Dear Sara,

Damn where do I start? What kind of person does that? And you have to see her still? Man, that sucks. At least I'm half a world away from mine. It's very different, I am aware.

That was raw, and honest. I'm not sure what I was expecting, probably not what you wrote. But I'm glad you shared it with me. I think it reminds me of the real world, what normal life is like. So thanks for that. I feel like I'm in an odd bubble, protected from normal life but trapped in this non-reality. Hearing about yours is a bit of a wake up call.

But, X-factor? Do you have any idea how many times I've been asked that? Fine though, if that's what you want to know. Here's my usual answer: nothing, if it wasn't for getting up early as fuck and getting in that line, I wouldn't be where I am today.

Here's the real answer: I don't know. Some days I wish I had stood out on my own more, and not been teamed with the others. It's been a long, tiring five years and I'm still trying to decide if it will be worth the struggles. Other days I think I'd be better off if I'd have just stayed in bed. But who can really know, yeah? It's not really worth the worry.

I've got a challenge for you now. Go ahead and ask a real question. Even if you think I may not answer. I would hate for my opinion of you to drop due to poor inquiries. (I'm joking right now, in case you weren't sure. I have a high opinion of you so far.)

I'm not done yet, want to learn more about the mysterious Sara who doesn't have her face splashed on every mag in the world...

Sincerely,

Zayn

^^^^^

I love his reaction. Both to her secret letter and to her second question! 😂😂

I'm going to try updating at night (my time zone) rather than mornings because it's going to be too crazy now that my break is over. That may mean more frequent updates as well! 😉