My tears that Fall aren't so silent
Unless it's at night
When I don't wanna awaken anyone
I normally cry in the shower
I don't care who yells at me
Unless you're my brother
My dad can scream, my mom hardly yells
My sister can insult me
And grandpa can be a douche
But only my brother makes me cry
When he insults me I don't know why
I think it's because I strive for his pride
Or I want his acceptance I don't know
But it makes me feel weak
I hate it, I wish I didn't act this way
I wish I could not show my emotions ever
Being emotionless would be amazing
I could ignore the tears that want to fall
I could forget all feelings except for pain
Emotions are pointless when all you do
Is be crushed, cry, and want to die