Even if Sehun managed to make me laugh earlier on, I still ended up in a bottomless pit of emotions and doubts. If I wasn't such a loud mouth, he wouldn't have known. We would be still having a healthy relationship, or as healthy as a one-sided love story can be. I wouldn't need to regret my decisions and dread going to school the next day. The last day of school for me in Korea. 

That brings me to my current situation, I was standing at the front door of my house with my hand grasped tightly around the door handle. Contemplating whether or not I was going to go to school. Once someone confessed, they should feel like a weight has been lifted from their shoulder, because they finally told the one they like or maybe even loved their true emotions towards them. But that's not the case for me. NOPE. I felt like more weight had been added to my shoulders. I knew, I knew I had to go to school, for one, I had to say goodbye to all my friends. I promised Seulgi I was going to come to school today but now I am having second thoughts. Of course, my parents wouldn't allow me to stay at home but skipping school was always an option?

Now I am just being petty. I took a deep breath in and then out before turning the handle to the front door and exiting the house. Making sure to lock the door behind me. I had decided, yes I was going to be a coward, I was going to ignore Jimin at all cost. Even Yoon Hee. NO matter how wrong I knew it was to ignore the person I had been close friends with for over fifteen years. But I just couldn't bring myself to confront him. No matter how much I tried to convince myself, I couldn't. His words kept ringing in my head 'I love Yoon Hee'. Wounds can't heal overnight and I just knew, this wouldn't heal for many years no matter how much I would try to treat it. The walk to school was nice and quiet, no loud honking of cars, nobody to be seen as. That's what gave me that much time to think to myself. "(Y/N)!" I hear Seulgi whin as I realised I had arrived at school. Before I could even react I felt her arms embrace me in a tight hug. "I'm going to miss you so much, what I am I going to do without my only girl best friend." She pouted. 

"HEY, YOU HAVE ME!" Jungkook exclaimed in an offended tone.

"Yeah, are you a girl?" Seulgi inquired whilst raising an eyebrow. Jungkook stayed silent. "Asked and answered." Seulgi nodded.

"Jungkook is right, you have him, you'll be fine." I smile reassuringly.

"Plus, she promised weekly skype called with us." I hear a familiar voice say. I turned around and see Sehun and Kai.

"Okay weekly group skype calls starring, Jungkook, me, Sehun, Kai and (y/n), promise?" Seulgi held up her pinky finger and I quickly intertwined it with mine.

"Promise." I nodded whilst smiling softly. Her pout changing into a bright smile as the five of us entered the school ground. The three boys walked ahead whilst Seulgi and I trailed behind.

"What happened yesterday?" Seulgi suddenly spoke.

"I did it." I breathed.

"YOU TOLD HIM?" She exclaimed. I quickly placed a hand over her mouth and she sent me an apologetic expression. "Sorry." She whispered.

"Yeah." I confirmed. "And he told me he loved her." 

"(Y/n)." Seulgi sighed, bringing me into a warm embrace. "I'm so sorry." She whispered into my ear. I let her envelop me into a tight embrace and just simply let my figure lay, lazily on hers. 

"I know." Nothing, not a tear or whimper, nothing. It was like my emotions have been numbed. I expecting a tear or to burst out into tears but it didn't happen. All I could do was feel sadness but not show it. 

"Come on, we're going to be late to class." She softly spoke before pulling me along to class. We arrived to class and quickly took our seats as the bell rings. English, one of the only classes I shared with Jimin. My eyes stayed glued to the teacher as she paced up and down the front of the classroom explaining the themes to the book we had just recently completed as a class. I was afraid that if I looked back I would find him staring straight back at me and unfortunately, our teacher decided to walk down aisle by aisle as she continued her lecture. She paced down Seulgi and me's isle as my gaze followed pacing figure. But it fell from the figure for a second, making eye contact with Jimin for a few seconds. I could see the sadness in his eyes for a second, I smiled weakly before breaking eye contact and turned away. 

Because of my stupid mistakes. We are no longer, best friends.

TIME SKIP:

I take a deep breath before looking up from the ground. "I'm not going to be around anymore." I finally spoke before looking up to face the five males.

"What do you mean (y/n)?" Tae inquired, not understanding my wording.

"I am moving school." I flatly replied. 

"What, why, have you told Jimin?" Hoseok quickly responded.

"No and please don't tell him, I am so sorry for not telling you all sooner, I know it is wrong for me to tell you all the day before I leave but thank you for being there for me and putting up with my lame jokes." I smiled softly. Tae's eyes become teary as he envelopes me into a hug. The other follow behind in his actions. We break the group hug and I wipe a tear away from my eye. I was crying again, why were my emotions so numb towards Jimin but not towards others. It was like my emotions no longer knew what to feel towards him anymore. "I feel soo guilty for not telling you all sooner, you all mean a lot to me and I felt like I betrayed you all by not telling you." I honestly admitted. "I didn't want you all to know until the very last moment, so the goodbye wouldn't be as dramatic but I guess what could not be avoided." I chuckled softly as another tear slide down my face.

"It's okay (y/n), we understand." Hoseok smiled softly, reassuring my doubts. "Still won't make saying goodbye any easier." He chuckled.

"We support you either way (y/n), I hope we can still stay in contact whilst you are gone." Namjoon smiled.

"Of course." I agreed.

"I hope you don't mind me asking, (y/n)." Jin began. I gestured him to go forward with the question but I could guess what was coming. He was going to ask me why I didn't want them to tell Jimin. "Why don't you want us to tell Jimin?" I fell silent for a few seconds as my brain frantically tried to think up of an excuse.

"I wanted to tell him myself, so don't tell him for me, it's a surprise." I finally voiced, letting a fake smile makes it's way to my face whilst holding up my finger to my mouth. Gesturing him to be quiet. Jin smiled, nodding his head in reply. We continued to say our final goodbyes before leaving for home to pack for the trip.

"You're not planning on telling him aren't you?" Seulgi spoke softly as the boys walked ahead.

"Yeah, I'm such a coward." I sighed. "I confessed to him yesterday and don't even have the courage to face him because of my fear of rejection, I just ruined my relationship with my best friend." 

"Now, how would you know that?" Seulgi inquired encouragingly. "You haven't even spoken to him." She nudges me lightly on the shoulder.

"If he hasn't tried to contact me since the confession and even purposely avoided me today, you'd think he doesn't anything to do with me." 

"(y/n), he~."

"And besides, I won't be here anymore anyway, so there is no point," I spoke coldly, interrupting Seulgi's sentence and fastening my walking pace.

-TBC-

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FIRST OFF, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAE! 

Second Unfortunately, this book is ending in four chapters. I honestly enjoyed writing this book so much and even have the final chapters pre-written. This chapter is pretty long so I hope it made up for the last chapter which is the shortest chapter I have written. I think this is my last update for 2017. I hope you all had a good year. This year was kinda like my major comeback onto Wattpad because in previous years I was VERY inactive. If this isn't, see you again soon.