Sorry guys!!!

I know, I know you have waited a lot for this so much cos literally everytime I opened wattpad one comment of update soon popped up!

One of the reason is yesterday I had 12th boards exam of one of my major subjects so I had ti study.

Yes, I said I would update yesterday but trust me I was surviving only on 3.5 hours of sleep. I could've have written but then the update wouldnt turn out good!

Btw guys I do appreciate that you guys wait for the update so much. But when you read please atleast leave one comment to tell me how it was or what you want in the next update.

Now I have wasted enough of your time so go ahead and read it!!

Here it goes!!

Sana sat down on the floor due to over exersion. More than her physical health all this was affecting her mental health. She cannot continue to argue with them right now.

Sidharth and Jahan both were expecting her to be crying but she was not. Her face was blank, devoid of all emotions.

Jahan came forward to hold her,
"Jahan ek aur baar tera haath galti se bhi touch hua na mujhe toh aisi jagah pe laath marungi ki zindagi bhar yaad rakhega." she said in a dead low voice which made it sound too dangerous.

Sid went forward to hold her because she was feeling giddy.
"Sidharth please. Thodi der mujhe rehne de." she left from there.

Biggboss announced the end of the task for the day as everybody got back to normal.

"Sidharth aap Shehnaaz se durr raha kare." Jahan came in front of him.

(Ab phatega bomb) 

Sidharth pulled him by his collar in one hand and twisted his hand.
"Abee ae Punjab ki panoti... Tujhe jitna gand machana tha woh macha liya ab agar uske aas paas bhi bhatka toh mai udhar ke udhar tujhe patak dunga. Tu toh khushi mana tu biggboss ke gharme hai agar bahar hota na toh Sana ko dekhne pe bhi tujhe gaad deta chuna toh durr ki baat hai.
Aur tu bolega mujhe usse durr rehne ko? Hakk rakhta hu uspe aur woh hakk jataunga. Uske paas bhi rahunga aur uske saath bhi, joh ukhadna hai ukhad de. Woh meri hai toh woh meri hi rahegi." he left his collar with a force that he landed four steps back.

Sidharth had alot to say and do but above all what mattered to him was his Sana. Yes, his. He cannot shy back now. He knew he had fallen badly for her.

He walked to the room where she was sitting. He was expecting her to be crying in the quilt but to his surprise she was sitting there normal. For people she would look normal but her face was not showing any expressions. Her face was blank, just blank.

"Baby tu aise kyu baithi hai?" he asked.

"Kya lagta hai?" she left a dry laugh.

Dry laughs and emotionless smiles are way more destructive than cries and tears. Period.

"Sana mai woh sab nahi kehna chahta tha..." he was saying but simultaneously looking at her face. When he noticed no movement in her posture and no reaction to his talks he was petrified.

He shook Sana by her shoulders,
"Sana... React kar na baby. Baat kar mujhse."

"Yaar mann kar raha hai ki yaha woh beas wala bada sa kamra ho, andhera ho, woh mera ek alag ka kona ho aur mai waha jaake leti rahu. Kuch ghante, kuch din vahi padi rahu." she said.

Sid hugged her tightly. No it was not to relieve her, it was more for himself. He couldnt see his bundle of joy like that. He wanted her back, his Sana back.

Sana came out of his hold and tapped his arm lightly in assurance.

"Sana mai kya karu, tu bata mai kya karu joh tu baat kare." he almost begged.

"Ek kaam karega? Mai bolti hu aur tu sirf sunn." she smiled again.

Sid nodded and held her hand, they got comfortable in their position at a distance.

"Meri na psychiatrist bolti thi, jab bhi tujhe marne ka mann kar raha ho, yaa kahi jaake sarr patakne ka mann kare tab na kahani sunani chahiye...."

"Sana... Dekh ye marne maarne ki baat karegi toh thappad khayegi." he reacted.

