*Secret letter #2 for your reading pleasure*

Dear Zayn,

You are pretty brave to say what you said at that awards show. I saw the headline, and as usual compared you're reaction to how I've been acting. Saying in public that they are the best guys you've ever met, wow. Not sure I could do that at this point.

At one time, she was the best person I had ever met. My best friend, the person I trusted with everything. I knew we had drifted apart. I knew she spent more time with Lori than with me. And it hurt that she chose between us. I'm just not bold, or open with everything all time. I'm moody and I know it seems like I'm mad, even when I'm not. Sometimes I just need space.

It took me too long to understand myself. I wish I could have explained why I was so negative. Why I was always mad. But it's too late, and they don't care anyway. Even almost three years later, it feels ugly. I feel stupid whenever I see her now. Her opinion of me shouldn't matter, but it does.

Ugh! I hate feeling like this! I hate the knot in my stomach whenever I see her and know I'm going to have to interact with her! Is this what it's going to be like for the next year? Two? I can't even think about it or I'll get sick. I hate this.

I'm glad for you, though. It seems like you've been able to move on, even after all of the drama. Maybe someday that will be me. I hope so.

Sincerely,

Sara

^^^^^

So dramatic, but I know that feeling of being misunderstood and it sucks...

Zayn has some advice. And some confessions! 😉