Dear Sara,

Are you freaking kidding me??? I can't believe I forgot to answer! It wasn't a snub of your question, I just had so much to say that I completely forgot. I swear I won't let that happen again. And to ensure that I get the next secret letter, I've gone back through the others to make sure I answer every question you've asked so far. I'll be listing them in a moment.

But first, really? You think this could be some assistant playing a joke on you? I've got to wipe that notion from your mind. Make sure to watch all the coverage of the Grammys. I'll sport a new hair color just for you. Pick the color and I'll show up just as you've ordered. No damn assistant could get me to do that.

So, questions as you've asked but I've neglected to answer, in order of post marked date:

1- Maybe that's why you left (pressure)

Ok not exactly a question but I felt it qualified and I didn't want to be accused of missing one. Yes, the pressure was part of it. The spotlight certainly was strong. But mostly I just wanted to make my own decisions, not go along with whatever the rest wanted.

2- You may have wanted to get all the drama out in the open at once

Again not really a question, but we've already covered that reasoning. You asked this about when I went into the studio right after leaving the guys. Having it all out there was fine, but more of a side effect. I was just really ready to try my own sound. I couldn't wait, it gave me so much energy that I hadn't felt in so long.

3- Maybe that's just a horrible rumor in the first place

No, sadly it wasn't just a rumor. I did call off our engagement through a text. I had my reasons at the time, and they seemed quite valid. But I do regret it. I'd change that part if I could. But we weren't meant to be together.

4- It's strange, don't you think?

An actual question this time! And no, I don't think it's strange that you began writing to me, even though I'm in the world of celebrities. Something struck you, touched you in a way, so you wrote. I admire that.

5- What's the hardest part about a solo career?

As you can guess, it's all on me. It's my sound, my choices, my words and voice. If everyone hates it, there's no one else standing in front of me. And that song that leaked pissed me off so fucking much because I wasn't ready to face the criticism. I needed more time, and the whole reason I went on my own was to make those types of choices, not have them made for me.

6- How good is Nando's?

Of course you want to know this. It's Niall's favorite lmao... I don't know, Sara. You'll have to tell me.

I know this was a longer one, and I did need to make it up to you. But I also might not be able to write as often now. Things have gotten complicated.

Don't forget to watch!

Sincerely,

Zayn

^^^^^

So many answers! But he's left me with more questions. I wonder what Sara thinks??