where_san_sings

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where_san_sings i feel it burning me

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lifeonmars why are u ignoring our texts :(

hongjoong.k answer the phone bitchass

princessgi don't do this our hyungs are worried abt u yk
   | hongjoong.k i'm not worried.
   | lifeonmars now isn't the time hongjoong

j.yun hey why's everyone crying over u
   | j.yun are u okay?

jjongch i can't watch this anymore

sansvenus sooo who's gonna bail me out of jail when i commit arson for revenge on behalf of my sani

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jongho
hi wooyoung

me
hey
what's up

jongho
you

me
uhh?

jongho
do you know how much you're hurting san?

me
i mean i'd rather not think ab it/
i mean i'd/
that's a rather brutal start to this conversation

jongho
does it look like i care
and since it seems you're too dense to answer, the last time he showed behaviours like this he ended up in the fucking hospital

me
oh
lmao that's a lot to just throw at me so suddenly don't u think?

jongho
if it means you get your act together then good.

me
what is that supposed to mean

jongho
this is your fault
if something happens to san hyung it's all your fucking fault

me
i'm sorry

jongho
you're sorry??
saying that means nothing until you actually do something

me
do what though
what do u want me to do ab this

jongho
explain, apologise, i don't care
just talk to him for heaven's sake

me
how do u expect me to do that when he probably hates me or smth

jongho
that's meant to be a joke right?

me
why would u think that isn't my humour like rly obvious

jongho
you're ridiculous
you could strangle byeol and san would forgive you for it

me
pft

jongho
i'm being real with you right now
you're the last person he could ever hate wooyoung

me
not after what happened but ok

jongho
yeah?? and what exactly did happen
because i know the both of you decently well to know you'd never intentionally hurt one another

me
i don't think you'd want to know

jongho
there's no chance it was that bad

me
it's got to do w yeosang
does that change ur mind? 😝😝

jongho
frankly it does not

me
liar

jongho
i'm not lying
the only thing hearing his name did to my mind was sting a little if you really want to know

me
can't say i don't relate loll

jongho
but yeosang and san don't interlink at all at least to my knowledge
and i take psychology

me
you'd be surprised/
you'd/
pay more attention in class then

jongho
woooow
how does san even like you

me
how are u even sure that's true

jongho
i take psychology have i mentioned?
and u like him back just as much

me
i don't remember talking ab me

jongho
awh does ur little crush fluster you?! 😆😆😆

me
no

jongho
you aren't that convincing

me
stfu

jongho
i have duties to meet i'm afraid

me
which involve texting me?

jongho
yes
they also involve your somewhat lover boy

me
when will the time come where i have a conversation without him being brought up

jongho
when you open your eyes

me
to what?
enlighten me psychologist 💋

jongho
to the fact that cutting him off isn't a good decision
like at all

me
was expecting u to tell me smth i didn't already know

jongho
why are you doing this then wooyoung

me
bc it's the best option i have
it'll hurt him less than if i stayed

jongho
would it really?

me
otherwise he would've found out sooner or later that i'm not enough for him
so most likely yeah

jongho
what have you been fed to think this
san doesn't want anyone with anything more or less than you
i'm absolutely certain about that

me
even if that was true that doesn't mean there's no space for him to end up disappointed

jongho
what could he possibly be disappointed about when he's with the only person he wants?

me
didn't you say that was me?? exactly.
my feelings are just so all over the place that i don't think i could do it
i like him sm jongho i rly rly do
but i just
i feel like i shouldn't?? not that that's his fault
shit i said a lot
sorry

jongho
i'm glad you're getting thing off of your chest if anything
however being completely honest, i am a bit confused still
i won't pressure you into saying anything more though if you aren't up for it

me
i don't blame u i'm just blabbering bullshit atp
it's stupid as well so

jongho
i highly doubt it is stupid
i know that might be difficult to believe considering how sort of harsh i've been
but it's only because i'm concerned for the two of you

me
rly is stupid tho
like why am i feeling guilty over someone who's fucking dead
wait im sorry
fuck im aware that's a sensitive topic for u i'm so sorry

jongho
its alright
honestly don't worry wooyoung
it just came as a surprise
you can continue if you'd like to

me
i promise u it makes more sense in my head
saying it aloud makes it sound dumb but idk i just feel like i'm replacing him
and i know i'm not they're both such different ppl both in general and to me personally
but feeling like this again for someone that isn't yeosang always seemed impossible
it was kinda smth i accepted 
until well sannie

jongho
this makes a lot more sense now

me
is that good or bad i can't tell

jongho
good definitely
i appreciate you opening up wooyoung
i can guess it wasn't the most easiest thing to do

me
yeah lmao

jongho
i'm really sorry too
i understand now the severity of the situation you're going through
i get why san meaning something to you that yeosang once did scares you so much

me
thank u
you're probably like wtf why but nobody else rly does

jongho
even if that is the case, you don't need to be thankful
after all you've said i don't think you're gonna want to hear this but please at least think about reaching out to san again

me
i want to so bad u have no idea/
i want to so/
u didn't even have to ask

jongho
i didn't?

me
well i've tried texting him
still need to learn how to press send as of right now though

jongho
that's a step im glad to hear
i hope u find that courage soon

me
me too? but then again
ah fuck it
yeah me too

jongho
don't think i missed that moment of development right there

me
i could've been lying to u

jongho
pessimism
/ˈpɛsɪmɪz(ə)m/
noun
1. a tendency to see the worst aspect of things or believe that the worst will happen.

me
how long did that take u

jongho
like a minute
maybe two my wifi is crap

me
you have a lot of time on your hands huh

jongho
evidently if i've been talking to you for the past twenty minutes

me
what happened to this being ur duty?

jongho
ah yes thanks for reminding me
now i check up on your somewhat lover boy

me
stop calling him that

jongho
no

me
why
it makes like no sense anyway

jongho
perfect for the duo at hand am i right?

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a/n: she got big ol' titties