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Two month pass like this, these two month's was blessing for shehnaaz, she get all the love and care from his family and from him which she always crave for. She start opening up in front of him. She slowly start sharing her feelings with him.

Today is Sunday, everyone is at home enjoying family time. First time shehnaaz cook for them.

"Wah beta maza aa gaya" dadu said and give her some money as sagun.

"Nahi dadu ye kiu?"

"Beta haq hai already humne jo pehle tere saath kara hai uske liye hum sharminda hai ab iske liye mana mat kar".

She take money and bend down to take his blessings. Sidharth smile when everyone praise his wife he feel like someone praised him.

"Sidharth tu bhi kuch de dena shehnaaz ko"

"Of course mom wese bhi aaj hum shopping par ja rahe hai"

"Hum?" Shehnaaz asked.

"Haan hum" he said casually.

"Aur ye baat mujhe hi nahi pata"

"Beta aadat daal ab iska yahi hai achanak plans banata hai" ashok ji said. She smile and move her head in disbelief.

"Acha mein soch rahi thi ab Shehnaaz aur Sidharth ke reception ke baare mein soche?" Rita maa asked.

"Haan good idea shadi to aese hi hui thi official statement bhi de denge sabko kiu Sidharth?"

"Yes dadu I'm ready shehnaaz tumhe problem to nahi"

She nodded as no and smile.

"Ha to ab ja raha hai na reception ki shopping kar lena" vidya said.

"Hum bhi jaaye?" Avni and nargis asked.

"Couple ko privacy do bhai" varun said.

"Are to hum konsa inke saath jayenge dadu ye hamare pati hai na inke saath jayenge".

"Hume kiu phasa rahe ho"

"Sikho kuch Sidharth se khudh hi usne plan bana liya shehnaaz ko le jaane ka"

He huffed and agreed.

"Chalein shehnaaz?" He asked while entering in their room but froze at his place when he look at her. She is wearing a simple yellow suit without make-up. Her simple looks always do something in his heart.

"Haan mein ready hu chaliye" she said while taking her stuff. He come out from his thoughts and smile but frown when he look at her empty hairline. He move his head on disbelief in her carelessness. He went towards her and cage her between him and the dressing.

"Ky... kya kar rahe hai aap?" She asked looking at him. He smirks and bend down toward her. She close her eyes taking high breaths. She thought he will kiss her 🌚 but her dream broke down when he fill her hairline. She open her eyes and smile blissfully. He kissed at the same spot and linger his lips there for few moments.

"Ab hua look complete" he whispered. She open her eyes and look at him. "Wese jo tum soch rahi thi wo bhi jaldi hoga" he whispered in her ear and kiss her cheeks. She widened her eyes but he already left from there. Both blush thinking about the kiss.

She come out from her room and went to his car. She sit there without looking at him. He was looking at her.

"Bhai chalo yaar bhabs ko baad me dekh lena aapki hi hai" rudra said in teasing tone. She bite her lower lip to control her blush. He ignore his statement and start the car.

The all reached the mall.

"Chalo bhai mein chala gaming zone aap logo ki shopping ho jaaye to bula lena" rudra said and left.

"Ye kabhi nahi sudhrega" vidyut said. "Acha suno sab alag alag jaate hai aur jab sabki shopping ho jaaye to food court me milenge okay"

The all agreed and went on different directions. Sidnaaz where roaming in mall when he hold her hand and entangled their fingers. She look at him who look like nothing happened. She smile shyly and tightened her hold. He smile at her act. They enter in an expensive store. He was about to enter when he received a call from office.

"Shehnaaz tum chalo mein aaya" he said and stand outside the store. She nodded and enter inside the store. This is the first time she enter in any expensive store. The girl who used to go shopping in Sarojini or wear clothes given by her sister, has come to such an expensive store today. It is a big deal for her. She look at the dresses like an excited child. Sidharth smile from outside while talking on phone. Her smile give him peace.

"Haaye rabba ye kitne mehenge hai ek bhi dress 10 thousand se kam ki nahi hai but meri to itni savings bhi nahi hai kese kharidu ye but Shukla family ke standard ke hisab se to leni hogi gaye beta tere paise sabse sasti dress le aur nikal" she thought and start looking at there price tag. Her eyes fall on a beautiful saree, she smile and went toward it. She wipe her sweaty palms and touch the saree but when her eyes fall on the price and drop the fabric immediately. It's about 30k.

"30k babaji meri salary hi 25k hai ye le li to gai meri savings".

"Hello" a salesgirl come near her. She turn and saw her who was looking at her from tip to toe. She feel uncomfortable. "Aap yaha shyd galti se aa gai?"

"Sorry?"

"Aapko dekh kar lagta nahi aap ye purchased kar paiyengi to pls aap store se chali jaiye baaki costumers ko problem ho rahi hai".

She look at her surrounding and saw at looking at her. Her eyes filled with tears but she control herself.

"Pls leave"

"Excuse me" Sidharth said from behind angrily. He was about to shout on her when shehnaaz show her palm.

