror and admired my body. I looked sexy. This white  made me look so damn fine and I couldn't  help but touch myself a little. 

 I went over to his California king bed and laid back. I rolled on it while he disappeared into his closet. I started feeling sleepy, so I slipped under the comforters. I snuggled up next to his pillow until I heard him come out.

I looked at him with a sad pouty face. "What Bey?" Shawn rolled his eyes.

"Lay with me." I reached out my arms waiting for him to come.

"NO"

"Pleaseee" I pleaded with him. "I don't want to be alone. I don't feel good."

"Should've thought about that before you got shit faced." I looked down as he berated me. He walked over to the door and closed it. He left me all alone, well at least I thought he did.

I felt him get in bed and put his back towards me. I wrapped my arm around his stomach and he rolled over more giving me access to his full chest. I felt good and it wasn't just because of that aspirin, I felt home in his arms and I realized that I wanted him and I wanted this. I figured now more than ever I should tell him why I acted the way I did.

"Shawn?"

"Mhmm."

"There was a guy...after Erin's dad. He..um... he was someone I really fell for. I thought we could be happy together. I brought him around my family. He met my mom, Erin, Kelly. He treated me great and it was nice to have finally found someone after Erin's dad. But after a while he began to hurt me. Erin saw and I swore to him, I would never let that happen again. I'm scared to let someone get close to me because I don't want to go through what he put me though. Ok? I don't want to put Erin though that."

Shawn didn't say anything, he just held me tighter. I looked up at him and he looked down at me. "I'm sorry." He said softly. "I never gave you time to really explain yourself and I apologize. I'm here for you and I am never going to hurt like him."

"Thank you." I looked at his lips and back at his eyes. He held my waist as we snuggled in bed. We maintained eye contact and I felt myself inching closer to his lips. It wasn't long before our lips crashed against each other and our hands roamed each others bodies. I climbed on top of him, taking off his tank top. His hands gripped my ass while his mouth attacked my neck. I grinded on him as I moaned out in pleasure.

"Fuck Shawn."

"Bey you look so damn good."

I looked back down, kissing him again with more passion. Tears shed down my face as the intensity of what was happening built up. Shawn's hands found the hooks of my bra and ripped It apart, My bra fell to the side exposing my breasts to him. He stopped sucking on my neck and grabbed each one of my breasts into his hands. He took his time sucking on them. He flicked his tongue against my nipple while I moaned aloud. I felt his dick in between my thighs begging to be freed. I couldn't handle it anymore.

"Shawn I need it." That was all he needed to hear before he flipped me over and slid off my panties. There I was fully exposed in front of him. There was nowhere to hide. He stood in between my thighs and grabbed them as he bent down.

Never have I ever, he put me on a whole different world. He dived head first into my dripping pussy. I immediately reached for his head arching my back to feed him more. His tongue flicked against my clit and I screamed out in ecstasy.

"Damn, baby, you taste so good."

"Shawn...MMM.. Please... I...I.." I tired to catch my breath but I couldn't. "FUCKKKKKK"

I came hard and Shawn licked it all up. He crawled back up towards me towering over me. I used my feet to slide his boxers off. He was HUGE. I haven't had sex in so long, I don't think I could even handle all of it.

I was so nervous, Ive never taken anything that big before. I waited for Shawn to enter me but he didn't instead he pulled up his boxers moved away. I didn't understand what was happening. He sighed and sat down on the bed while I used the blanket to cover myself.

"Shawn...what's wrong?" I said softly.

"I can't do it."

"Why not?" I was beyond confused, we just had a nice heart to heart, a crazy make out session followed by some bomb ass head, Now, he's backing out.

"I just can't Bey. It doesn't feel right."

"Is it me?"

"No, lets just go to bed. You're head is going to hurt in the morning," He laid down and turned his back to me.

I felt so bad, I mean was it me? Was I not attractive enough? I immediately felt insecure and out of place. I held back the tears as I thought how foolish of me it was to think that he would actually think my body would be good enough. I looked down at my faded scars and all the stupid moles I had covering my arms and stomach. I hated it and I hated myself. I thought for a moment I would be desirable, and I was until he took in everything. Until he decided to examine every nook and cranny of my body for a short, sweet moment.

I looked on the floor and saw my bra and panties laying there, I grabbed my panties and slipped them back on, grabbed Shawns shirt and quickly covered myself. My feet hit the cold ground and I walked out. I went downstairs and laid on the couch, where I cried myself to sleep. It was about 30 minutes before I was knocked out cold.

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Shawn POV

It was around 1:00 a.m when I heard a knock on the door. I knew it was Bey getting back in. I opened the door and she just pushed past me.

"Move." She walked to the couch and plopped down kicking off her heels.

"Bey don't start that shit with me. You're drunk af and the kids are sleep." I was so annoyed that she would let herself get so wasted.

"BeY, DoN'T sTaRt thAT sHIt WiTh ME. You'RE DruNK aF And THE KidS ArE SleEP. Shut the hell up.. Shawn. YOU ACT ALL butthurt and shit but you don't care about me." I listened to her as she imitated me. I don't know why she thought I didn't care about her because I do. She just pissed me off.

"BEY, sit down and drink some water."

"OH AM I ALLOWED TO DRINK WATER NOW?" She said stood up and then dropped to the floor tripping over her own feet. I shook my head and just sat down watching her lay on the floor. She eventually stood back up and started undressing herself. She zipped down her dress and let it fall at her feet. There she stood in nothing but her lingerie. They were white and lace. Her bra lifted her breasts and accentuated every crevice of her. Her thong made her ass pop even more. I looked at her body as she just stood there.  She was so beautiful, Her body was absolutely stunning. I watched her body move as she got on all fours and crawled to the opposite couch.

