me
singer boy
hi

where_san_sings
greetings
was almost ab to ask u why ur awake at such an inhumane time but i'll let it slide since it's u

me
aw thanks so much 😐😐😐

where_san_sings
🥰🥰🥰
any progress w the rich food??

me
DUDE
THANK FUCKING YVES MAN

where_san_sings
WAIT IT WORKED????

me
IT DID
U SOUND SURPRISED BUT TBH SAME
MY JAW FELL TO THE GROUND U HAVE NO IDEA
IT WAS SO GOOD TOO

where_san_sings
yves saves lives confirmed
humanity after this gets around:

me
me from now onwards ^^
god is a woman bitches

where_san_sings
oh em gee
i did it
i converted someone into an yves stan
i can die without any regrets now 🤞🤞

me
indeed u did
i realised i never said it which is why i came here to begin with so thank you
yk for earlier

where_san_sings
ahh don't worry ab it woo :))
ngl it worried me to see u like that so that was the least i could do

me
oh
i'm sorry
i didn't mean to

where_san_sings
hey don't stress, i know u didn't
u just needed someone and that's perfectly fine
there's nothing wrong w that okay?

me
yeah i guess

where_san_sings
i don't mean to make u uncomfy so if that's the case pls lmk but do u know what triggered ur panic attack?
i remember u mentioning you've never felt like that before so i'm just wondering

me
ur right w the last one but
i think i do yeah
funny cus its lowk got to do w my insomnia too

where_san_sings
that must suck i'm so sorry

me
it's fine
i mean i basically did it to myself so

where_san_sings
what no don't say that
that's never the case, absolutely no one deserves to be refrained from doing certain things simply bc it triggers them

me
yeah ik
i just want to be able to dance properly again/
i just want to/
san?

where_san_sings
yeah?

me
can i talk to u ab it? like would that be an issue??

where_san_sings
ofc u can woo
and no idt it would be dw

me
thank u sm
usually i go to jacob for this kinda thing but he actually has a bedtime so

where_san_sings
relieved to know it doesnt run in the household

me
u were literally the sweetest person ever like two seconds ago what

where_san_sings
i was???

me
ew no
where'd u hear that from 🤣🤣🤣

where_san_sings
i
okay then
u wanted to talk??

me
before we dive into the trauma dump tho pls laugh along to my insensitive jokes
you're obliged to

where_san_sings
that sounds like a threat
so anything for u bro :DD

me
good :))

where_san_sings
that's the first time you've ever smiled back at me and i don't like it
go on tho ofc

me
SHUT UP
ok so
i had a friend

where_san_sings
pls tell me the had was a typo

me
haha
and suddenly i regret doing this to myself lmao

where_san_sings
i'd never mind listening to u rant but u don't need to do this at all yk?

me
but i trust u enough srsly
it's just sort of a thing for us to never discuss what happened
for my sake obvs but it can be draining sometimes
so ig im still not that used to talking ab it

where_san_sings
yeah i get what u mean
are u sure ur okay to continue??

me
mhm im okay san
we were rly close
he was my first friend here in canada cus he was south korean as well
he helped a lot w my english too
he was always just so patient and kind even tho i was awful for ages
i've been dancing since i was a kid and so was he
guess u could say we bonded over that
it sort of became our thing to go to the nearest studio after skl every week
to put it simply he was my best friend
once we were old enough we ended up getting our own place together cus both our parents sucked ass lmao
a few months ago we got into an argument
over smth so dumb honestly
and he stormed out
sugarcoating things is stupid so i'll just say it how it was
he got into a car crash lol

where_san_sings
oh my god woo :(
i'm so so sorry that happened to u

me
why are u pitying me
i don't deserve it it's my fault he died anyway

where_san_sings
wooyoung
why would u ever say that

me
its true tho isn't it
it wouldn't have happened if i didn't piss him off

where_san_sings
i understand where ur coming from to a certain extent but please m listen to me when i say its not ur fault
u didn't mean to upset him and neither did u mean for him to get hurt
i'm right aren't i?

me
well yeah
but i still said the wrong thi/

where_san_sings
so it's not ur fault
ur not to blame for sth that was never ur intention

me
but i still/
that's just stupid

where_san_sings
i'm not going to sit here and argue w u
instead i just want u to know that ur genuinely one of the strongest ppl i know
i'm pretty sure i've connected the dots well enough so i rly hope things with dance get easier for u too

me
remind me next time that i should stop talking to u at four in the morning
you're way too nice san wth

where_san_sings
why is that a bad thing 💀

me
do i rly have to repeat myself
it's four in the morning mf remember

where_san_sings
are u getting all emo and shit on me or sth

me
no

where_san_sings
ur not that convincing

me
i fucking hate u shut up

where_san_sings
ah if u say so
not like i was gonna spoil my next song or anyth like that to u wdym 🤨🤨🤨

me
huh
wait
yk what
i think u may have misunderstood 😇
speaking to user where_san_sings isn't just smth i do to pass time, it isn't just a hobby, it's an obsession, it's a lifestyle, a reason to breathe, an escape from this cruel world, its art, the first gift u open on christmas, a hug from a loved one, everything i've ever wanted, everything i've ever needed
change ur mind?

where_san_sings
hm
guess i could reconsider it

me
is that joke
nah that has to be a joke

where_san_sings
i feel like ur on the verge of tears
so yeah it was :D

me
😁
i'm listening????

where_san_sings
dude do u know sir conan gray

me
i'm gay
and sad for that matter

where_san_sings
perfect next question-
it is so hard finding conan listeners tysm for existing

me
what no thank u
but wtf are u singing istg

where_san_sings
u won't burst into tears will u

me
its not what i think it is
is it?

where_san_sings
depends on what u think it is

me
but san
that song is sad

where_san_sings
ok...????
that's the point mf

me
u are horrible

where_san_sings
ugh don't flatter me
cya then tho

me
i don't want to

where_san_sings
crying makes ur eyelashes longer did u know

me
I DONT NEED UR FUCKING EYELASH ADVICE SHUT UP

where_san_sings
idc
goodnight woo
try get some rest okay?

me
hm fine
annoying ass

where_san_sings
thank u <3
seen

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a/n: idk how i feel but i hope this was a decent enough chapter!

we're gonna hit 1k soon too wtf i love you