Hye!!! I am back with the chapter. Just to remind you guys, this is a dark fic but not too dark, I guess. This is the start of it so...

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Ed, Edd and Eddy and never will.

Chapter 23: I am Alive

Chapter Summary: He never realized how bad the situation was until he...

'Nothing I say comes out right,
I can't love without a fight,
No one ever knows my name,
When I pray for sun it rains,
I'm so sick of wasting time,
But nothing's moving in my mind,
Inspiration can't be found,
I get up and fall but,...'

~ I'm Alive - BECCA ~

I tried to calm down as I stared at the three. Now, the three of them were actually cracking their knuckles. Were they really serious about this? I didn't have the slightest idea of fun that they were talking about.

Whatever it was, I never had the intention of knowing.

"Well, I am afraid to say that I would not be long to witness the fun you are going to have," I said walking to the door where the three were, "I'll leave it to you then."

My hand reached for the doorknob but Chad grabbed my wrist and pushed me rudely, making me walk back a few steps behind.

"Oh, you can't leave without joining us," He said walking closer to me. He inserted his hand to his pocket as he slammed his other hand to the tiled sink. I also winced how painful it was. The sink was made of stone but it seemed that it was nothing hard to him, "Have some of these." He produced something from his pocket. My eyes widened when I recognized the plastic with green leaves in it.

"Oh my goodness!" I moved back as if the plant was a contagious disease, "C-Chad, are you--are you high?" My shock was totally visible to my face.

"Not yet," He grinned at me, "but not for long, right boys?" He looked both at his friends who were already producing of their own. They also placed the plant together on top of the sink before they started walking back to their location. Jason was near the door while Mark was at window making sure to guard the whole place. Both of them were grinning at each other.

"It's a great feeling, you know?" He said, pulling out a stick of cigarette from who knew where and lit it. He blew it off my face making me choke because of the smoke.

They laughed at my reaction.

"The dork can't stand the smoke!"

"You are clearly aware that smoking cigarettes can harm your lungs," I said waving my hand in front of me, "Smoking a stick is equivalent for 11 minutes of your life, don't you know that?"

Chad leaned closer to me and grinned wider, "Since when did you become a wise man?"

"He's a wise man," Jason disagreed, "Mr. Know-it-all!"

"Right!" Chad blew another one but he leaned upward, secretly relieving me for a while, "You seem to know everything, Mr. Smarty-pants."

Them and their nicknames.

"I am only just stating the fact," My heart was beating fast really hard now. Especially when I looked at the cannabis plant that was still resting on the sink. The plastic was still intact but who knew they would start taking them, "And this is not right if used illegally! The plant contains high levels of Tetrahydrocannabinol that
stimulates cells in the brain to release dopamine, creating euphoria. It can induce hallucinations, change thinking and cause delusions. If not--"

My explanation was interrupted when Chad grabbed my shirt and yanked me forward to his face.

"I don't need you lecturing us," Chad gritted his teeth as he said his words, "What we want is to have fun and you will join us."

My eyes widened once again as I struggled to break free, "N-no, thank you. I'd rather not."

"Don't be rude!" Mark said walking closer to us and grabbed his own plant and prepared it with the cigarette, "The cigarette will do it. Just one, dork!"

My heart was pounding really fast. Cannabis plant was the most common drug people used. The effects and risks it could do in a person's body were swimming inside my brain. If THC was exposed in the air, it would be really bad. Shutting my eyes tight, I ventured enough courage to push Chad away from me. I grabbed the plant from Mark and also the others that were on the sink and went to one of the stalls. I dropped them in the toilet bowl and immediately flashed them.

"You son of a b*!" Chad grabbed my neck and pulled me out from the stall. I had a huge mistake of not locking the door before flashing those plants in the bowl. They were my priority. To get rid of them. The next thing I knew, my cheek was planted on the cold tile of the wall. Chad slammed me hard making me wince. I shrieked when he grabbed my arm twisted it to my back.

"Didn't you know that it was hard to get them?! And you only have them flash in the stupid bowl?!" Chad hissed to my ear.

"I get the fact that I saved you from getting high!" I said trying to calm down despite my awkward position. I felt cold now that my whole body was squeezing the wall in front of me. I felt Chad leaning closer, "W-what are you doing?"

"You smell nice, it's weird," He said sniffling my neck and my ear, "You have a unique scent, it's kind of... addicting."

I felt goosebumps all over. I struggled once again but he only gripped my arm and neck tighter making me wince.