"Tujhe bola na bina bole kahani sunn." she warned and he agreed to her demand and kept quite.

Sana looked into lost space and started with her story.
"Toh... Ek gaav mai na ek ladki rehti thi, uska naam tha Pari. Woh bohot choti thi tabse usse apne papa se milne ka mauka hi nahi mila kyuki woh kaam karne dur desh jaate the. Pari ki na mumma bohot kaam karti thi, toh pari sirf apne dada dadi ke saath akeli rehti thi. Tu apni maa se bohot close hai na? Bohot pyar karta hai, parr kya utna hi pyar tu apne chacha chachi se karta hai?" she looked at sid that meant it was his turn to answer.

"Nahi... Kyuki woh mere dur ke rishtedaar hai." he answered.

"Aise hi Pari apne Mumma Papa se pyar toh karti thi parr woh bhi uske liye durr ke rishtedaar the. Ek din choti si 7 saal ki Pari ko bhej diya dusre gaav, padhai ke liye. Waha uske rishtedaro ke liye Pari ek bojh thi. Waha Pari ka kabhi mann nahi lagta tha. Pari vahi badi hone lagi. Woh waha 8 saal ki pari baithke joothe (used) bartano mai khana kha rahi hai... Woh waha 11 saal ki garam tawe se jale hue haath pe khud hi  marham laga rahi hai... Waha woh 12 saal ki pari rotiya bana rahi hai pure ghar ke liye... Pari mahine mai ya 2-3 mahine mai ek baar apne maa se milti thi parr unko batati bhi kaise? Itna gehra rishta hi nahi tha maa se." she came back to reality and asked sid if he was still listening and he nodded.

Sid was listening to it keenly.  His analysis said that she is putting out her frustration through a sad story.

"Haa toh, badi himmat se pari ne apne ghar pe kaha ki woh yaha se bahar nikalna chahti hai. Toh usse waha se bahar toh nikal diya parr daala sidha hostel mai. Pehle woh bohot royi, bohot pareshan hui akele, parr aage usne apni  zindagi ke kuch haseen pal uss hostel ki azaadi mai bitaye.
Usne apne kaam ke liye jee jaan lagadi, waha rehke usse pata chala ki woh kya karna chahti hai. Uske gharwalo ne usse bohot roka toka, parr woh nikal gayi. Usko apni zindagi naye tareeke se samajhni thi, toh usne apna naam bhi badal diya. Aur apni duniya mai kho gayi." she ended her story with a blank face.

Sana was getting up to change her saree.
"Toh Pari ne apna naya naam kya rakha?" Sid asked.

"Naam? Shehnaaz Gill." she smiled and went from there.

Sid felt like someone pulled the ground below his feet. It was too much to digest, all this while the Pari she was talking about was Shehnaaz? The girl who spreads life was once so lifeless? Sid was unable to react as he was moved by her story.

He followed her everywhere she went to talk to her but her nonchalant demeanor did not change. 

He was stopping her from moving and she was ignoring him,
"Kya hai? Kyu ghum raha hai peeche peeche? Dusra kaam nahi hai?" she said angrily.

"Nahi hai... Bass tere peeche ghumna hai."

She was standing in the kitchen drinking water. Rashmi, Asim, Arti, Pahira and Jahan were sitting together.

"Oye Sana tum dono hune yeh batao tum dono ka breakup hua kaise?" Paras asked.

"Kyu un baato ko yaad karna, hai na shehnaaz?" Jahan said nervously.

"Kyu nahi Jahan? Bata de... Kyu hua tha breakup?" she stood there waiting for his answer.

"Haa I mean tu Himanshi ka bhai parr Himanshi aur Sana toh..." Asim left the sentence open.

"Himanshi ki baat kyu hi rahi hai yaha pe... Shehnaaz tujhe pata tha maine apne saare rishte tod diye the usse uss din ke baad." he looked at her and she laughed sarcastically.