"Who are you to judge me? Maa hai meri ya bhagwan hai? Mein ye purchase karu ya na karu isse aapko kya, aesa to nahi hai na ki har jo customers yaha aata hai wo koi na koi cheez purchase karta hai aur aap hoti kon hai kisi ko judge karne wali haan logo ke pehnave se unko judge karna na chod de aap jese logo ki wajhe se hamara samaj badnam hai aur wo aapke piche board par kya likha hai costumer is god wow" she chuckle "aese treat kara jaata hai god ko"

"And you miss whatever you are you're fired now" Sidharth said sternly.

"But sir aap?"

"Inka mall hai ye aur ye mere pati hai" shehnaaz said extra sweetly and smile.

Salesgirl girl look at them blankly "m... I'm sorry sir"

"Sorry mujhse nahi inse boliye aur aap pls apna saman bandhe aur nikle yaha se jinko custumers ki respect nahi karni aati wo mere under kaam nahi karega, Manager" he shout manager name.

The manager come outside from his office.

"Good evening Sir aap yaha?hume ghar bula liya hota"

"Mere saath sugarcoating ho gai ho to thoda apne staff par bhi dhyan de ye batamizi kar rahi thi apne customer ke saath bina jaane nikal rahi thi inko"

"Nisha what is this?"

"Sorry sir mujhe pata nahi tha ye sir ki wife hai"

"So what aaj mere saath Kara hai aapne na jaane kitno ke saath karti aai hongi aap aesa aur kal ko kitno ke saath karengi"

"She is right you're fired"

"Sir pls"

"Out now nisha" the manager shout on her. She left from there.

"Shehnaaz jo chahiye le lo" Sidharth said softly.

She look down "mujhe kuch nahi lena" she almost whispered.

"But"

"Ghar chalein pls" she look at him with tear full eyes. He nodded and take her with him. He left with her and inform others about them.

They are sitting in car, she was looking outside silently. He hold her hand and keep it on his thigh she didn't said anything. When they reach home she directly went inside without saying anything. He cursed the salesgirl to make her sad.

He follow her but she already went inside the bathroom. He decided to wait for her.

Inside the bathroom she open the shower and sat down hugging her knees. Tears flowing from her eyes. No matter how much she act strong still peoples words hurt her. Why everyone judge her, why everyone judge her dressing sense. Shreya and her friends always make her fun because she wear cheap cloths which she purchase from local market. She was crying non stop when the door open with a bang. Sidharth enter and saw her like this. He was waiting for her but when she didn't come outside he enter inside after banging the door. She was inside from last half an hour.

He went near her and turn off the shower.

"Shehnaaz" he said softly. She didn't look at him just sob hugging her knees. This is the first time he saw her in this condition otherwise she always show peoples her strong side.

"Shhh mera baccha bass" he hug her and take her in his arms. He went outside and on the heater to provide her heat. She was crying hugging him.

"Shehnaaz look at me pls" he said loving and finally she look at him with her red eyes and nose. His eyes filled with tears when he look at her. "Naaz meri jaan pls shant ho ja kya hua bata mujhe"

"Si....sidh.... sidharth.... koi mujhe... pasand nahi.... nahi karta... jese mein hu..... sab... sab judge karte hai... I.... I can't take this anymore" she just break down infront of him as in past no one was there to handle her vulnerable state but now she know he will surely handle her.

"Shehnaaz pls pehle shaant ho ja meri jaan" he kissed her forehead.

"Pi.."

"Pani?"

"Pill... pills....drawer.... red pills"

He somehow found them and give her. After taking them she relax little. She was still sitting on his lap and he was hugging her without caring that he will also catch cold.

"Shehnaaz"

"Hmm" she just hummed with closed eyes.

"Baccha tell me what's bothering you because jis sherni shehnaaz ko mein jaanta hu wo itni asani se nahi tutti tell me what happened".

She open her eyes and try to stood up to avoid the topic but he hold her hand.

"Aaj nahi naaz aaj sach sach batana hoga tumhe"

"Sidharth please"

"Shehnaaz pehle change karke aao phir baat karte hai and just 5 minutes 5 minute me mujhe tum bahar milo warna mein andar aa jaunga and I'm serious about it" he said sternly. She nodded and went inside the bathroom to change her cloths. He himself change in room.

She come outside and sat on the bed
She think about to skip this topic. When he enter and saw her lost. He sat beside her.

"Shehnaaz"

"Hmm" she look at him with pale face. He hold her hand and make her sit on his lap. She keep her head on his chest. He rub her back to give her comfort.

"Ab batao aur jhut nahi sab sach sach"

"Sidharth magar"

"Please shehnaaz ab bohot hua kab tak khudh ko andar hi andar maarti rahogi dekha hai meine kon kon si tablets leti ho tum I'm scared naaz i don't want to lose you please batao maybe mein help kar saku itna bhi Barosa nahi hai mujhpar?"

