"To fir bata moti pyar kya hai tere liye" Sid asks sana while handing her a cup of morning tea...while she giggles.. "bata...sach me pooch raha hoon...teri definition of love kya hai?? Tu kya sochti hai?"

"sachhi batau?? Mere liye pyaar tu hai" she blurts out..while Sid flashes a broad smile...ofcourse he was expecting this answer..afterall hi BIWI is filmy..but he probed further kissing her on her right cheek .. "aur? Aage?"

"hmm...sach batau...tujhse milne se pehle to bhot kuch lagta tha..jaise ki tujhe to pata hi hai meri to duniya hi filmy hai...pyaar bhi aise hi lagta tha mujhe..matalab ki..jab like real wala pyaar hoga naa...to chidiya udegi mere sir pe..chii.chii.chii..sab taraf wo hi nazar aayega...curtains and dupatta udenge..background me music bajega....wo aayega to movie me jaise heroine bina dekhe pehchaan jati haiwaise hi main bhiuse pehchaan jaungi...aisa hi sab kuch filmy" she laughs and so does Sid

"pagal...filmy...sach me ye sab sochti thi tu?"

"hmm..lekin tujhe milne ke baad isme se kuch bhi nahi hua.....fir bhi tu aas pas nahi hota tha naa to kuch alag lagta tha...tu jaise mujhe protect karta tha..mujhe samjhata tha..meri bakwas bhi suntan tha baith ke..fir dheere dheere mujhe tera sab kuch achha lagne laga...kyuki maine tujhme naa wo hi bachpana dekha....log kehte the ki attitude hai isme jaa ye arrogant hai..jaa gussa karta hai...kuch bhi...but maine tera dusra hi side dekha...gussa bhi dekha lekin wo logical tha..bina karan faltu hi bhadak raha..chugliyan kar raha aisa nahi hua"

"mujhe naa tere sath achha lagne laga...ekdum se hi ek connection feel hua..matlab kaise batau...samajjh nahi lag raha...bus kuch to hua..tere sath kitti der hi baat kar lo...main kabhi bore nahi hoti thi...fir tujhe hug karna...jaise tu mujhe har kabhi hug karta tha...mere forehed pe kiss karta tha...mujhe apna sa lagne laga...bhot naturally hua...aur ye feeling hi pyaar hai mere liye"

"jiske bina kahi man naa lage...wo pas ho to bakiyon ki juroorat hi na lage...wo 1 hi kaafi ho aur wo hi sab kuch ho..uspe hak lage...yahi hai pyaar mere liye...aur kya"

As she says all this sipping her tea, Sid listens to her..smiling at her innocent explanation....how she tells him what exactly she felt for him...without any filter..and that's when he happens to ask her "aur jo 1st week me Paras ka bhoot sawar tha tujhpe.. wo kya tha?"

"hayyy.hayyy...achha hua bhoot utar gaya...1 hi hafte me..wo sirf attraction tha...may be uske looks and all...aaj sochti hoon to khud ki bevkoofi pe hasi ati hai...uske sath future to bhot door ki bat hai...1 month bhi nahi nikalta....trust nahi kar sakti thi us bande pe...ab bata jo banda shuru me hi bole..1 pappi se 800 calories burn hoti hai..bata teri kitni burn karu...us bande ka to karacter wahi samajh jata hai"

"achhaaa....tu aaj bhi sochti hai uske bare me?" Sid says looking away just to tese her.

"hayyy nahi.....waise nahi....i mean ki khud ki bevkoofi sochti hoon...ki hayyy sana diya hi kyu bhav...matlab itna bhi kyu diya..but tu kyu insecure ho raha hai...ur my PATi baby...jo tere sath hai wo kabhi kisi ke sath feel nahi hua....aur aage bhi nahi hoga kabhi... Paras ko mat laa beech me...no one matter for me...aur tu chant nikla....aate jate calories burn karta tha...channel walo ne 10% hi dikhaya tera...chant kahi ka"

"abe moti..maine kaha kiss ki tujhe...800 calories wali kiss is smooch...shani...kuch bhi bakwas mat kar...maine aisa kuch nahi kiya BB house me" he says with a smirk


And she laughs loudly "hayyy...Sidhartttt...kar hi leta...main jaldi patali ho jati"

And he laughs too "baby itni si calories hi kyu...ruk chai khatam hone de...poora morning workout karwata hoon tera...bhot bol rahi hai tu...ruk jaa"

They both laugh on their banter. Sana is little shy hearing this. And she asks him taking a sip from her cup "mera to puch liya ab achha tu bata...wutt is love for you?"

Sid runs his hand through his hair, habitually, holds her by her waist and kisses her long long enough..till she gets brathless "TU HAI"


Further explaining her "Pyaar na bhot vague term hai..matlab dictionary me iska meaning mil jayega...but its intangible...it is a feeling right??isliye mujhe lagta hai iska koi right ya wrong meaning nahi hai...feeling ko feel kiya jata hai...objectively describe nahi kiya jaa sakta...jaise dekh hum maa baap bhai bhen friends even pets... in sabse pyar krte hain..hai naa? but sab love k mayne alag hote hain...har relationship ki feel alag hai"

"Jaise dekh main mom ko bhi kiss karta hoon.. preeti neeti ko bhi karta hoon hai na lekin har pyar ki.. hug ki... alag feel hai..Its natural.. to meri definition pyar ki bhot uncomplicated hai"

Sana hugs him and kisses him on his chest like she always does "aur kya hai wo uncomplicated definition? My logical PATI?"

