Why?

I could make a cheap excuse.

One you'd brush off without a thought.

Yet, you'd laugh at me.

The phrase 'I don't know' is written on the walls of my head.

I know it so well I use it accidentally.

But what's the truth?

That's it.

I. Don't. Know.

I could blame the real answer.

"That's no excuse."

You're right.

It's not a excuse, it's the reason.

The reason I do everything I do.

Why I stare at walls and never finish anything.

Why I never get it.

Why thoughts float through my head and disappear.

It's the reason I have thousands of pictures on my phone.

So I never forget.

I think you don't take it seriously.

There's no way for you to walk in my shoes.

To know how I live.

But if I could just show you.

Let someone show you.

Why I do the things I do.

I can only think of one video that truly shows you.

If you could watch it.

To wear my shoes.

Maybe you'd understand.

Credits to the creators of this video,
for finally putting it into words.

Thanks for letting me be a little cringey there, and thank you for reading. Sorry it turned into a rant.