The punctuation and spelling might be pretty off I'm tired and this is supposed to be written by a medically depressed and insane person so it might be a bit messed up just a bit of a warning
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They've surrounded me. All I can hear is them. I scream out but no one seams to hear. I feel as if I'm going to collapse, is this how it ends I never thought it would be like this. Falling to the ground I feel my head hit the hard rocks before darkness completely consumes me. They follow me into the darkness. What I never thought possible happens and they're in my dreams I see her standing there, my wife. "Hi baby!" She greets me but I know it isn't her. They're trying to trick me. She helps me up and I start to believe I'm wrong. As soon as I'm standing she starts laughing not get usual small giggles but a dark maniacal sound she smiles at me shoving back I stumble we repeat the actions multiple times before my feet are on the edge of a cliff. She smiles at me "Are you scared baby? You should be I can't believe you ever thought I could love you. I mean seriously you're a repulsive disgusting creature no one could ever like much less love." She pushed me and I go over the edge. While falling I hear her shout after me that I'm a worthless Bitch that disserves nothing. I hit the ground seemingly uninjured. I begin crying muttering over and over again that I'm sorry. They're back pushing and kicking at me while I'm lying there helpless useless....... I'm Sorry I mutter before blacking out again.

I wake up screaming, crying. It was another gods dammed dream. I shakily stand up to get water. The laughter starts the deep evil laugh rips it's way through my ears and I collapse. This isn't a dream anymore. How can I silence my demons if they control me with an overwhelming power. They're in control, once again. I try for a miserable attempt at standing not even able to ground myself to go on my knees I lie there, on the floor pathetic. They live off my fear but I'm always so terrified of this happening it happens again and again. All I can think of while lying there is purely just 'why me?'  What had I ever done to deserve this. Two years this has happened. 24 months, 104 weeks, 728 days this has happened. I'm alone with my demons whose only job is to rid the world of me so I set my mind to do just that. I decide once I can stand again I'll get rid of myself. I have extra rope in a cubbard knives and razors hidden in the bathroom and pills in the medical box. 'How ironic' I think 'I'm going to over dose on what the professionals have me to prevent just that from happening' I start to laugh at the thought. It's crazy i know but I find it funny for some off reason. I don't know how long it takes but I'm eventually able to stand, wobbling I make my way to the bathroom and go under the sink to get out my medical box, I grab out the pills and take one after another til the bottle is empty. It takes a while but as I start to see black spots in my vision I smile I grab a blade from the floor and carve into the painted wall /It was too much to bare im sor...\ Everything goes dark and I feel as if I'm floating, then the voices are gone. Finally at peace in the silence.