"Kisiko milne k bad jab pata lage ki hum kya miss kr rahe the life me... kyuki dekh jee to tab bhi rahe the but mile hi nahi the to flavor of love pata hi nahi tha.. compare karne ko.. jab kisi aise hi milte hain hum jiske milne se dheere dheere sab change ho jata hai...positively.. apko pata bhi nahi chalta...kaise apko uska favorite color khud ke liye pasand ane lagta hai... kaise uska favorite khana acha lagne lagta hai... kaise uska haste rehna ya sukoon se sona apko sukoon deta hai...hai to boss chemical locha.. but mere liye ye chote chote changes matter karte hain... or I should say karne lage tujhe milne ke bad"

"Dekh ye to manti hai tu ki koi kisi ke bina marta nahi.. aisa mera bhi manana hai.. lekin jab kisi ke ane se aur life me rehne se khushi ka dayra badh jaye...aur jeene ka maza double ho jaye that is love for me... and uncomplicated ho....roz bolne ki zarurat na ho i love you.. lekin apke actions apka love justify kare.. that is love... mujhe hamesha se chaiye tha ki agar kabhi koi aisi ho to wo meri bestest friend ho..usse main aur wo mujhese koi bhi baat bina dare..bina soche..bina kisi jhijhak ke kar sake.. tujhe pata hai shehnaaz... apni body share karna na kisi k sath..intimate hona is partly love n partly lust..lekin apne thoughts share karna... man ki baat share karna...aap sabke sath nhi kar pate unless wo connect na pure and heart to heart naa ho...fir bhale hi wo apki wife ho ya husband ho...hum soul mate ke sath hi kar sakte hain...soul to soul connection jiske sath ho....wo meri bestest friend hai"


Sana cuts hin in between " achha to wo sheena kaun hai fir? Badi best friend hai? Towel bhi gift kiya tha usne to tujhe..wo bhi hogi na bestest friend?"

Sid smiles at her jealous question. She hasn't forgotten Sheena "Shehnaaz wo meri best friend hai....matlab out of my few friends , meri sabse achhi friend...lekin tu soul mate hai meri...gadhi..buddy hai wo..tere sath jo pyaar hai wo is dunita me kisi ke sath nahi hua...aur hoga bhi nahi...tu abhi bhi ye sab sochti hai?? Matlab us twilight picnic ke baad bhi? Tujhe aisa lagta hai ki main womanizer hoon...aur ye sab maine tujhe physical intimacy ke liye bola...ya sexual pleasure ke liye tere sath hoon? Aisa lagta hai tujhe?"

"hay...nahi nahi...bilkul nahi...aisa mat bol please..mazak kar rahi hoon...generally pucha..mujhe pata hai tu aise kisi reason ke liye mere sath nahi hai..tu dil se hai...I am sorry bebuuu" and she apologizes cutely pouting holding both her ears "Kassam lage...sach me sorry"


"Tujhe yaad hai maine tujhe kaha tha ki meri tere sath jaisi attachment hai waisi kisi ke sath nahi rahi kabhi meri....pata to mujhe 2nd week me chal gaya tha ki boss kuch jhol hai...sidharth it has never happened to you...kitni bar maine apne thoughts shush kiye...ki shayad aise lag raha hoga...1 hi ghar me band hain...poora time sath rehte hain hum...kahi jaa nahi sakte..kisi se mil nahi sakte...koi dusra kaam bhi nahi hai...starting ka 1st half yahi soch ke nikal diya maine...lekin jab mujhe typhoid hua aur main ghar ke bahar gaya aur maine tujhe rote dekha.... mujhhe sidharth ki yad aa rahi hai...I knew tujhe samajh nhi aa raha hai ki ye kya ho raha hai tere sath...lekin mujhe pata tha sid this is what love is...she is what love is...and she is how love should be"

"Maine naa tujhe thoda kaatne ki bhi koshish ki...lekin nahi rok paya khud ko... life me kisi ne mujhe itna affect nahi kiya kabhi jitna tera hasna..tera rona..tera roothna aur tera mujhe naa manana bhi affect karne laga tha.... i was so fucking scared man....ki sid agar ye workout nahi hua na to teri is baar jo watt lagne wali hai usse tujhe koi nahi bacha sakta"

