These days are never typical for both of them...they aren't boring either...Sid has always believed living in the present...but probably within.. something has definitely changed after meeting Sana...and most certainly after being locked up... he probably has started thinking about their future together.... It's an overwhelming experience that he too is getting to live for the first time in his life...in his own house...with no one around...just with the woman he never even thought ever existed...

They have been discussing pretty openly about things...Sana is blown away by what sid thinks love is and should be....his thoughts are always very streamlined and provocative...he has seen much of the life....but have never ever thought in his wildest dreams that he would fall in love with a girl...who is so filmy...who is full of life.. full of love...beauty in and out and so young yet mature enough to handle him.. he is more than glad to have found his soulmate in Sana.

Sid knows he needs to break those barriers in between them...but subtly..hence he had initiated a game a while ago...only him talking about things can get sana past over her all insecurities...that would steady their relationship and instill more trust and love for each other.... Sana is although very chatty but she had always loved sid to initiate things....be it a discussion or romance...she loves it this way and Sid true to his screen image is overtly romantic and expressive these days... but in private... only infront of his lady..this initial phase of love and romance is truly beautiful in every way...they both are loving it and living it.

One fine evening in the balcony, which has been kind of a hangout spot for both of them... sana and sid are enjoying tea...the music is looped... they are casually chatting... and the song in the loop plays..

"Bheege hoth tere...pyaasa dil mera" ... sid humms it along remembering their performance on the same... swiftly held sana's hand..grabbing her by waist and initiated the dance...she happily obliged...smiling...as she too had fond memories of this one...

He further sings along loudly ....

"Kabhi mere sath...koi raat guzaar... tujhe subah tak main karu pyaar... ooo..ooooo...ooo"

And he comes closer... carassing sana's face... looking into her eyes...and was about to kiss her...when sana jerks him and turns... slightly shy and mischievously smiling...squeezing her eyes...biting her lower lip

"BIWI ek kiss yaar...kyaa mother sister karti hai na tu mood ki...dekha hai maine... tujhe sari hasi usi time aati hai"

"No baby...door reh mujhse"

"Kyuuuu" he asks her with a frown

"Baby modiji ne kaha hai SOCIAL DISTANCING... bho jururi hai" and laughs aloud running all over that small space...teasing him...and sticking out her tongue and pointing a thumb at him

"Teri social distancing ki to...ruk moti" he too chases her

"Baby no sunflower meeting...go corona and go Shukla" she laughs and giggles holding her stomach

"Aaj to sunflowers kya.. genda..rose...jasmine... mogra...jhad..ped... phool..patti sab milenge baby... main to sirf kiss mang raha tha but tune jaan bujh ke uksaya mujhe...now you have nowhere to run...panga liya na tune mujhse.. ruk" he threatens chasing her around the lounger.

"oyee Shukla....apna ego mat laa beech me...samjha" she teases further...laughing madly


"no ego baby....aaj to kuch beech me nahi aayega...just wait and watch" he says catching her and swinging her...she is breathless.... giggling..he holds her through her tummy.... gripping tightly....

"bol uksaygi agli baar" and she giggles... "ammaaa....kittani jor se pakda hai" he lightens his grip...softly holding her... kissing her nape...Her eyes are closed...the breaths are mellow.... he turns her to face him....while her eyes are still closed...she is holding his tshirt...clasping in her fingers

He caresses her face lovingly....looking at her...the mischief in his eyes is sobered and they are filled with undying love...he holds her face in his hands softly...and his lips touches every inch of her face...while he couldn't hold back his love for her...and kisses her.... and the sunflowers bloom.... hazing and blurring away the background....the sky is dusky...the love is in the air.

While they both are new in this copulation... it never felt wrong to either of them.. however they have never discussed it openly...understanding Sana's timidity and obvious shyness...he thinks to initiate a conversation that will instill their trust in love further msking their communication strong....but Sid always finds his own way of saying or commencing a discussion...he knows it is important for both of them to talk about it...openly and maturely...while he pulls his tshirt over and hugs sana putting his right leg on her and his right hand on her waist..while she is lying straight..not looking at him...Understandably so... he asks her gently kissing on her forehead

"ek baat puchu? Sach sach batayegi?"

"do puch...jhoot kyu bolungi tujhshe bebu" she says childlike lovingly caressing his cheek with her hand...gently..looking at him

"tu mujhe kabhi naa kyu nahi karti?"

"matalab?" she asks with a confused look...not understanding exactly what he wants to ask? "samjhi nahi main tera question"

"tu mujhe kabhhiiii....naaaaa...kyuuu nahiiii kartiiiii" he again asks her bumping his head to hers..looking into her eyes...he knows why but he wants to listen it straight from the horse's mouth

"kyuki main tujhe kabhi naa kar hi nahi sakti...isiliye" she says softly

"aur kabhi tera man naa ho to?" he probes her further

"aisa kabhi hoga hi nahi" she says taking her gaze off

"maan le hua to...abhi to sab naya naya hai...lekin maan le agar?"

