So Connor gets sad and cries a lot..I dont wanna write this chapter I just wanna write adorable gay :( although there is cute sibling stuff. - edit: I made a playlist of what I think Connor was listening to :)
https://open.spotify.com/user/dr_bob01/playlist/1WZklN05F6C6YDxO6eglCl?si=kHk7cGDoRGKf2ZSTVNNT1g

Connor checked his phone for the millionth time that hour. He had got the courage to message Evan, after what happened in science a couple days before. It was Thursday night and he was drawing in his room, trying to keep his mind off of Evan.

He decided to check again

@ConnorMurphy: Hey :)
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It was 8:53. Connor was, no doubt about it, being ignored.

He wanted to curl up in a ball and ignore his feelings. He didnt like Evan. He hadn't liked him since they were kids. He wasn't gay. He didn't push people away because he was afraid they would find out he was gay, and go around the school chanting about how "Connor loves Evan!!" and make Evan never want to speak to him again. None of that was true.

Except it was. So instead of being happy and making out with some hot chick, he was here, on his bed, crying over some boy who hardly acknowledges him.

"Mother dearest asked if you could turn the music down." Zoe said from the other side of his door. He didnt respond. She opened the door. "Conn-" he threw a shoe at her "Fuck off!" "FREAK!" Zoe slammed the door. Connor started crying harder, almost hyperventilating.

Sobs racked his body, he was hugging his arms to his chest. He tried taking deep breaths and coughed instead. Smokers cough. He was coughing and spluttering and crying and he was seeing red and he screamed and punched the wall.

Zoe ran in, hearing the thump. She stood at the door watching, Connor kneeling at the head of his bed, facing the wall. She slowly walked towards him and engulfed him in a hug from behind. He sighed and his sobs turned into a steady stream of tears. She stroked his hair and reassured him.

He turned around to face her, eyes red, face puffy and wet, and wrapped his arms around her, a hug so tight that it felt like she would fall apart if he let go. He was returning the favour. Trying to hold them together like she always does. She wriggled an arm free and played with his hair some more. "thank you.." He whispered.

He was sitting on the floor, crosslegged between Zoe's legs. The music had been removed from the situation. It was 11:20; still no reply from Evan, but Connor didn't care. She was plaiting his hair and they were talking. He told her about a crush, and how they had kissed as preteens and how he had been ignored. "Forget her," Zoe said, feigning ignorance to Connors obvious sexuality (although he had never explicitly told her) "she doesn't know what she's missing." Connor smiled. "All done." Zoe said, showing Connor his hair, in her phone camera. He smiled and gave her a hug.
"Wanna get high?" He asked. A bonding experience. She laughed.
"Another time." She kissed her big brothers forhead and climbed off the bed. "For now, we both need to sleep."
She left the room and Connor got into bed, with the lights off.

3:50 am.
Bzzzt
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Connor was fast asleep.