"Is moti ne tujhe fasa liya hai poori tarah...poori life ke liye...tu ready ho ja... kyuki tera commitment fobia will take you deep down....kitni koshish ki maine ki tujhse ladai hui hai to bhad me jaa..koi lena dena nahi hai tujhse...rakhna hi nahi hai kuch...lekin tune har baar mana liya mujhe...har baar...aur mujhe tujhe naa sorry kehna hai....ki maine tujhe itna rulaya...maine bhot baar akele me socha tha...ki bhot age difference hai hum dono me...tere liye mushkil hoga...I am way too old for you...lekin tu samne aati aur sath rehti to kabhi wo difference feel hi nahi hua....laga hi nahi ki impossible hai..lekin main nahi chahta tha ki tujhe affect karu...yaa is adat ke karan tujhe takleef ho life me"

"Awww...itna pyar me tha tu mere"

"Tha matlab...hoon aur poori life rahunga moti....ab ye fevicol ka mazboot jod hai...tootega nahi...aur agar to toota to main ubhar nahi paunga...bus jo bhi hai ye full n final hai is baar" he says with upmost sincerity and pride and confidence. 


"But tune kitna bhao khaya..rabba..sara sara din sari sari raat manati rehti thi main... chotti chotti baaton pe gussa ho jata tha.. bada logical banta tha...bhot rulaya hai tune mujhe..sachhi bata rahi hoon...itna kisi ke liye nahi royi main...farak hi nahi padta tha..bhad me jaye type attitude tha mera"


"Moti raat ko maan jata tha Main.. tujhe hug kiye bina neend nhi ati thi na..gandi wali adat ho gyi thi...aur fir na baat karo to tu ya to udhar muh kr k soti thi ya sidhe bed hi change kar leti thi... tune bhi kam tang nhi kiya mujhe...but I accept mujhe achha lagta tha tere liye wo sab karna...roothna taki tu manaye..chipak ke..lipstick wali kiss de ke...adhe time to main tujhse manwane k liye gussa hota tha... itna bhav na maine kabhi kisi ko diya na itne efforts kisi ne kabhi mere liye lagaya .... Tu 1 hi aisa piece hai meri life me...jiske nakhre bhi accept aur jo poori ki poori jaisi hai waisi hi accept hai mujhe"

Sana asks him further "1 baat puchu...sachhi sachhi batayega"

"kuch bhi pooch darling...BIWI se kya chupana...khud ko share kar liya..ab kya karunga chupa ke...Izzat to lut gyai tere hatho" he laughs sticking his tongue out just to lighten the serious conversation

"tune us din bed me mujhe kyu samjhaya tha...ki teri life alag ho jayegi..meri life alag hai..blah blah..blah...agar itna hi pyar tha to?"

Sid closes her in is arms, in his protective embrace "wo main tujhe nahi shayad khud ko samjha raha tha...tera sahara le ke...aage kya hona hai nahi pata tha...aur jis emotional attachment se main hamesha darta tha...mujhe usse kahi jyada attachment tujhse ho gaya tha...attachment gaya bhad me...mujhe pyaar ho gaya tha... tujhe yaad hai maine tujhse pucha tha...apni ek ladai ke baad..sofe pe andar baithe the hum...maine pucha tha tujhse 3 baar... kyat u pyaar hai mere?"

Sana laughs loudly "haan...yaad hai....fatt gayi thi meri...sanaaa kya puch raha hai ye....kya jawab degi tu...isliye maine 2 baar kuch nahi kaha...ki shayad tu khud hi chup ho jayega"

"to us time main desperately sunana hah raha tha....ki haan...straight forward haan...hoon pyaar me...matlab 1 sec ke liye passing though tha...sana bol de....don't hold back..just say it"

"sana was surprised listening to his thoughts "hayyyy...sachhi...to tune kaha kyu nahi? Mujhe laga tun ahi karta pyar mujhse...main to dar gayi thi jab pucha tune...sharam bhi aa rahi thi...dar bhi lag raha tha...kaise react karu kuch samajh nahi lag raha tha...tu hi bol deta...mera heartbreak ho jata sachhi batau to agar tu kabhi nahi bolta to...bhot jor se pyaar ho gaya tha...lekin samajjh nahi lag raha tha..bolu...nahi bolu..hai bhi yaa nahi hai...ya kya hai?"

"gadhi....jor se kya hota hai...pyaar hai ya susu hai?" and they both burst out laughing.

"butt sachhi bata rahi hoon...dil toot jata gande wala...kabhi nahi hua waise wala heartbreak ho jata...soch kar hi dar lagta hai...dekh abhi bhi rongte khade ho gye...baat hi kar rahi hoon to" and she had tears in her eyes thinking what if he would never have sad that he loves her.

"aww..main kabhi heartbreak nahi hone deta baby....aur kabhi hone bhi nahi dunga..tujhe pata hai heart breaks are stil easy to deal with...but god forbid, if ever you leave me..it won't be a hearkbreak....

"IT WILL BE A SOUL BREAK" for me...you are my soul and it will tear me apart into pieces beyond imagination and repair and that will be an end to my being...and this is exactly what love means to me..and this is how much you matter to me"

Hearing this Sana had tears in her eyes and so did Sid. They both wiped each other's and Sana kissed him...it was an assurance...their day just got better with such a heart to heart conversation..... followed by some mushy romance...their togetherness and love is the essence of their being and existance.