"pata nahi...kabhi socha nahi" she says innocently

"achha ek baat bata...tune mujhe aaj kyu nahi roka..why did you not say Sid nahi"

She smiles and "achhaa tu ruk jata bus itna kehne pe?" she giggles

"abe main kya tujhe hawasi lagta hoon...like lascivious...jab dekho toot pado..us type ke ladko jaisa samajhti hai tu kya..hadd hai" he asks her in a serious tone

"nahi...bilku nahi samajhti...tu aisa hota to kitne hi mauke aye the pehle bhi...tune kabhi mujhe waise uncomfortable feel nahi karwaya...aur" and she stops midway

"AUR"

"kuch nahi...chal door hat..."

"shehnaaz aur?? Poora khatam kar...mujhe adhi baat pasand nahi hai...yaa to bol mat ya poori bol"

"kuchh nahi...main to just bol rahi thi ki aur initiate maine hi kiya us din...I mean naturally hua...aise koi planned nahi tha...mujhe kuch galat nahi laga tere sath... tune mujhe poora kiya..I felt complete" she says turning her back on him

"achha tu baat to kar...idhar dekh...mera puchne ka reason simple hai...I want to know from you tu mujhe kyu nahi rokti kabhi bhi.. even if it's for a kiss"

"kyuki mujhpe tera hak hai isliye"

"bang on....yahi sunana tha... tujhe yaad hai maine kuch din pehle tujhe kaha tha...tujhpe sirf tera hak hai pehle....ye hi problem hai hamare yaha..ladkiyan pyar me pad jati hain aur intimate hone ke bad unko lagta hai...ki ladke ka poora hak hai...ab sab kuch to ho hi gaya hai...exactly yahi problem hai...soch ki"


"pata nahi ..lekin mujhe galat nahi lagta...I mean I love you...mujhpe tera hak nahi hoga to kis ka hoga...aur same tujhpe mera"

"achha to tujhe mujhpe hak lagta hai?? Sure hai tu?? To kabhi mera mood nahi ho...kahi aur dimag ho...jab ye sab naya nahi rahega...lekin tujhe intimate hona hai....bol payegi"

"hawwww...." She just covers her mouth with her hand and giggles

"main samjhungi tujhe....tere mood ko..us time ki situation ko...koi mari nahi jaa rahi hoon us sab ke liye naa"

"thank you for saying that and this exactly applies to you as well....main yahi samjhana chaha raha hoon...ki main bhi mara nahi jaa raha hoon...abhi its all new...sab achha lagta hai...lekin dheere dheere change hota hai...kabhi tu mood me nahi ho..ya main nahi hoon...to kya tu mujhe mana kar payegi ya muh khol ke bol payegi....ki tera mood gaya bhad me sid...mera mood hai...mujhe abhi karna hai... ya nahi karna mood nahi hai..will you be able to say it that openly"

And there is pin-drop silence for few seconds...
"haan....bol paungi" she says thinking a bit

"moti sun le meri ek baat...tujhse jyada duniya dekhi hai...isliye samjha raha hoon tujhe...being born as a woman is your superpower...tere liye teri khud ki needs aur khud ki marzi kisi se bhi pehle honi chahiye....i do not believe in "man are superior" shit...woman are infact much more superior....koi apni baat kehne me atleast mujhse... tujhe kabhi bhi sochne ki koi zarurat nahi hai....fir wo" and he stops midway

"bol bol...puri kar baat..mujhe adhuri baat pasand nahi hai..aur words mat ghuma...fir wo kya??" she taunts him back playfully

"fir wo YES FOR SEX HO ya NO FOR SEX HO...chal bata what is intimacy and fantasy for..tu kya sochti hai...kar hi rahe hain jab khul ke baat...to fir ho hi jaye naa" he says kissing her forcefully

"sid noooooo....mera mood nahi hai" she pushes him and laughs.

"moti tu mujhpe hi na mere paitre mat chala...meri hi billi mujhse hi meow"  and he bites her nose meowing at her.

Sana gets up and sits on his thighs...holds his hands sideways....bends down on him....kissing him passionately... "billi nahi...sherni hu main...samjha..loosers ke muh nahi lagti"

"ohhh...hoo..my sherni taking charge...baby main to winner hoon fir" he laughs teasing her..making her shy

"achha chal chal...mera concentration mat bhatka... aisi harkate kar ke..khud uksati hai...fir mujhe guilty feel hota hai ki kahi main over ya jabardasti to nahi kar raha hoon....for guys its little different....gusse me bhi they can think of making love...more out of the feeling to supress that male ego...ladkiyon ke sath nahi hota aisa...they need the space...emotional bonding means more to them to get to the physical intimacy aspect"

"chal bata intimacy ab intimacy kya hai tere liye?"

She laughs... "kissi jhappi..pappi and SAB KUCH...apne aapko share karna jispe aap trust karte ho...sahi bola?"

