*Hey Zayn, This is letter #1!*

Dear Zayn,

I saw her again. I can't believe that out of all the universities in our area, she goes to the same one I do. Like, how is that my luck? To be faced daily with a person who completely rejected you is some kind of torture.

And I don't mean that about you. Not that you rejected them...you know what, I'll stop.

Anyway, I thought I was fine when she said that we shouldn't hang out anymore. Well, what she actually said, sophomore year of high school, was that we shouldn't be best friends anymore. As if I hadn't figured that out already. She never really talked to me so what would have made me think we were still friends. It was an awkward unnecessary conversation.

But it still hurt.

Now she's here and acting normal with me, like a long lost friend who's finally been found. But I'm still hurt, I don't want to act like it's all in the past because she's the one who made that decision not me. She walked away not me. She had a better group of friends not me.

Enduring this will not be easy, I want to be mature about this, deep down. But there's another part of me that still wants to spit in her face. RESIST!! Don't do it! Gosh I hope I listen to myself. I really don't want to be that girl, the one that acts all crazy. Because I feel a little crazy.

I tell myself someone like you really has it worse. You have to behave in public with everyone watching. No ones watching me. So I guess I should say good luck to you as well.

Sincerely,

Sara

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Today is my last day of break. I may not be able to update daily but I'm going to try. It will ay least be several times a week..