"Yaha toh bhai scene hi ulta hai, ladki bol rahi hai bindaas bata de aur ladka sharma raha hai..." Arti said to Jahan.

"Joh bolti hu shareaam bolti hu, seena thok ke bolti hu. Pyaar maine kiya tha, usne nahi aur Dhoka usne kiya tha, maine nahi." she said strongly.

"Sana tu Himanshi ko maaf kar sakti hai parr mujhe nahi? Ye kyu! Maine joh bhi kiya tha uske kehne pe kiya tha, joh bhi hua woh uski vajese hua parr usko toh tune maaf kar diya?" Jahan was now loud and stood up in front of her.

"Haa kiya maine Himanshi ko maaf. Mai uski competitor thi, uski dushman thi parr tera toh pyar thi na? Usne mere saath bura kiya parr woh meri apni nahi thi... Tu tha!
Mai uski dushman thi toh usne dushman hi bataya. Tujhme itni himmat thi toh pyar mai tune phasaya mujhe, maine nahi... Giri hui harkat tune ki thi, maine nahi aur akhiri baat kisi aur ke saath jaake tu soya tha, mai nahi...Ye kyu nahi bataya duniya ko?" She pushed him away.

Sid followed her quitely as she went to garden area. There she sat calming her mind. Sid came stood before her. He pulled her up to hug her but she pulled herself back.

"Mat aa mere kareeb Sidharth, kuch aisa hojayega joh mai nahi chahti." she exclaimed plainly.

Sid's mind was wandering on different levels. He was scared for Sana. Right now piling up on emotions was the most unhealthy thing. Why wasnt she crying? She needs to cry! Put her heart out. He doesnt want to lose her to depression.

"Aaj tu mujhe yaha baithke puri kahani batayegi teri aur uski. Mai aaj puri kahani jaan na chahta hu A to Z." he ordered.

"Kyu?" she looked at him and the first time in so many hours he could see some emotion in her eyes.

"Kyuki mujhe dusra kaam nahi hai, mai tere peeche peeche hi ghumunga." he huffed and taunted.

"Mai jaan na chahta hu tujhe, mai chahta hu ki tu ye sab apne bahar nikale..." he said genuinely.

"Kya sunna chahta hai? Sunn le. Jahan aur maine ek gaana kiya tha saath aur waha humari dosti hui thi. Hum kaafi ache dost bane, saath ghumte the, woh mere saath mere shoots pe bhi aata tha.  Sabse pehle pyar usse hua tha. Mai unsure thi parr tab Shehnaaz ke andar ki Pari jaag gayi. Pari ek aisi ladki hai jisko kabhi pyar nahi mila. Harr ek attention seeker ke peeche ek aisa bacha hota hai jisse apne hakk ka pyar nahi mila. Usne mujhe attention di isiliye mujhe laga ki pyar hogaya joh ab jaake pata chal raha hai ki jisko mai pyar samajhti thi woh toh pyar tha hi nahi. Maine usse sab de diya mera pyar, vishwas, tan, man sab kuch.
Mujhe nahi pata tha Himanshi uski behen hai. Woh mera rising period tha, mai famous horahi thi aur Himanshi ki takkar mai aarahi thi. Himanshi ne usko kaha ki mujhe chod de aur usne chod diya. Bass yahi pyar tha uska. *she laughs painfully* Ab tujhe lagega ki maine pyar mai suicide kiya parr trust me mai utni weak nahi hu."

Sidharth held her hand tighter. It was the first time she was feeling that someone was actually trying to understand her emotions and not just listen to it. His face was going pale at every attack life had done on her, looked like he was going through the pain along her. She smiled a bit.
"Tu kyu tadap raha hai... Ye mere saath hua tha tere saath thodi..." she tried to lighten the situation.

"Aage bol kya kiya uss haramzaade ne." Sidharth's anger was on another level.

