CHAPTER 26- Leaving

Demi's POV

I inhaled deeply through my nose as her big brown eyes filled with tears.

"You know how I go on tour to sing?" She nodded, her lower lip jutting out into a pout. "Well this time I'm going to a place that's not very safe, and you're not allowed to come with me."

Mac burst into tearsand pulled away from me, "No! I want to go!"

I shook my head sadly, "McKenzie you need to be a big girl about this. I won't be gone for very long and you'll have grandma and your aunt's and dada. We can still talk every day."

Mac shook her head and flopped onto my stomach, "I don't want to stay here I want to stay with you."

I sighed and pulled her up so we were at eye level, "I know baby I don't want to leave you either, but it's not safe for you to come."

Mac was searching desperately for reasons for me to stay, "But... But... What if I get hurt? You won't be here to kiss it and make it better."

I leaned up and kissed her head, "Then I'll kiss you whenever I can to make up for it, and daddy will kiss you too."

She sighed, "It's not the same."

"I know baby, I'm going to miss you so so so so so much. Please don't think I'm doing this because I want to leave you, I'm doing this because I love you and I want to keep you safe babygirl."

She buried her face into my neck and I wrapped my arms around her.

"How long?" She looked up at me with her big brown eyes and I had to look away to stop myself from crying.

"About a month."

Mac nodded, "When are you going?"

I bit my lip, "Two weeks." Mac fell silent and I heard her sniffle, she was crying again and it was breaking my heart. "Baby girl please don't cry, I'll call you every single night and we can talk about your day and I'll sing you to sleep. You'll barely know I'm not there. Just please stop crying. I love you so much."

She didn't stop, but hugged me tighter and I could feel her tears through my shirt. Desperately, I searched in my head for the song my dad used to sing to me when he left.

Soon, I felt her tears stop and her breathing evened out. I shifted up her on top of me so that I could watch her sleep and gently run my nails through her hair and down her back. I pulled out my phone and took a picture of us, with my eyes closed so it looks like I was sleeping too.

After adding a bunch of Emoji's I locked my phone and snuggled up with Mac, letting my eyes closed shut and drifting off to sleep.

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"Are you sure you're going to be okay?" I asked Nick, as I watched him pull on his Black suit.

"Demi i'm fine." Nick answered, walking over to me and indicating he needed help to tie his tie.

"I'm just saying, if you need to take a break just let me know and we can go get some air." We were getting ready for Nick's Grandpa's funeral. Mac and I were already wearing black dresses her in Flats and me and heels.

"I'm going to be fine babe. Don't worry about it." He kissed my cheek and I tighten my grip on his time before he could pull away and tapped my lips. Nick rolled his eyes but leaned in and softly kissed me. I sighed, letting my breath wash over us, and he pulled away.

"Okay let's get this over with."

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"I'm so sorry for your loss."

More and more strangers came up to shake the hand that I wasn't holding of Nick's I tried to remember names as best I could but I was more concerned about Nick's State I could tell his smile was forced and the way his eyes would shift over to the open casket before snapping back to his hands. They'd ask Nick to make a speech, but he declined and told me he wouldn't be able to handle it. So, we sat through People speaking of how much of a good man he was and how he always brought out the best in people. Nick's body next to mine was tense, and I reached behind him, rubbing his shoulders lightly with one hand as he leaned forward and closed his eyes.

"Are you okay?" I murmured, and he nodded, opening his eyes again and giving me a small smile. I kept my hand on his back for the rest of the service, and occasionally running my nails up-and-down it soothingly. Mercifully, the service wasn't too long, and as we watched the casket being lowered into the ground, I saw tears on Nick's cheeks. I sat Mac on the ground and pulled him into a hug, both of us watching the service come to an end with a final prayer. At last, we were dismissed, and Nick's hands were shaking so bad that he gave me the keys to drive us home.

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I walked out of the closet that night and son Nick sitting on the bed, staring at a picture of him and his grandpa.