"You wasted our plants so you have to pay for them," He whispered to my ear as I felt his body leaning closer to my back, "I think I know how you'll going to pay us."

"Let's beat him up already, Chad." I could hear Jason said.

"My hands are already itching." Mark said as I sensed him coming to us.

"Guys, I have a better idea," Chad said to the others, "I want to do... something different. Something... exciting."

"I am not perfectly aware of what you guys are doing," I said bracing myself for the worst. When it came to Chad, I knew that whatever he was going to do, it certainly would not going to be good, "I already refused of being involved in your scheme."

"Too late for that, dork," His hand that was holding my neck went down slowly to my back, skipping my twisted arm in the middle and went to my waist, "Too late."

My eyes widened with disgust when I realized where his hand touched me next.

"W-where are you touching me!" I struggled as panic was starting to build up inside me.

"Why? I wonder how you'd react to me. You are already boring so I hope in this... game you are not," He said as his hand squeezed my bulge tight that I yelped, "Where is my moan, dork?" He licked my cheek before biting my ear.

"S-stop it... please." I practically beg. I was panicking at that moment. No one had ever touched me to my sensitive areas. Not even Kevin dared to touch me there yet. I felt horrible... and excited... and I hated it. His hand was rubbing against my slacks. Even with the fabric, I could feel my own excitement to build up. I felt disgusted and horrible. I hated the feeling that it was Chad who was giving me this unexplainable sensation.

I was afraid of this feeling.

His hand released my arm and went to grab one of my small crowns and pinched it hard over my shirt. I bit my lip hard and shut my eyes tight. This was unbearable. I wanted to get out.

They were laughing at me enjoying the torture.

"Dork, you like it, huh? I wonder if captain has the hots in you. He seems to protect you all the time. He's not quite the captain I used to know. Did you transmit your sassyness to him? " He whispered while doing his thing to my sensitive parts. He seemed to know the words to say and that added something inside me. I could hold a moan until a minute before it came and I immediately covered my mouth to my hand while the other one was leaning on the wall, "I knew you'd going to like it. Wait till I give you pleasure that you haven't experienced in your entire life."

"N-no!" I was able to say weakly as the energy was draining me. His hand left my bulge and went to the side of my slacks. He hooked his fingers to the hem and slowly tugged it down, "STOP!"

I didn't know what happened next. I remembered about the door slamming open and immediately slacked on the tiled floor. For the few times in my life, I ignored the germs connecting to my body.

I was already contaminated... though indirectly.

Shouts and groans could be heard around the restroom but I didn't care. I covered my ears with my hands and shut my eyes tight, hoping everything was just a horrible dream. I was in my dorm, reading mythology and history books. Enjoying the time with jim and my ants.

A tap in my shoulder made me flinch and cut me from my reverie. My face paled when I realized that one was the dream and this wasn't. I trembled but I didn't look at the person;

"I don't want to do it, please!"

"Edd! It's me. Calm down!"

I opened my eyes when I realized his voice, "K-Kevin?" I slowly looked around and saw no one anymore but us, "W-what are you doing here? How did you..." I choked and I couldn't continue my words.

Kevin who seemed to understand my questions answered me, "I got your message so I waited in front of your dorm. But you were taking a long time getting there so I came looking for you," His eyes glared at the door. It was closed and it left the two of us, "Nat and Rave were with them. I sent them away but not after giving Chad a good punch on the face."

My eyes widened as I realized what he said. I didn't care how they were able to barge in and sent Chad and his friends out of the place. I stared at the tiled floor. My hands were between my legs and firmly pressing the cold ground. I didn't realize how much the entire situation shook me.

"Hey..."

I blinked my eyes when I felt something drip from them. They were tears. The barrier I had been trying to build for years had been broken down in a few seconds. Tonight was too much for me to handle, "I feel disgusted." I closed my eyes shut really tight, letting the tears flow down to my face now.

"Shhh, stop it," He placed a hand to my cheek and turn it to where he was crouching and make me face him. He was frowning and I could tell despite the blur image that he was restraining himself to punch something, "What else did he do to you?" His voice was flat but I could sense venom in it.

I bit my lower lip hard hoping my tears could stop from falling, "H-he groped me. Pinched me hard. He started playing with my sensitive parts," I slowly reached for my beanie and gripped it hard with my hands, "I hate myself because... because between the things he was doing, I felt excitement inside me," I looked down and felt ashamed saying these words to my boyfriend, "I felt horrible but excited at the same time. I feel disgusted now."

