Hullo guys! I am back again. Told you that I write again. This is the next chapter. I hope you like it. I hope... :3

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Chapter 33: Inner Voice

Chapter: He didn't speak much so he let his eyes, hands and feeling do the talking.

'Can I let trees do the talking,
Can I let ground do the walking,
Can I let the sky fill what's missing in,
Can I let my mouth do the listening... '

~ The Listening - Lights ~

He flinched at the cotton that I dabbed into betadine when it touched his bruised skin. His face was bruised. His left eye,  his cheek and lower lip. The cotton touched each skin. He flinched.

But he never complained.

He was never the type to remain quiet. Always nagging me until I snapped and walked away from him.  His never complaining was something I was not accustomed to.

He was just still, waiting for me to finish tending to his wounds. In his own home. In his bedroom.

I was also quiet but I was observing him all the same. My eyes were looking at him even though they were staring at his wounds. Yet I knew...

His own eyes were seriously staring.

Silently sighing, I dropped the cotton to the trash bin beside his bed. I cleaned up everything before giving the kit to him. I gave him the look. A blink. And I stood up, walking away to the door.

I just took two steps from him when his hand stopped me by seizing my wrist.

"Where are you going?"

I didn't look at him. If I did,  I somewhat knew the kind of expression he was going to show. His voice was already an indication. He rarely did but I knew when he'd be like that.

"Home."

His grip to my wrist tightened. A sign that he had not want for me to go home yet,  "Aren't you going to tell me something?"

"Like what?" My jaw locked still looking ahead.

"You know what I am talking about."

I didn't reply. For the first time,  I became quiet because I didn't know what to say.

"Since when?"

My eyes widened. He was never serious like this.

"Since when?" His voice raised a tempo as he repeated his question.

Being stubborn, I refused to answer his question. He was getting irritable because of his nagging question. I tried yanking my wrist from his grip but only to be pulled back. In an instant, I was on my back with him straddling me. My wrists were both restrainted by him and pulled them above my head.

"Let go, Goldberg!"

"SINCE WHEN RAVE!?"

I stopped struggling when he shouted. His face was really close to mine. He was furious but I could see a hint of being... hurt. Physical hurt was nothing to him compared of what he was feeling right now. Goldberg never called me by my name. Not except for serious situations like this one.

"I don't want you to feel it." I answered when I realized that he wasn't going to let go of me any moment.

"To feel what?" He gritted his teeth. His grip to my wrists told me that he was just holding himself back.

He was trying not to hit something. Or...

"Disgusted." I looked away when I confessed. His hold on me slacked a little. I knew that he was listening so I continued speaking, "Why would you want someone like me giving head to another person that you hated the most?"

"I don't--"

"I do not remember how many times but I knew my first time."

"Rave..."

"I remembered how disgusted I was. How he forced my mouth to him. How I almost gagged because of his size. "

"Stop!"

"I remembered how I swal--"

He effectively stopped me. By crashing his mouth to mine. My eyes widened when I felt his tongue invading my mouth, exploring inside. His kiss was brutal I could taste metal in my tongue. His wound from his lower lip had been opened.

But he didn't care.

He kissed me as if he hadn't kissed me before.

I closed my eyes and just let him. He pressed his body to my already restrained one.

Nathan Goldberg could exert enough strength if he wanted to.

"You are being talkative," He whispered to my ear when he let go of my lips, "I am not used to it."

"You made me speak."

"And you never answered my question!" He lifted his head so he could look at me, "Not knowing is worse than being disgusted."

We both turned silent after that. He sighed a bit audible before he leaned his own forehead to mine.

"Don't leave me in the dark... please."

I stared at him from my lashes and observed his reaction. His own eyes were closed. This was not the Goldberg I used to know. The real one was annoying, irritating and embarassing. The real one didn't know anything.

Not this one.

Sighing as well, I closed my eyes, finally sharing him my thoughts;

"Three times."

He moved away from my forehead and gave me a questionable look.

"Since I was outed, " He knew the whole story since Allex revealed me but he never held a grudge towards him, "It was supposed to be my fourth time if dork had not interrupted today."

He didn't move or say anything. I felt that the blood on my wrists was not pumping properly because of his grip. As if he could read my mind, he started to massage them before pulling them further above my head. He held my hands with his one hand making my shirt lift and exposed a bit of my skin.

He leaned closer to my ear and whispered something, "Give head to no one other than me," He licked my neck because he kissed it sensually, "Kneel in front to no one but me," His other hand slipped into my shirt and went straight to one of my buds. I gasped when he started to play with it. My toes clenched and knees buckled at the sensation I was feeling.

He certainly knew my weakness.

"Serve no one but me,  Rave," I closed my eyes shut when his hand went lower and dipped it under my pants effectively grabbing me in the process, "These belong to me. All of me and no one else."

"Nat..." I whispered his name and I got a playful bite to my lower lip. His hand went deeper past my balls and touched my-- "W-where are you touching--"

"He hasn't touched you here, has he?"

I bit my lower lip to avoid moaning but it was impossible when his fingers were doing wonders to my body.

"Has he?"

"N-no, you bastard!"

My eyes that were already opened again stared at his smirking lips. The bastard was clearly enjoying this. He let go of my hands and went to unbutton my pants. My heart was beating fast as I watched him undress me. My hands remained still from where he left them. I just didn't understand him. Why would he still want to be with someone like me?

I was not faithful to him.

Even though I was doing it against my will.