She took a deep breath "6 saal ki thi mein jab mummy papa ko kho diya meri bhi ek happy family thi mummy papa ladli thi mein jo bolti thi wo laakar dete the but ye khushi zyda din nahi rahi meri life me mummy papa ki 8th anniversary thi sab bohot khush the us din celebration ki taiyaari chal rahi thi mein bade papa ke saath cake lene gai thi lekin jab.... jab ghar aai to ghar me aag lagi thi cylinder blast hua tha mummy ko bachane papa gaye the lekin.... lekin koi bahar nahi aaya... Unki body....wo bhi nahi mili sab ek din me bikhar gaya tha....mein tut gai thi mere aakho ke saamne sab khatam ho gaya tha" she cry hardly hugging him. He console her while his eyes filled with tears. He couldn't imagine his life without his parents and she lost her parents in such small age.

"Bade papa mujhe apne saath le gai taai ji unke khilaf thi lekin unko meri fikar thi bade papa ke saamne taai ji bohot ache se behave karti thi mere saath aaj bhi wese hi karti hai.... shreya meri age ki hai lekin wo bhi taai ji jesi hi hai usko nahi pasand tha mere saath rehna isliye taai ji ne mujhe store me rehne bola..... Bohot dar lagta tha Sidharth waha insects hote the mein roti rehti thi lekin wo kabhi nahi sunti thi bade papa ke saamne wo mujhe shreya ke room me bhej deti thi lekin unke sone ke baad wo mujhe store room me lock kr deti thi... aur bade papa ke uthne se pehle nikal deti thi.... wo to ye bhi nahi chahati thi ki mein studies complete karu lekin bade papa ne wo karwaya"

"Mein aesi nahi thi jese aaj hu mein nahi thi itni weak lekin sabne bana diya.... taane maar maar ke.... sympathy dikha kar tod diya us strong shehnaaz ko sabne....bohot baar na taai ji mujhe khana bhi nahi deti thi shuru shuru me mein bohot roti thi phir aadat padh gai sabki andhere se dar lagta hai ghutan hoti hai lekin meri to life me hi andhera hai.... School me mera koi friend nahi tha shreya ne sabko mere khilaf kar diya tha isliye bolna band kar diya... ghar par koi nahi hota tha mujhe samjhne wala isliye akelepan se dosti kar li... Aapko pata hai mere saare ache ache kapde taai ji ne shreya ko de diye the aur jab uska dil bhar jata tha un dresses wo mujhe de deti thi... college me jab aai shreya ne mujhe bully kiya sabke saath milkar isliye bahar jaana band kr diya tha meine... Sabne mere dressing sense ka mazak banaya mujhe insecure feel karwaya isliye jab aaj us salesgirl ne mujhe wo sab bola to mujhe sabki baatein sabke taane yaad aa gaye".

Few tears drop from his eyes but he wipe them and kiss her head.

"You know what naaz mujhe lagta tha girls Strong nahi hoti unko emotions chupane nahi aate lekin aaj jab tumhe dekhta hu to pata chalta hai saala tum sab ladkiya to humse bhi strong ho I'm proud of you my girl itna kuch hone ke baad bhi tum itni strongly khadi rahi har ek situation ka himmat se saamne kiya mein to apne aap ko imagine bhi nahi kar sakta"

"Mein nahi hu strong Sidharth bohot koshish ki khudh ko khatam karne ki lekin har baar bach gai" she look at him and smile sadly. Fear run down in his spines hearing that she try to hurt herself. "Aaj bhi panick attacks aate hai to sabse pehle khudh ko hurt karti hu khudh ko khatam karne ka khayal aata hai lekin shyd bhagwan bhi mujhe apne pass nahi bulana chahate isliye bacha dete hai" she show him cut marks on her wrist they get heal but didn't leave the mark.

He look at her and kiss her mark and try to erase the pain "Shehnaaz shhh never ever try to hurt yourself tumhe meri kasam hai khudh ko kabhi hurt kiya to"

"Sidharth"

"Nahi shehnaaz pls promise me kabhi try nahi karogi ye sab" he hug her tightly. "Bolo promise karo"

"I...i can't promise Sidharth"

"Kiu chod ke jaana hai mujhe" he yelled at her. His eyes turn red.

"Nahi Sidharth itne time baad to ye pyaar mila hai kese chod par jaungi lekin"

"Lekin kya?"

"Lekin mera dimag kaam nahi karta jab attack aata ha to sabse pehla thought khudh ko khatam karne ka aata hai".

"Mein kuch nahi hone dunga tumhe" he kiss her forehead.

He make her lay on bed and hug her. "Sidharth sleeping pills" she whispered to him.

"No Shehnaaz they are not good for health"

"But"

"No but wut"

"Lekin phir nightmares aate hai" her eyes filled with tears.

"Mein hoon na ab so ja kuch hua to I'm there for you".

She hug him and hide herself in his arms. She sleep hugging him but he was wide awake thinking about her. He kissed her forehead and wait for tomorrow morning....

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That is it for today ❤️.

Hope you all like it.

Thanks for reading.