Also lol I just wrote all of this

I'm watching you
You laugh and smile the two of you
I always said it would happen
Now I look down and smile sadly
I've got tears in my eyes
I feel like an exile
And I feel a tear in my heart
I wish we didn't part this way
I can feel myself start to crash
I have to leave before I breakdown again
My heart starts to bash in my chest
But I stop again and frown
The air looks like a crown around you
I smile and look at the file again
Then look up and remember
You aren't right here with me anymore
I start to feel a bit of fear
Why did I have to leave
But I watch over and ensure
That you don't make the same mistake
I'm doing this for your sake
I swear I'm doing this for you
I want to see you but
I don't want to ruin this for you
I'm sorry but here's how I feel
Sincerely, me