Jin🌸

Hobi...

Hobi🦄

What.

Jin🌸

I'm sorry

I know you're mad at me

And you have every right to be

But

Jin is typing...

Hobi🦄

But what, hyung?

I was in the hospital

Everyone came to see me

Everyone

Even our mom and step-dad

Namjoon too

Plus Yoongi and Jimin and Kookie and Tae

They all came

And you didn't

You don't even care when I collapse in school

Hobi is typing...

Jin🌸

Hobi wait!

Jin is typing...

Hobi🦄

You're too busy with your precious football team and all your new friends

Too busy for us, your family

Even though we've always been here for you

Even when no one liked you

Even when you only had one friend

And now you have lots of friends

And you don't need us anymore

And I guess that's fine if that's what you want

If that's what makes you happy

But news flash

It doesn't make me happy

Not when you forget I exist

Or when I'm hooked up to a heart monitor and you don't even text me to ask how I'm feeling

Do you remember Jin?

When we were kids?

When you cared about us?

When you took care of us?

When you were a part of the family?

You know what

I was happy when you got friends

I thought it would make you happy

But I take it back

I don't like it

You traded us for them

And wow, it hurts

Has been hurting for a while

Don't get me wrong Jin

It's not that we can't get by without you

Yoongi takes care of me and Jimin

He does a pretty good job

He's not perfect but he really tries, and that's important to me

So it's not that I only miss you for you cooking Jin

Although I miss that too

I miss a lot of things

How you always had our backs

How you were overly protective of us even when you didn't need to be

How you were like a second parent to us

And I know

It wasn't fair to you

It wasn't fair of us to put all that responsibility on you when we were young

You were a kid too

You weren't ready to be a parent

But you still did your best to help raise us

Especially when Dad wasn't all there, when Jimin was gone and he was just a shadow

You got us through those years

But what changed, Jin?

You used to be there for us

You used to care

You used to make us lunches

And tell us jokes that weren't funny

And we'd laugh anyway because you were our older brother and we looked up to you so so so much

You were a role model for us

A great older brother who took care of his dongsaengs

Who made sure everyone was okay before he even thought of himself

Where did that boy go?

We tried to copy the old you

I try to look after Jimin

Make sure he's okay, that he's happy, that he isn't hurting

And Yoongi does the same for us

But you don't do that for us anymore

Maybe it was always coming

Maybe you couldn't shoulder all of that responsibility by yourself forever

It was inevitable

You leaving us

But I didn't know that

I didn't know you'd leave us

You want to hear something funny hyung?

We always used to say "don't leave us like Mom did"

Well

Mom came back

She cares

She's doing her best

She's raising us

She's not perfect

But damn it Jin she tries

Unlike you who doesn't even care when one of us is in the hospital

Maybe we should change the saying to "Don't leave us like Jin did"

It'd be more accurate that way.

Tbh it was hard to see everyone in the group chat

Just talking to you like normal

Like you're still one of us when you aren't, you haven't been for a long time

It hurt when they called you the best hyung

What kind of hyung are you?

You're practically a stranger to our family

I was sad to see that the triplets still look up to you even now

They're disillusioned

Naive

Hopeful for an outcome that won't happen

But what kind of hyung would I be to them if I woke them up, if I reminded them of the reality, that you don't care about us anymore

That you're too self-absorbed to worry about anyone but Jin

That you have popularity instead of a family

I can't break their hearts Jin

So I won't do that

I can't do it to them

But I hope you realize one day

That their hearts are already broken

You broke them

They just don't know it yet.

Jin🌸

Hobi

I won't argue with most of what you said, but...

I went to the hospital...

I went to see you...

Only Yoongi told me to leave...

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Hobi🦄

Jin came to see me in the hospital, and you told him to leave?

Yoongi🐢 

Yes.

a short chapter to hurt your heart

happy mothers' day!