"hmm..partially...wo tera SAB KUCH is a part of intimacy...togetherness is the heart of it friendship...companionship..attachment... attraction...comfort... physical proximity ye sab intimacy ka broader picture hai....sex being a part of it...but it is actually togetherness of two beings....wholesome togetherness...kuch karna hi zaruri nahi hai...tera sirf hath pakad ke bhi baithu...aur hum ek dusre se dil ki baat kar sake it is intimacy in real sense...har kisi ka alag meaning ho sakta hai intimacy ka...mere liye kuch bhi gesture jo tere face me smile le laye...aur tujhe mujhse sharam aur pyaar aaye..like a simple hug...or holding your hand or even looking at you is intimacy....a bond where your heart connects to the other person...and you don't need only sexual context to show it..mere a simple holding of hands or a warm hug conveys you are together in every sense is intimacy for me"

"achhhaaaaaa......ok sir...I like your definition very much...nou you deserve one jhappi and pappi from your student....would you like to take one kissi from me?" she asks him cutely..pouting and waving her head....this makes sid laugh

"nautanki..ohhh I would love that baby..i am always up for jhappi pappi and your SAB KUCH..i am open for every thing....u just have to say it" and she briefly kisses him pouting almost a piggy pout.

"achha tune mujhe bola na abhi ki tu naa kyu nahi karti...ek baat bata tu mujhse bore ho jayega kuch salo baad..like main jab moti ho jaungi..bachhe ho jayenge..ja kuch bhi..nahi rahungi kuch phase ke liye hot and sexy...tab?"

"to kya hua?? I haven't loved your body...yes initial attraction is obviously physical kisi ke liye bhi...lekin nahi kabhi bore nahi hounga tujhse... umm.hmm..kabhi bhi nahi...kabhi nahi hoga aisa...tujhe kyu lagta hai aisa par...tune mujhe BB house ke andar bhi kaha tha ki tu pak gaya hai mujhse ab..maine tab bhi kaha tha yahi...aur hamesha kahunga"

"awwwww.....sachhiiiii...tu firr hamesha aise hi pyaar karega mujhse...aise hi feel rahegi.... bachhe ho jayenge to bhi aise hi aa ke kabhi bhi jhappi pappi karega?"

"haan....kyu nahi...use kya change hoga..abhi bhi..tab bhi...aur poori life aisa hi rahunga main...tu bore ho jayegi bhale hi...main nahi hone wala"

"hayyyy....main kyu hone lagi bore...itna sexy launda mila hai..thik hai thoda bada hai..lekin usse kya hua to fir..lekin mujhe achha laga sun ke ki tu bore nahi hoga mujhse"

"sawal hi paida nahi hota...lekin tune kyu pucha ye bata pehle...aise hi to puch nahi nahi tune..kuch to reason hoga pakka..bol"

"wo friends batati thi meri jinki shadi ho gayi ja bhot time ho gaya relationship ko ki pehle sab achha rehta hai....fir ladko ka interest kam ho jata hai..matalab ki wohi sab"

"abe gadhi...ek to tu in sab friends se kam kar de yaar...sach me...kitna generalize kar ke tera dimag bhi sada rakha hai...main nahi hoon inme se kuch bhi...hote honge ladke...lekin main aise hi pyaar me rahunga tere...aise hi tujhe tang kaunga...tujhse laduga..tujhe jhappi pappi karunga aur baki saaaabbbb aise hi karunga jaise first time hi hai..mujhme koi change nahi aayega....kam jyada ho sakta hai thoda..kabhi kaam jyada...ya kabhi dimag kahi aur uljha ho to..lekin wo to sabke sath hota hai..hai na...ladkiyon ke sath bhi hote hain mood swings...waise 1000 stress hote hain.. kaam ka...n baki sab...use interest thode hi kam ho jata hai...pagal bhot kachra bhara hua hai tere dimag me" he squeezes her in her arms...tujhe aise pichak dalu kya...fir tujhe chan ke chai ke cup me dal ke ice dal ke gatak jaunga"

And they both burst out laughing..."yaar meri bhot back dukh rahi hai...please  daba de bebu"

"oyeee kya ho gaya baby? Achanak jyada zor se maine hug kiya kya? Sorry sorry"

"are nahi....aise hi...achha tere bachpan ki baat bata naa mujhe"

"Ruk phone charging pe laga ke aata hoon...kuch chaiye tujhe"

"pani le aa please....aur apple pada hoga table pe wo le aa..namak mirch laga ke"

"ok madam..aur kuch chahiye" he asks bowing down to her

"aur tu" she giggles

"jane de phone charging jaye bhad me...main aa jata hoon...apple pani to aate rahega baad me...and he jumps besides her...hugs her tight...kissing on her cheeks

"sidhhaaarttttttt....chiiiiii....door hat...geeli geeli pappi...tissue de mujhe...gande bachhe" she says wiping her left cheek with her hand...while sid deliberately holds her hands

And they laugh their heart out...her expressions are cute and priceless...That's how they enjoy yet another game of discussion...a healthy, matured and love filled on such a sensitive yet salient topic...which many others do not even feel the need to discuss.

sexuality is just the part of intimacy....people most often misunderstand it as the heart of it...that is how relationships evolve...by talking openly on things and topics which people hesitate to discuss ...relationships often come with a default tag of "HANDLE WITH CARE..FRAGILE"