Dear Zayn,

I know I just wrote yesterday while I was on my break, but I've been thinking. And thinking leads to writing, usually to you. I may as well be writing "Dear Diary" because I'm just channeling all of my emotions through the end of my pen.

I've been thinking about your tweet, the one to Liam. I know it's just a tweet, it doesn't mean you're going back to the group. I can't imagine how that would even go. These fan girls need to calm themselves down.

I could never go back to my group. Smiling and saying "hi," yes. Please and thank you, fine too. But hanging out? Talking about life? Spending time anywhere on Earth? Hell to the no. I could never trust her again. She took my friendship and decided it wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough. How could I ever let myself back into that trap? TBH the smiling and saying hi thing is even a stretch. But I do it.

School starts again soon. She's still going to be there. It's a big University, but OF COURSE we are in the same program, so the chances of having her in a class are kind of high. It just takes too much energy, and every time I see her it's just a reminder that she rejected me.

Have you ever felt rejected like that? Probably not. And even if the guys had done that to you, you have so many fans who love you that it might just make up for it. Would I want that? No idea.

Rambling, that's what I'm doing now. And my wrist hurts. So, bye.

Sincerely,

Sara

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Okay, so far that's five "secret letters." There is a sixth letter that Sara sent, but I'm keeping that my secret for now. WHICH MEANS, the next letter will be from Zayn!!! Have you missed him?!? So has Sara...you'll find out why!

Thanks for reading!!