For a while they both laid there, Hibiki's hand running through his hair whilst his ran up and down in long strokes along his back.

After a few minutes, Hibiki rolled off of him. He carefully took the condom off. Once both were tied up and secured, Hibiki leant in and gave him a small kiss on his forehead. He smiled and laid back, running his fingertips over Hibiki's body as he moved to the edge of the bed.

Hibiki plucked a few tissues from a bedside box and handed them to him with a smile, so he could clean up fully. Although it was a little embarrassing, the lingering satisfaction made it so that he didn't mind Hibiki seeing him like this. If anything he felt comfortable that Hibiki still liked him in moments like these. He wiped himself off, and carefully folded the tissues up before handing them back.

He lifted his hands above his head and leant back, while he watched Hibiki walk across the room. A warm smile spread on Tristan's face when Hibiki caught him looking, but he couldn't help himself. There was a bit more flexing and showing off involved on the way back.

Once Hibiki had sat down on the edge of the bed, he rolled over and moved closer. One of Hibiki's hands ran all the way along his back and up into his hair, and it made him smile even wider. He moved his own hand onto Hibiki's abdomen, and he could feel the muscle underneath his soft skin – a bit of sweat and small hairs only added to the sensation.

"I... I really liked this." He admitted softly, even though he knew Hibiki had ample evidence of that already. He wanted to make sure to say it anyway, since he had been so hesitant before.

Hibiki smiled and picked up his phone, writing for a short moment.

'So did I'

While he read, Hibiki drew a heart on his cheek. It made him blush.

"I don't know what changed but, I don't really feel bothered by it anymore. Well, aside from when your parents came in."

Hibiki rolled his eyes and sighed.

'I didn't think they'd be back that soon'

"At least they didn't figure it out." Tristan said, glancing at the closed door.

'I mean worst case they saw us kissing'

Hibiki shrugged, but Tristan felt his cheeks heat up as he knew that wasn't at all the worst that could have happened.

"Do you think they heard us?" He asked softly, admitting to himself that he had moaned quite intensely. Hibiki seemed to give it some consideration, but then shook his head.

'It's a pretty big place, and they're probably watching TV'

"I hope so." He stammered, not entirely convinced. Hibiki just grinned and caressed his cheek.

'I liked it'

"Being found out?" He exclaimed more incredulously, not sure how anyone could enjoy that. Hibiki immediately shook his head, and then ran his thumb along his lips.

"Oh... er,- well I... I can't really help that." A bright blush spread on his cheeks again, and in part he knew that he could try harder not to moan – but on the other hand it felt good.

'It's hot as fuck'

Somehow Hibiki's approval made his heart pound wildly, and he wasn't sure how to respond. On the one hand he enjoyed knowing that he liked it, but on the other hand it still felt like something he shouldn't do.

While he quietly mulled over what to say, Hibiki continued typing. He knew it was something more serious just from the way he ran his fingers through his hair when showing him.

'Did you feel comfortable?'

"Yeah," he nodded and smiled, gladly taking the opportunity to leave the subject of moaning behind. "You felt really good, Love." He smiled and ran his hand through Hibiki's hair and ruffled it, since he truly had enjoyed everything about it.

"I think you were right, and I just have to get used to it."

Hibiki grinned widely and leant in to give him a kiss, which he gladly took.

'Even against the wall?'

The blush returned again.

"I,- I liked that." He saw Hibiki's smile curl up impishly, and he realised that he probably already knew that – considering he'd explicitly tried to tell him by spreading his legs. However, that devilish grin left Hibiki again when he wrote his next message.

'I'm glad you enjoy this. I actually was worried about that'

He nodded, but let Hibiki write to explain himself. Although he did wonder if the answer would be what he had realised before.

'I think I'm a very sexual person by nature, and I want you very much. Not that I would ever hurt you, but I was concerned that you weren't? I shouldn't force you to have sex as often as I'd like, and I realised this morning that maybe it was wrong to push that deal onto you.'

Hibiki ran his hand through his hair, and he could feel that it was more an apology than anything. But he shook his head and smiled, taking his hand and holding it.

"It's alright. I actually looked forward to it, and I am excited to try. Really. I think the only reason I didn't do it this often myself is because of what I was taught, and I... simply didn't realise it could be this good. Being with you, and doing this the past few days already helped put me at ease. I don't know if I am as sexual as you are, but I definitely am more than I thought I was."

Although Hibiki smiled, it quickly faltered as there still appeared to be something that bothered him. So Tristan pushed himself up and sat down on the edge of the bed beside him, laying one arm around his shoulders.

"Hey, I'm really alright love. You don't have to worry." He ran his hand along Hibiki's cheek, trying to reassure him. A smile broke through, only for it to tremble. Hibiki shook his head, his breaths turning to painful gasps.

Before he could do anything to stop it, he watched him break down into sobs. He wasn't sure what had caused it, and for a moment he was worried he had done something to cause it. But there wasn't, and he knew well enough that Hibiki had issues that ran deeper. So he pulled him in close to calm him down.

Despite crying, Hibiki tried his very best to tell him what was wrong. While he held him tight, he saw him struggle through his tears to write a short message.

'I don't want to be like them'

For a second he was confused, only for his heart to plummet into ice when he realised what Hibiki was afraid of.

"Oh no, nonono, not at all Love." he moved down and kneeled in front of him, so he could look at him better. With both hands he held his face and wiped away his tears. "Hey. Hey. Look at me." He said sternly, afraid of what could happen if he let those thoughts get any further. Hibiki let out a loud sob, but obliged. His dark eyes glistened with tears.

"You've helped me. I know what I said before and that I was hesitant, but, I was never afraid because I didn't want you. I've always wanted you. All you did was help me realise that." He continued to wipe his tears away, nodding to make sure he understood that he meant it. "You're patient, and kind. You're absolutely brilliant 'Biki, and nothing about you is anything like them at all. You make me feel comfortable and safe,- so so very much."

A small smile managed to find its way onto Hibiki's face as he spoke, and he smiled back. A few difficult, strained breaths pushed through the sobs, and then slowly he managed to stop crying.

Moving up again, he sat next to Hibiki and laid his head on his shoulder. In turn he felt Hibiki lay down on him too. Wanting to make sure he was alright, he took his hand and pushed his fingers between his.

As he glanced down, his eyes moved past the inevitable sight of his genitals to the pale scars on his stomach and thighs. They were both evocative of a different kind of pain, and he hated to be reminded of that – even though he genuinely did not mind seeing his scars otherwise.

"We've both been hurt, more than anyone deserves to be." He began softly, picking his words carefully. "I think that makes it difficult to know what is right, because we both don't really know what it's like to be alright – and we're both so afraid of hurting one another like we have been before. But, whenever I'm with you, whenever we talk like this, I do feel like we're doing well. That some of the things I am missing, and some of the things you are missing, all work out when we're together. And I suppose that even though we can't always do the right thing, we can figure it out together. As long as we care for one another."

He felt Hibiki grab his hand tighter, squeezing it and nodding.

"You didn't hurt me 'Biki. Not at all. And if you're still fine with it, I really do want to keep doing this every night. I enjoy it."

With a smile he looked up, and he saw Hibiki smile at him too, trembling but managing to keep it up. Even though he wanted to caress him and tell him it was alright, Hibiki was the one who ran his fingers along his cheek and nodded.

"Don't worry about me, I promise I'll tell you." He said softly as he leant in, speaking so close to him that their lips brushed together. The moment his sentence finished, he kissed him as tenderly as he could.

Hibiki nodded again and kissed him back just as carefully.