I got up and walked over to her handing her water. She didn't want to drink it at first but she came around. Ae she drank the water, water spilled onto her chest causing it glisten. I felt myself getting aroused, so I turned to go upstairs and get a shirt for her.

"NOOOO" I heard Bey scream. I turned around and looked at her like a mad man.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

"I don't want you to leave me." She started crying heavily as I stood there.

"Bey, I'll be back, relax." I had to remind myself to never get her drunk.

"No, Shawn. Don't go." She tried to stand up, but her balance was off. I came over and helped her up.

"Bey, I'm just getting you a shirt."

"I don't care."

I sighed and put my head under her arm to walk with me. We made our way up stairs and into my bedroom.

"Damn." I heard her say. It made me laugh a little. She was so precious man.

"Sit on the bed." I told her as I walked over to my closet.

I was in there for about 5 minutes and when I came back out she was under the covers. She looked an angel.

"Lay with me." Bey reached out her arms waiting for me.

"NO" I said sternly.

"Pleaseee" She kept pleading with me. "I don't want to be alone. I don't feel good."

"Should've thought about that before you got shit faced."

After I said it, she seemed like she got sad and put her head down. I walked to the door and was going to leave but just closed it and turned the light out. I slid in the bed and laid with my back to her. I didn't want to get hard because the smell of her could arouse me alone. I felt her tug at my waist, so I laid on my back to give her better access to my chest.

"Shawn?" I heard Bey whisper to me.

"Mhmm."

"There was a guy...after Erin's dad. He..um... he was someone I really fell for. I thought we could be happy together. I brought him around my family. He met my mom, Erin, Kelly. He treated me great and it was nice to have finally found someone after Erin's dad. But after a while he began to hurt me. Erin saw and I swore to him, I would never let that happen again. I'm scared to let someone get close to me because I don't want to go through what he put me though. Ok? I don't want to put Erin though that." Bey caught my attention with what she said. It made me understand why she acted the way she did. I felt bad for her. I looked down her not understanding why anybody would want to hurt her. She didn't specify how exactly she was hurt but I figured It was both verbally and physically. I thought about my talk with Erin earlier after Bey and left. He was still upset about what happened in the kitchen and asked me if I was gonna hurt his mommy. Of course, I told him no and asked why he thought that. He then told me about Keith and how he would here them fight and stuff breaking. He would go into his mom's room after Keith would leave and see dark spots on his mom and her crying. HE always tried to make her feel better with hugs and kisses. It went on for a while until one night, Keith raised his voice at Erin and that was it for Bey. She left and never looked back. Sometimes it only takes one wrong act to the wrong person to make it snap.

I didn't say anything for a while because I was in such deep though, I just held her tighter.

 I looked down at her and she looked up at me. "I'm sorry." I said softly. "I never gave you time to really explain yourself and I apologize. I'm here for you and I am never going to hurt like him." I genuinely met what I said. I decided that I wouldn't be upset with her anymore. I would take my time with her and be patient. She deserved to be shown what a true man can do for her and Erin.

"Thank you." Bey and I stared at each other until she moved up to kiss me

 She gripped my waist harder before mounting me. Our lips attacked each other and moans filled the room. I grabbed her ass and felt my dick getting hard. Her skin was smooth and her hands worked to take off my tank top. I sucked on her next and she began to grind on me.

"Fuck Shawn."

"Bey you look so damn good."

She looked back down, kissing me again with more passion. I felt her tears shed down her face. I kissed them away as I found the hooks of her bra and ripped It apart, It bra fell to the side exposing her breasts to me. I stopped sucking on her neck and grabbed each one of her breasts into my hands. I took my time sucking on them. I flicked my tongue against her nipple while she moaned aloud. My dick strained the fabric in my pants and I needed to feel her.

"Shawn I need it." That was all I needed to hear before I flipped her over and slid off her thong. She was fully exposed in front of me. I licked my lips in anticipation, I needed to taste her. I stood in between her thighs and grabbed them as I bent down.

I dived head first into her dripping pussy. She tasted so good and clean. I felt her juices drip from the sides of my mouth. I felt her reach for my head and looked up. She arched her back to feed me more. I took it all in and let my tongue flick against her clit. I heard her scream out in ecstasy.

"Damn, baby, you taste so good." I told her as she panted.

"Shawn...MMM.. Please... I...I..FUCKKKKKK"

I felt bey getting ready to cum. I prepared myself for it and licked her clit faster. She came hard and I licked it all up. I crawled back up towards her, towering over her. She used her feet to slide my boxers off. My dick popped. She looked at it with wide eyes before relaxing again. I felt my dick dripping with pre-cum. She looked so ready for me but then I thought about how drunk she was too. I didn't want to take advantage of that. I couldn't let myself do it. One, I wanted to make sure she was in her right mind before I took this step with her and Two, it had been so long before I did it. I wanted to see my effect on her and I needed her to be fully sober for it.

I got off of herand pulled my boxers back up. I knew she was probably confused. I sat on the edge of the bed and rubbed my face.

"Shawn...what's wrong?" Bey said as she touched my shoulder.

"I can't do it."

"Why not?"

"I just can't Bey. It doesn't feel right."

"Is it me?" I was surprised at her asking me that but I figured it made sense.

"No, let's just go to bed. Your head is going to hurt in the morning," I laid down and faced the edge of the bed.

I relaxed and did my best to fall asleep until I felt Bey leave the bed. I didn't turn around but I heard the door close.

I figured she just went downstairs to get some more water or something. It was about 15 minutes and I got up to check on her. When I left the room, I walked towards the living room and saw Bey laying on the couch with my shirt on. I heard her crying and felt bad. She was cradled up with a pillow and I could tell she was hurt. I didn't want her to be upset. I decided to give her, her space. I went back to my room and went to bed.

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