me
i never text u in the mornings this feels illegal
hi tho sannie
delivered 13 hrs ago

sannie sannie sannie 
yo
i'm at uni now where tf are u
this is quite literally cyber bullying i'm going to report u
delivered 10 hrs ago

san
u cant die without my consent
how is that any fair
delivered 1 hr ago

come here for yves at least if not for me
she misses u :(
delivered just now

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seonghwa oppar's good lil boys 😉

me
hi 👊
have any of y'all heard from sannie recently?

hwa
i haven't heard from him at all since yesterday
sorry i cant be of any help woo ;(

me
don't be hwa i just need him a little

yunho <3
i haven't either oh no
besides from mingi but idt that counts

me
it doesn't :|
it's not even a skl day too idk where he could be rn

yunho <3
hey don't stress ab it babes
i'm sure he's fine!!

hwa
yeah i know it can be hard woo especially because of the distance but maybe he's just caught up in something you know?

me
right sorry

yunho <3
no apologising either <:(
how many times do i tell you

me
ik i just forget sometimes
pls lmk if u hear from him tho?

hwa
of course!
though i'm sure we won't need to, he seems to talk to you more than all of us put together nowadays

me
really?

hongjoong
you're actually stupid

me
what tf did i do???!

hongjoong
i probably shouldn't say
san is a lot stronger than he looks

me
okay..?

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me
she misses you :(
delivered 6 mins ago
i forgot how weird ur friends are for a second
how do i manifest ur presence

this is the kinda shit u like isn't it?
i don't blame u she's hot dude
i had so much faith that you'd just appear out of nowhere i think i'm going delirious
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seonghwa oppar's good lil boys 😉

jongho
well isn't this funny
i was going to ask where san hyung is too

hongjoong
damn are we rly not enough

jongho
never that it's just something personal hyung

me
lmao and i just want to bother him like i do every day 🤩

yunho <3
we all know he's like your biggest source of happiness tho so ig that counts as personal too!

me
what
no cus i'm scared wdym "we all know" ??/!£; are y'all watching me through my window or smth

hwa
you both make it very obvious

hongjoong
exactly what are u so shocked for

me
make what obvious?

yunho <3
😁😄😐😕😟
ily but r u dumb

hongjoong
san is rubbing off on him

me
take that back rn
yes i may not be the smartest person but san? u comparing me to san?????
he is a complete other breed

hongjoong
you're so brave
once he gets here you're actually dead

me
no he'd just insult me like a six year old in return

hwa
so accurate i could rip my hair out right now

me
that is rather concerning 😁
but hey jongho
you okay?

jongho
me??
i'm fine why do u ask

me
it's just that u said u needed sannie for smth personal
so ig i was just wondering

jongho
oh
that's nice of you but yeah like i said i'm fine
i just wanted to talk to him about something sort of urgent

me
i know this might sound a bit uncomfortable coming from me but i'm always here if you ever need it
obviously sannie and i are different tho so i understand if you might not want to rn!

jongho
thank you wooyoung
i agree but is the offer still up for right now? if that's not a bother of course??

me
of course it is
i have ur number saved so give me a second :))
seen

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me
i think i'm going delirious
delivered 11 mins ago
sannie
help help help
watch me fuck things up by saying smth dumb
shoot me rn
delivered just now

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me
hi jongho
what's up then?

jongho
ah how do i say this

me
if it's any easier we could make some boundaries first?

jongho
boundaries?

me
yeah like if there's a certain topic u might not want me to question or if u don't anyone else hearing ab this
that kinda thing

jongho
i think that'd work yeah

me
anything u have in mind then??

jongho
could you maybe not bring up any like you know
past relationships?

me
thank god it's not ab/
thank god/
yeah of course
anything else?

jongho
and i guess the only other person who i'd feel comfortable talking about this with is san hyung so

me
got it
i'll make sure not to mention anything to the others then

jongho
thank you
uhm
well to start things off since i feel this might come as a surprise to you, i'm not exactly sure on who i like yet if you get what i mean by that
hence the boundary we decided on

me
i have a feeling there's more to that but i just want to say that's completely fine jongho
at the end of the day it doesn't rly matter on whether you're sure or whether u label yourself or not bc it has nothing got to do w anyone that isn't you

jongho
i can see why san hyung likes you so much

me
oh
that makes it sounds like he/
that makes it/
experiencing way too many feelings rn to respond to that

jongho
ahahaha
he talks about you a lot you know

me
that doesn't help ????

jongho
oops i apologise :)
getting back on track though

me
yeah yeah ofc go on

jongho
im not that sure yet but i think
i think i like someone

me
omgosh tea
care to spill

jongho
that's sort of the thing uhm

me
i don't mean to pressure u or anyth but why would i ever have a problem w it?

jongho
i don't know but they're a friend
of us both

me
i'd say that just makes it even better
cus at least you know they can be trusted right?

jongho
you're right actually
fuck it then
it's yunho

me
oh
wow

jongho
like i said i'm still not a hundred percent sure
we've only known each other for a while which i guess i have to thank you for
but i just feel different around him? like

me
ik what u mean

jongho
that's not like an issue is it?

me
no obvs not
if anything i can't blame u yunho's great

jongho
not like that it's because
well i don't know
i know that those kind of feelings aren't bad
but my parents
they aren't exactly fond of anything that isn't heterosexual
and they just make me feel so guilty??
their words hurt even though they aren't meant to be directed towards me
it makes me feel so bad
like i shouldn't even be apart of their family

me
hey jongho
do you have any siblings?

jongho
i have an older sister yeah
but why's that important?

me
what ab her
not in like a perverted creepy way dw im one huge 🏳️‍🌈 but
is she straight?

jongho
yeah she is
she has a fiancé too

me
and what do u think ab them?

jongho
they're cute
they love each other a lot
they aren't perfect but in my opinion i think that's what makes it even more real

me
this might sound a bit strange but would u ever wish any bad on their relationship?

jongho
no???
they deserve each other i couldn't ever do that
that's horrible for anyone to do even

me
ig i just want you to know that if you were to have a fiancé one day that perhaps isn't a woman
no matter what ur parents think and no matter what anyone thinks
your relationship wouldn't be any different to hers
unless mf turns out to be a criminal or smth obvs but as long as a relationship is healthy and all partners are happy being in it then it's valid
just as much as ur sisters is
okay??

jongho
why am i getting emo

me
it's a wooyoung thing i'm surprised sannie hasn't mentioned it before
wait what the fuck
talking ab bitches-
brb give me a second 😁

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sannie
i don't have a gun on me rn sorry i cant be of any help
but greetings to u too

me
sannie
what the hell

sannie
not even gonna greet me back?

me
i thought u died

sannie
u already made that quite obvious

me
what tf happened to u asshole
i thought smth/
i thou/

sannie
my roommate is a bitch

me
tell me smth i don't already know
but srsly
are you okay?

sannie
yes woo i'm okay :)))
perfect actually bc m**gi's permanently moved out
but hey what are u doing worrying ab me hm?
not very slay of u is it

me
does that make him homeless now
and mf i don't choose to???!/£

sannie
unfortunately not hwa's doing charity work and took him in
ik and i'm genuinely so sorry but m**gi stole my charger before he left??? asshole i swear

me
what
why tf would he do that

sannie
i have no idea
but enough of him
how have u been without my extravagance woo?

me
i spoke to jongho

sannie
so that's what the shooting thing was ab?

me
precisely 💪
it went fine tho??? i think so yeah
he needed to talk to u so i offered if maybe he'd feel better w talking to me instead of no one at all
weirdly enough he said yes

sannie
was it ab his parents by any chance?

me
yeah it was actually

sannie
istg i'll send them to hell one day
i'm sorry woo but is it okay if i check up on him real quick?

me
u don't need to ask sannie
i'm not that unstable without u

sannie
i'd love to argue otherwise
but thank you so much for speaking to him despite everything
ur an angel

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a/n: i love hongjoong

he isn't even in my bias line nor is he my current wrecker but i rly rly rly love him n idk what i'd be doing without him he just <<<3333333