Kevin cussed lowly but it was enough for me to hear. He must have felt disgusted to me now, "I am so sorry, Kevin. Truly, I am." I whispered not looking at him.

He remained silent after I said that. Silence was awkward between us. Only the sniffs I was creating were the audible ones.

"How dare him! How dare of him touching you even before I did!"

His words surprised me. I looked at him and saw how serious and mad he was. I could see lust in his eyes. I could see how much he had wanted to do those things. I was probably oblivious at almost everything when it came to relationships but I knew just enough on how much he had wanted this. Before I could chicken out, I slowly raised my hand to his own. I took a deep breath before I slowly lead his hand to my bulge. He seemed to be surprised at my bold action. I felt his hand stiffened over my bulge even though the fabric of my slacks was still blocking them.

"B-break his record then." I said as another tear fell from my cheek.

It was enough encouragement for him to continue. I removed my hand as he started to move behind me. His movements were careful not to scare me. His touch was different. He grabbed my shoulder with his other hand and guided me to lean on his chest. I gasped when his hand slipped inside the fabric, the thing Chad wasn't able to do earlier. The sensation was different this time. It was skin to skin contact. My breath hitched when I felt his hand wrapping me. I closed my eyes and shivered at the touch. I let out a moan when his fingers brushed my tip.

His other hand slipped inside my shirt. His hand was warm as it touched my stomach. It went up sending more shivers to me. I bit my lower lip once again when his hand reached my small crown and felt it. I was overwhelmed with confusing emotions at the moment. It was just Kevin's hands and it was making me insane already. I reached for my beanie once again with my hands and pulled it down to my eyes.

"Oh my goodness..." I said desperately.

Kevin must have misheard my desperation as regret. He stopped moving and removed his hands from me but not until he turned me around and hugged me tightly, "Dammit, Edd!"

I couldn't say anything at the moment. He was just hugging me tighter.

"I should have been here sooner. I should have known that something was wrong when you didn't arrive early," He whispered to my ear, "I am sorry."

His words were sincere. I was scared today. What if he was not able to come on time? I didn't think things would be the same after that. I felt dread at whole thing. I hugged Kevin back tightly, telling him how grateful I was of him for saving me.

We stayed that way until he pulled me away. He caressed my cheek wiping my tears in the process. He fixed my beanie to my head. My locks were touching his fingers.

"He hasn't completely gotten you yet." He said eyeing me seriously.

I was about to ask him about it but I felt his fingers running upwards to my locks. My ear and temple were feeling the warmth of his hand as it slipped inside my beanie. He stared at me waiting for me to stop him but I didn't do anything. He continue moving his hand, removing my beanie in the process.

I searched his eyes as he studied my beanieless head. They were showing fondness as his hands were touching my hair.

"You have such soft hair," He gave me a tiny smile, "I prefer it this way."

Despite everything, I was able to laugh weakly. He held me to my cheeks and making me look at his eyes. He was staring intently at me.

"I'll handle everything, I promise." He said firmly before closing the distance between us. I knew he would. I was still worried but I knew he would do something. A tear fell once again as I closed my eyes, drowning myself to his kiss.

Because right now, nothing else mattered but being with Kevin at my side.

xxx

Kevin walked me outside the campus making sure that I would not collapse.

I noticed that he was walking to the gate, opposite to my dorm's direction.

"Where are we going?" I asked him when we reached the gate.

"I am taking you home." He answered holding me to my shoulders.

We reached the gate after a few seconds. Kevin leaned me to the gate.

"Wait here for a second," He told me. Panic rushed inside me when he said that. Being alone at that moment was the last thing I wanted. He must have seen my expression as he leaned in to kiss my forehead, "I won't be long. I promise."

He left me. There was no one at this time since it was afterschool. I hugged my arms while I was waiting for him to come back. It was getting dark and the air was getting cold. But I'd never felt so cold like this before.

Not even when I was left alone during cold nights.

I heard the sound of a machine moving to my direction. My heart jumped fearing that they came back to finish their business. But I slowly relaxed when I recognized that it was Kevin, driving his motorbike.

He got out and held my hand gently, "Just endure the ride for a while, okay."

I silently nodded. He guided me to his bike. Instead of hopping in at his back, he let me hop in the front. He got in at my back. He hugged me for a while breathing my scent.

"Everything will be fine." He promised. He started his bike and drive our way out to the campus.

The drive was smooth as I leaned in to his chest. I believed in Kevin. I knew he would do something.

I'd been terrified but I was still alive. And with his help, I knew that everything would be fine.

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