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Pain.
That is something she has been familiar with since these passed 4 years.

Everything used to be just perfect in her life.But not everything remains the same forever.

The once bold woman is now nothing but a broken lifeless soul.

She now lies on the floor beside her bed,her dark pool of black orbes glistening with tears as she stares at the reflection of a woman that has lost her life a long ago but is still breathing.If only her breathing would stop,she'd be completely lifeless with no more pain to endure.

A small tear escapes her eye as she takes in the whole reflection of the woman.
Her dark pool of eyes that once shimmered with pride of her achievements and showed how confident she is now are dull with no emotions to reflect but only showed the agony she's been enduring.
Her once beautiful face that used to be covered with makeup and was praised for is now where bruises have made their home in.
Her beautiful full lips that were so luscious naturally and were once adorned with lipsticks are now bruised and are adorned with her dry blood.
Her once toned body that was praised about is now nothing but a shelter to the whip marks.

As if the wounds and bruises are fond of her body,they appear everyday with a new cause and inflicts more pain upon her.

She sobs as she just cannot accept her ownself that has changed so much in these four years.She cannot take any more pain.Her mind is just numb with nothing to think about but only pain.

It is like she has become a permanent shelter for agony,pain and humiliation.

It pains to hear everyone calling her names.It pains to get bruised everytime.It pains to see her own husband whip her everyday for petty things.It pains to feel the iron rod burning her skin.It pains as the knife slices her skin.It pains as every family member of her degrades and questions her dignity.

She just cannot take it anymore.She's done! She's done letting everyone question her dignity.She's done letting her husband and his family bruise her for her every small mistake.She's done being the punching bag for the entire family.She's done being humilated.And above all she's just done with her life that is full of agony

SHE'S JUST DONE WITh.
EVERYTHING!

She cannot take this anymore.She has to let herself free from this hell.She has to be free.

SHE JUST HAS TO BE FREE!
SHE JUST HAS TO BE FREE!
SHE JUST HAS TO BE FREE!
SHE JUST HAS TO BE FREE!
SHE JUST HAS TO BE FREE!

Those six words were repeating in her mind.Her inner self screamed those words to her brain repeatedly.She stood up with a thud and paced around the room in search of nothing in particular yet something.
She emptied the nightstand crashing everything to the ground erupting loud noises but she didn't care as she has to find something.
Something that'd let her free that could be anything.

ANYTHING!!!

Anything untill it sets her free from this hell.

Anything will do untill it helps her escape the pain.

"escape...hurts....end"
"escape...hurts....end"

Murmuring those words that made no sense to herself she paced around the room throwing everything in search for something.She had no idea what she was saying.She had no idea what was happening.She only knew one thing that she has to do something to make this end.

To make all of these end.

A voice from somewhere inside her commanded to her continuously,

"escape.... end...."
"escape.... end...."

She paced around the room for a few more minutes until she saw the bathroom door open.Her eyes went towards the bathtub and the cabinet near it where a blade awaited her.

That voice inside her again screamed at her to go towards the bathroom to escape and put all of this to an end.

She ran towards the washroom limping.She barged into the washroom concentrating on the voice as it commanded her yet again the same thing.

"escape....end.."
"escape....end.."

Listening to that voice she went inside the washroom her only aim is to escape and end all of these for good. She,like a maniac started murmuring,

"Blade..blood..water..drown..go"
"Blade..blood..warer..drown..go"

Repeating the sentence as if her life  depends on it,she stared at the blade and the bathtub continuously to and fro for a minute untill the voice again commanded her,,"take it... end"

she took the blade in her trembling hands without a second thought as the voice inside her again commanded, "cut"
she let the metallic sharp ends of the blade meet her skin and drew a line
twice
thrice
untill her blood started flowing turning the once white marble tiled floor into a pool of red glistening liquid.

She was too numb to feel the pain,she just knew one thing it'd go soon.It was just a matter of a few minutes and she'd escape.She smiled as she looked at the series of the red coloured liquid oozing from her wrist making it's way towards the floor like the tiny droplets of rain cse she knew,her escape was near.The pain she felt now is just temporary and she soon would be escaping everything.

She was interrupted from her thoughts by the now familiar unknown voice commanding her to move towards the bathtub.The voice screamed this time,"drown".

Her gaze fell on the bathtub that is so neatly cleaned and was adored with a shiny white surface.She smirked sadly as she thought ,it'd be just a matter of a few mere minutes and the now shiny white bathtub would be accommodated with a certain red coloured liquid and her lifeless body'.
Her chain of thoughts were interrupted as she concentrated on the voice that commanded her to drown.

She immediately made her way towards the bathtub and laid down feeling the rising stream of water,slowly rising up and filling the bathtub as along with it the red liquid flowing out of her wrists too was filling the bathtub and slowly forming a diffusion in between the two liquids.

Her face adored a small smile as she never thought that she'd herself take her own life,the life she loved a lot.

Her four years of hell flashed infront of her life as she laid there.
Her screams,
the sounds of him whipping her,
them calling her names,
them treating her like trash.
Her train of thoughts were interrupted by her breathing slowly tailing off,her vision becoming blurry and a sinister smirk grazing her lips.

"I escaped,this ends here,this wouldn't hurt anymore" she whispered in a small voice as darkness started consuming her,the sounds of her surroundings not being able to reach her ears as a force refused to let it enter.

She heard the faint sound of the bathroom door opening but she was gone,the darkness took her,took her to a land of peace,took her to a peaceful sleep.
Took her where she didn't feel any pain but only peace

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>>A U T H O R ' S N O T E<<
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So , you guys t hat w a s i t!!! The first chapter of this book has been completed. I'm new to this field of writing and is just a minor who is experiencing the art of writing. I hope you guys keep up with me and point out my mistakes,I'd be grateful if you do so.

D O V O T E
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