"Jahan ne humare calls edit kiye, aise audio's release kiye jisme aisa lag raha hai ki mai usse phasane ki koshish kar rahi hu pyar mai Himanshi ko barbaad karne ke liye.
Ye baat bohot badh gayi, meri bohot badnaami hui thi. Mai bahar bhi jaati thi toh log aisi nazro se dekhte the ki lagta tha vahi marr jau. Maine bohot saare negetive comments, taunts sab sahe. Meri bhi takat khatam horahi thi, mere saath koi nahi tha. Koi nahi."

"Maine khudko ek kamre mai band kar liya tha, bada saa kamra jisme koi khidkiya nahi thi. Aakhe khuli ho ya band utna hi andhera tha waha. Ek mahina mai wahi rahi, maa andar khana bhejti thi mai usse kha leti thi. Bass itni si duniya hogayi thi meri. Parr aisi duniya mai rehne ka kya matlab? Badi himmat se ek dinn chaku liya aur sidha yaha pe chala diya." she showed hin her hand where after so many days today he could see the cut. Why didnt he notice this before? The big but faint cut mark on her left wrist.

He took the hand to his mouth as he kissed that mark trying to erase it from her life as she smiled at his reactions. She felt his tear fall on her mark and his efforts were touching her heart.

"Mai na chahte hue mai bach gayi... Mujhe hospital mai le jaya gaya aur mai bach gayi. Parr shayad bhagwaan ki marzi ho ki mujhe uss din nayi zindagi mili. Mai firr duniya ke saamne aayi, maine firr kaam kiya. Aur yaha biggboss mai aagayi, mere paas yaha khone ke liye kuch nahi tha parr paana bohot kuch tha. Parr tu, tu aise aaya meri zindagi mai ki firr kuch khone ka darr le aaya saath apne.
Tujhe yaad hai Himanshi ki entry? Humara jhagda? Woh jhagda koi mamuli jhagda nahi tha, woh mera darr tha ki mai tujhe kho dungi. Woh firr cheen legi mujhse tujhe bhi. Yeh hai meri kahani aur yeh hai mera haal." for the first time in the day she held his hand on her own.

She was still not crying, he was moved by how strong this fragile looking woman was. No one can guess what all she has gone through her life has been a mess and she still made everyone laugh.

"Aaj tune mujhe bohot kahaniya suna li, ab mai sunau?" he asked.

"Tu kahani sunayega? Kya sunayega bata." she looked interested.

"Tune mujhe subha Pari ki kahani sunayi thi? Mai usse continue karu?" he asked for her permission.

Shehnaaz was shocked but none the less she nodded and asked him to continue. He held her hand and then started the story.

"Pari ke life mai bohot kuch hua, usne sab bohot himmat se jhel liya. Usne kabhi himmat nahi haari, woh sab kuch jeet kar aage badh gayi. Aage bhi uske zindagi mai ek bohot bada keeda aaya, uss keede ne bhi bohot koshish ki usko todne ki parr Pari sherni thi. Woh in sab se bhi aage nikal kar biggboss ke gharme apna naya naam banane aagayi. Waha pari ko ek gadha mila, woh gadha asli zindagi mai bohot akela aur tuta hua tha. Woh bohot bikhra hua tha, gussa karta tha, kuch bhi bolta tha, kuch bhi karta tha. Parr Pari ne usse sambhala, usse joda aur ek insaan banaya.
Pari uske zindagi mai sach much ki pari ban ke aayi thi. Ye pata hi nahi chala ki usko Pari se pyar kab hogaya. Parr usne apni zindagi mai ek baat jaan li thi, ki jab tak woh marr nahi jaata tab tak ko pari ka saath kabhi nahi chodega." he kissed her hand.

From morning it was Sana who was shocking him but right now Sidharth had made her soeechless, did he... Did he confess?

"Sana, I am very proud of you." as soon as these words left his mouth Sana's no emotion eyes softened. Her face was showing emotions finally.