"I can't believe he's gone." He muttered, then in a fluid flick of his wrist, the flame was sent flying against the wall, smashing glass everywhere.

"Nick!" I gasped, and ran forward, ignoring the glass that dug into my feet as I took his tear streaked face in my hands. "Calm down baby."

He looked up at me, "Calm down? He's dead Demi. He's gone."

I nodded, "I know that, but calm down. He's watching over you. He's your Nightingale. You can't get angry, that doesn't help anyone, especially yourself. Just take deep breaths in and listen to my voice." Slowly, his shoulder stopped shaking and she looked up at me, I smiled and ran my hand through his hair, "You're going to be okay."

He nodded and pulled me close to him, kissing me deeply. I locked my fingers in his hair. He pulled me onto the bed but I broke the kiss.

"I have to clean up the glass."

Nick shook his head, "I'll clean it up. Wait here and keep looking pretty."

I rolled my eyes and turned on the bed, sticking my ass in the air as I watched him clean up the shards. Finally, he was done and I was increasingly horny. Nick practically jumped over me, kissing me passionately, his fingers instantly moving into my underwear. I moaned into his mouth and press myself tighter to his body. Suddenly, the door open, and I shoved Nick off of me accidentally off the bed and tried to pull up my pants as I squinted towards the door. Mac stood there, one hand held the stuffed bunny and the other was in her mouth with tears running down her cheeks.

"Baby what's wrong?"cI asked, and she ran in, jumping onto the bed and throwing herself into my arms.

"I dreamed that you were gone." She whispered, "You left and you didn't never come back."

I sighed and hug her tightly, "I'm always going to come back to you baby girl. I'll always be here for you." I whispered, and she snuggled closer to me, not saying anything as I laid her down between Nick and I, and gently stroke your back.

"Go to sleep baby, i'll be here when you wake up I promise." She nodded and pressed her face into my chest.

"Sing?"

I smiled, "What do you want me to sing sweetheart?"

I knew the answer before she even spoke, "Blue." I gently run my nails over her scalp and back as I began to sing.

"Lullaby baby blue.

Time to kick off your rockin shoes.

And hug the pillow on your bed,

And lay down your sleepyhead.

Goodnight baby blue,

Close your eyes, baby blue.

The moonlit sky watches over you.

So close your eyes, baby blue.

Hush now, no need to talk.

Hear the ticking of the clock.

Stars that twinkle stars that shine,

Dream and you'll have wings to fly.

Goodnight baby blue."

I leaned down and kissed her temple softly as her breathing even out, "Goodnight babygirl. I love you."

Nick was watching me with a soft smile, "You're amazing with her."

I brushed some hair away from her forehead, "She's the best thing that's ever happened to me. Sometimes I look at her and think my heart can't even comprehend that much love."

Nick smiled, "So you've decided to not take her with you?"

I could feel the tears coming to my eyes, "I don't want to talk about it."

He leaned over Mac's body and kissed me softly, "I know Demi, but it's the best thing to do for her."

I nodded, still looking at Mac, "I just don't want to not have this every night, her or you. I feel like I've been so preoccupied with losing her that I've kind of buried that fact that I'm leaving you too..." I touched his cheek, "But i'm absolutely terrified and I'm going to miss you so much."

He sighed, "I'm gonna miss you too baby, so much more than you'll know."

I bit my lip, I'd heard tons of stories of women who'd gone on tour and their boyfriends or husbands had looked to someone else to satisfy them. Nick sensed my hesitation and looked concerned.

"What's wrong?"

I sighed, "This is gonna be hard for both of us both mentally and... physically. I need us to promise each other that we won't look to other people for those needs."

Nick's mouth dropped open, "Demi even if I wanted to no one could satisfy me, or make me feel the way that you do whether it's during sex or when we're laying on the couch. I would never ever turn to anyone else. I promise."

I nodded and intertwined our fingers, "I love you so much."

He let a lazy smile drift across his face, lighting up his eyes, "I love you too baby."

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