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i decided to switch things up a bit, since the book was in Ari's POV throughout the majority of the book, i decided to write in Namjoon's POV. i hope you like it!

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Namjoon's POV:

i was in my office typing out an email on my laptop that i had to send to the manager, when i was done i reread it and realized the amount spelling mistakes it contained.

i had to edit the entire email before sending it, i felt dumb in that moment but i had a reason to why the email looked absolutely trash.

after a while i was done and i sent email to the manager, i leaned back against my comfortable chair while staring at the ceiling thinking about my life, thinking about my deadbeat marriage and if course thinking about Ari.

i felt bad for what i said but for her speaking about our first time as if it was a mistake really angered me. i poured my heart out to her, i spoke about her taking my virginity and yet she talked down upon it but i was glad that she apologized, it made me feel better.

a heard a knock of the door, ''come in." i commanded. the door opened and Nina walked in. she wasn't her usual self. she wasn't smiling like how she used to, she looked as if she meant business. ''Namjoon, can we talk?'' she asked, without saying a word i nodded in approval. she sat opposite me and placed her handbag on the chair next to her, ''let me just get to the point, all i ask from you is complete honesty.'' yet again i didn't say a word instead i just nodded, ''what i'm about to ask you is something i thought about for a while." she stated.

"do you love Ari?'' my heart sunk which led to my brain getting foggy. i felt light headed, she asked for honesty but a part of me didn't want to admit the truth too soon.

''what made you want to ask me such question?'' i asked. ''i was keeping an eye on you ever since you mentioned her. the way you always praised her before, during and after the party.'' she answered. i guess i shouldn't have mentioned Ari at all but she always impressed me with every thing she did. ''so answer my question, do you love her?'' she asked for the second time.

''can we talk about this at home? i feel more comfortable in that environment.'' she nodded without saying a word. she got up and left, i sighed. the immense pressure i felt, i had to be truthful with her. despite me being a loose husband, i had to be truthful.

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throughout the day i would see Ari, i didn't have the guts to approach her. i would walk past the her working area and not really say a word to her, whenever i wanted something i would ask Jimin.

it was my time to leave and i had to go home and face my wife, my wife whom i highly despised. i made my way out the office building and walked to my car, i got in and placed my suitcase on the passenger seat next to me. i reversed out the parking lot and drove home. during the drive home i thought about how the conversation i would have with Nina would possibly turn out and end, whether if we would divorce or not.

i reached my house and drove into the driveway, i parked the car and turned off the engine. i grabbed my suitcase and got out of the car, i closed the car and locked it. i proceeded to make my way towards the front door, i opened it and walked in the front door closing it behind me. i saw Nina playing with Alice, i couldn't help but smile. Nina turned to my direction and her smile faded as i expected. she instructed Alice to go upstairs to her room, it was just me and Nina in the living room. i sat down on the couch and placed my suitcase next to me, ''are you ready to talk?'' she asked, without saying a word i nodded.

she sat on the couch opposite me, ''before you ask that question for the third time, yes... yes i do love Ari.'' i finally answered her question. she was either a great actress because she sure knew how to hide how she felt. ''oh... for how long?'' she asked, ''three years ago, before you and i got married.'' i answered. ''so would you choose her over me?'' she asked although i could sense anger in her voice, ''of course i would choose her over you because you're very much of a slut!'' i yelled. her eyes widened, ''slut? what are you talking abou-''

''i caught you in the bed with another man multiple times! i didn't say any thing because i didn't have true feelings for you!'' i could tell that she knew what in was talking about. she got up and started yelling, i too got up and yelled back. we didn't care if Alice heard us since we both wanted to get our point across.

''i'll do you one better, i'll leave.'' i stormed out the living room and made my way upstairs to the bedroom. i opened the closet and took out a luggage bag, i packed all of my clothes since i had no plan of coming back. as i was done packing i zipped my luggage bag and carried it downstairs. i saw Nina crying and Alice comforting her, Alice turned to me and ran towards me. she begged me not to leave but i had no choice, i tried to reason with her but she started to cry. i picked her up and consoled her.

i assured her that i would come by and see her, i lied and told her that i was going on a business trip. she slowly started to loosen up, i kissed her on the forehead and put her down. i looked over at Nina who seemed as if she didn't want to look at me. i picked up my luggage back and left the house without looking back.

i was all alone.