Suddenly she pulled him towards her and hugged him as she rested her head on his chest. He shocked will be an understatement because he was ecstatic. He hugged her back.

She started crying badly and for the first time Sid was happy that she was crying. She was shaking badly due to her continous crying but Sid did not stop her. He let her cry her heart out on his shoulder. He just patted her back time to time to calm her down.

After fifteen minutes, her cries stopped. He looked back into his eyes. He gave a million dollar smile that came on his mouth the moment he saw her face. Why? Because he could see Sana back. Her face was showing emotion, her smile meant something, her eyes' emotions reached his eyes.

"Sidharth... Isiliye mai tujhe hug nahi karna chahti thi! Mai janti thi ki agar mai tujhe hug karungi toh mere saare emotions bahar aajayenge." she pouted cutely.

He hugged her again and kisaed her face numerous times. He thanked god for bringing her back.

"Jab tune kaha ki tu mere liye proud feel karta hai mai rok nahi payi. Meri kahani sunke mai khudse nafrat karne lagu tune toh pyar kiya. Aisa saath mera kabhi kisine nahi diya. Tu meri takat hai Sidharth." she rest her head on hia shoulder.

"Aur tu meri khushi hai Shehnaaz, tu hasegi toh mai bhi hasunga." he kissed her forehead

They sat like that for five more minutes when Sidharth broke the silence.

"Sana mai pyar karta hu tujhse, ye baat sach hai. Parr utni hi sach ye bhi baat hai ki mai janta hu tu mujhe sirf ek dost samajhti hai. Mai janta hu tu mujhse pyar nahi karti aur I respect that. I will always stand by you. Hum dost rahenge humesha." he started getting up. He had heard this by his own ears and it hurt him but he wanted nothing but happiness for her. He will never pressurise her.

"Kya? Kya bakwaas kar raha hai?" she stood up abruptly.

"Uss din, jab Jahan tujhe aadhi raatko puch raha tha ki mere se dur reh ya mai kya lagta hu tera... Mai vahi tha. Tune jab usko bola ki mai sirf tera bohot acha dost hu, mai tha waha." he confessed his insecurity.

He expected her to agree and apologise or deny and hug him. But what she did was unexpected.
She hits him.

Sana had hit him hard.

"Tu gadha hai, tu kutta hai, tu kamina hai! Mr. I have logic for everything Shukla, inn baato mai kaha chala jaata hai tera logic? Task mai toh bohot chalta hai dimaag, shefali se kaichiya marva sakta hai, defence kara sakta hai parr itni si baat nahi samajh sakta?" she pushed him hard.

"Kaisi baat?" he uttered and she slapped her forehead

"Mai apne zindagi ke sabse kharab rishte ko meri zindagi ke sabse khoobsurat rishte ki sacchai kyu bataungi! Mai kyu batau usko ki tu mera kya lagta hai? Kyu batau ki mai kitna pyar karti hu tujhse? Ki humara rishta kya hai? Usko batake usse mauka dedu tujhe aur tang karne ka? Humare beech aane ka? Hume alag karne ki koshish karne ka?
Tu nahi janta tu mera kya lagta hai? Tu nahi janta ki mai tere liye kya feel karti hu? Yeh mujhe usko batake prove karne ki koi zarurat hai?" she looked at him accusingly.

"You... Are right... Yeh maine kyu nahi socha? Mai woh sunke khudke hi zone mai chala gaya tha, mera dimaag sad raha tha tere uss keede ko dekhke." he said.

"Haa mai uske saath thi parr kabhi usse itni attach nahi hui jitni tujhse hu. Hum close the, physically bhi... Humare beech ek physical rishta bhi reh chuka hai parr firr bhi hum kabhi itne kareeb nahi aaye the jitna mai aaj tere kareeb hu. Usne mera tan (body) zarur chua hai parr kabhi rooh tak nahi pohoch paaya, tu mera shareer chue bina meri rooh chu chuka hai. