sannie
yo gay boy

me
ew are u homophobic

sannie
omg yes how did u know 😞🚫🌈🤘
anyway
i have sth to show u

me
what what what

sannie
hahahahaha
don't kill me
please
bc joong already will and i don't have plans to revive just for u yk

me
pretty selfish if u ask me
but hurry tf up
i'll fall asleep otherwise

sannie
isn't that like
close to impossible for someone like u

me
exactly my point

sannie
mean

but i have a new head hi

me
omgosh
fucking world pause
what
how
why
i've never imagined u with pink hair before
this is weird
it's pretty tho
you're pretty/
you're/

sannie
wait rly

me
no i just lied to you
yes rly sannie

sannie
sooo
ur not gonna yell at me?

me
you're fucking stupid sometimes
why would i do that

sannie
idk
joong does tho
says ruining my scalp shouldn't be a coping mechanism and i should just talk to him instead

me
ah
well if that's the reason then ig he has a point
a valid one at that
but idt he should yell at u for it n neither do i think he means it in a negative way

sannie
yeah
i sure hope so that'd be nice lmao

me
maybe idk him well enough to say this but y'all are best friends if i remember correctly
so perhaps he's just upset u don't confide in him when he thinks u need it
i'm no therapist ofc but that's just my take

sannie
he gets upset either way
when i talk to him ab it and when i don't
i never know what to do bc i don't like seeing him like that
even more when it's my fault

me
no
it's not ur fault sannie
he gets upset cus as ur friend he cares and worries ab u
and that's never ever your fault

sannie
but he doesn't need to worry ab me
it's just a waste of his time

me
sannie

sannie
it's not like i'll ever get better like he always says so there's rly no point

me
san stop
pls just stop for a second

sannie
oh
i'm sorry

me
that's okay
but listen to me for a second pls?
i know idk much ab what's going on in your mind rn but pls don't say that
don't say that you won't ever get better
cus you can ik you can
if you try to get through it n if you try to put urself in a better place you will
occasionally things might go downhill but like you said the other day it's just your mind tricking you into thinking things will stay like that forever
but it won't sannie
not if you try

sannie
is this how u feel after i say all that corny sad shit?

me
stfu there's no way i'm anywhere near as corny as u
you're so corny you're literally:

sannie
i'm ab to throw up
why's it look like that

me
^ me when you're nice:

sannie
ok but im actually offended
how dare such an extravagant specimen as i get compared to low quality corn on the cob that isn't even made in the right way

me
ur ego rly needs humbling

sannie
perish 😘
wait i wasn't meant to say that just yet i had to thank u first

me
help???

sannie
shut up.
but thank u so much woo honestly

me
it's np sannie

sannie
you know
i like it when you're sweet

me
ew

sannie
what it's cute

me
cute???/
cu/
idc still ew

sannie
fine be like that then
just know that even tho it'll take a while for me to actually act upon ur words, they help a lot
i'm rly grateful i got to hear them woo :)))

me
that's the reason i said them after all to make somewhat a difference
so i'm glad

sannie
i'd say sth but i think you'd ew me again

me
keep it to urself
i hope me asking isn't like a bother or anyth but what exactly's this ab?
if you're okay enough to answer

sannie
i am okay with that actually
ur really nice
well most times

me
i'm always nice wydm 😣
but if you're sure you're comfy enough then i'm all ears

sannie
stop imagine we were ears

me
what

sannie
imagine we were just
ears
like we'd still be humans and all that obviously but our bodies would be built like an ear instead

me
i'd rather not 👍👍👍
ears are so ugly wtf is wrong w u san

sannie
u literally offered to becoming an ear for me but alr rude ass

me
well i take it back then
like yea we're friends but in no universe will i ever turn that ugly just for u 

sannie
ur a bitch
hm anyway tho

me
mhm i'm listening

sannie
bye ur more bipolar than loonaverse yves

me
and i'm v aware you're trying to stall dumbass

sannie
...
i'm actually gonna punch u the next time we see each other
bro how do ppl even manage to open up this is awful

me
sannie u don't need to
i just wanted u to feel like if u were to open up i'd always be here to listen yk

sannie
yeah ik woo
i just don't know how to put it into words without sounding insane lol

me
if it makes u feel any better you're already insane as it is
you're at the highest end of the fucking scale even
so idt thats smth u don't have to worry ab
like ever

sannie
oh wow thanks 🤩
but okay i'll just spit it out ig?)£/)

me
like a dragon

sannie
???

me
spit it out like a dragon obvs

sannie
ur acting strange today
are u okay??

me

sannie
ahh fine
🤥🤥🤥

me
i'd feel like i'm peer pressuring u if i say any more but pls for the love of mary hurry up
i'm sure you'll feel better the least u drag it along too so

sannie
only for mary tho she bae

me
oh my fucking dumbledore

sannie
okayokayokay relax
i
allegedly
according to strangers who work in hospitals

me
i hate the strangers who work in hospitals

sannie
omg same
theyre always so goddamn nosy
like i get they're getting paid for it but isn't it a bit much still

me
i shouldn't have interrupted u huh

sannie
sorry sorry i'll say it
oh and pls laugh afterwards

me
are u crazy?

sannie
but i'll feel better that way

me
sigh
okay fine

sannie
this is gonna sound so dramatic ffs
complex diagnosis short, i have an ed <3333

me
wait what
oh gosh sannie

sannie
u were meant to laugh what happened 🙁

me
laugh out loud.
is that enough for u?

sannie
not rly
u can laugh better than that

me
i actually cannot with u
i'm sorry sannie
i guess you probably hear that a lot n pity sucks but
i'm sorry you feel like u should treat urself in such a way
i doubt there's much i can say to comfort you rn but i hope u know that i believe in you
if anyone has the strength to recover its you by far

sannie
nvm this isn't funny anymore
u make me want to cry

me
oh shut up
pls don't tho i'll fucking murder u

sannie
can i take that back then

me
no u cannot
but sannie

sannie
hm?

me
at least consider talking to me the next time u need it
i'm not here for nothing.

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a/n: hellooo my beautiful readers! rly quick cringe thank you for existing bc ur comments are the lights of my life they make me so happy </3 like i srsly cannot tell u how much comfort u guys bring me whenever i'm not feeling well just thank u ever so much :( i rly hope life is treating u all well!

and to all my muslim readers, i hope u have a beautiful ramadan!! pls prioritise ur health and eat/drink the most u can at the times u are able to! <33