"Look how a blushing mess you are." I glared at him. He didn't have to say that out loud. I knew that I was. He always made me this way. Especially when he was undressing in front me. He placed his hands to my cheeks when we were finally both naked. His stare was serious as he studied my face.

"I only want you no matter what."

My stare softened after he revealed that. He didn't need my words to hear what I wanted to say. He didn't need me to speak to convey my thoughts to him. He didn't need my voice to tell him everything.

My actions did.

I raised both of my hands and interlocked them to his neck. Using my hands,  I brought his face down to mine and passionately pressed my lips to his own.

I didn't have to say anything to him.

Because he already knew.

xxx

The next morning just came by really fast. I didn't know if I should be thankful for that or not. The bastard didn't let me rest the whole night. Considering that he was wounded, he still had the energy to move around. What pissed me off was the question he asked me last night.

Who is bigger? Him or me?

I was giving him the head when he asked that so I pressed him really hard. He yelled when I did that. He should be thankful that he only received that... instead of biting him hard.

Just when everything was nice last night, he had to ruin that with one question.

Goldberg never learned.

"R-Rave..."

I turned around when I heard someone called my name. Allex was standing at the entrance of the building while I was was on my way to my first class.

"Do you have a minute to spare?"

I stared at the basketball jock. For a person who played ball,  appearing fidgeting in front of me was a bit... surprising.

"What do you want?"

He seemed surprised at my question. He didn't probably expect that, "I just want to talk."

This time, I did not reply. I just stared at him before I finally nodded, "My first class won't be long."

"That's fine." He walked backward before turning around but not until pointing the building in front of us, "Let's go to the rooftop."

Allex said in a questioning tone. I only nodded and gestured for him to lead the way.

xxx

Fortunately, there were not many students at the rooftop. I went straight to the railing and watched the track and field in the oval.  Students below were busy doing their thing. It was still early but this was the time the athletes and varsity players preferred to warm out and practice.

Something I'd do too to distract myself.

And probably for Allex as well.

"So talk." I suddenly said not turning my head to him.

"... "

"I don't have all day."

"I-I know," I heard him speak. His footsteps were coming closer to where I was, "I just have to gather my thoughts on how to say everything to you."

"..."

"I have the feeling that this will be my last chance with you."

Turning around, my former best friend was just standing not far from where I was. His words were quite effective. I also have that instinct that it would be the case if he didn't speak now.

I might have lost a best friend in his person forever.

"I was a coward... no, actually I am a coward," Allex started. I could hear him take a deep breath before he continued to speak, "from the past until now, I have always been a coward. No wonder people started to stay away from me. That was why I ran away. To hide from the harsh words, stares and actions I would receive. What worse was I let my best friends down."

"..."

"I created that mess but I only ran away to save my own butt abandoning all of you who needed me. I stayed silent, let you suffer while I watched," He looked down feeling ashamed as he should be. He took another breath before looking up again, "My height was nothing that I couldn't even protect you before... Like I said, I am a coward. Nathan should've gotten his revenge for you."

"..."

"I thought that coming back here I could make things right. But I only made it worse especially of what happened yesterday... " He took a step closer to me, "I want to do something right. You don't have to forgive me Rave,  but please, let me do something for you."

"..."

"Let me protect you this time."

I blinked twice as I mutely stared at him.  Everytime I saw him--ever since he came back--his deeds all came back to me. And those deeds were the ones that I was not willing to welcome. However, I knew that something had changed.  I seek my inner self, examining if I still felt the resentment I had towards him.

I was hurt but it was endurable. I guess I didn't feel it anymore. The hatred I had towards him had faded over the time. I only realized it. I just realized that I only held grudges that would fade over time. What I felt now was different.

I felt... doubts in my heart.

And emptiness...

Something was missing. Like a piece of a puzzle. And that piece that would complete the puzzle would be the person in front of me right now.

"Do protect me then, " I voiced out before I could even stop myself. Indeed, Allex didn't expect that answer from me. I inserted my hands in my pockets as I stared at his widened eyes, "Just do what you think is right."

Silence filled between us and it took no longer than thirty seconds before the school bell rang, signaling the start of the first period. I sighed as I started walking towards the door.

"We better go to our fir--"

Surprisingly, I was interrupted by Allex' crushing hug from behind. For someone who didn't speak a lot, I was a bit taken aback of being stopped from it. The tall guy was laughing and rained me with 'thank yous' coming from his mouth. I also noticed something dropped from my shoulder as I was struggling to get away from him. He sniffed before he tried to hide his face from the top of my head. It was no use for I already saw them. I knew that he felt relieved.

Because I gave him a chance.

After everything that had happened, both the past and the present, I could only smile. Really Allex was...

Your typical basketball player.

Done!  How was this chapter? It was Rave's POV this time. I think this was the last time I was going to write a third pov. The rests will be between Kevin and Edd. So wait for them soon.

I hope I did justice to Rave here.  I mean, I was nervous writing in his POV so... Yeah.

At least they had the scene. :3

Another thing: I just discovered that today, (August 10, 2019) this story in currently number 1 in KevEdd. Thank you so much, guys. It motivated me to finish this chapter and...

Let's have a vote... After the next chapter, I'll probably write KevEdd's first date.(Am I right? It will be their first date?) I want to know which POV would you like to read for their date. Feel free to leave a comment in this chapter or send me a private message about it. I'll give, let's say, one week for you to decide. It wouldn't be long now since I started writing the next chapter... just now... :3 So thank you for those who will cooperate... :)

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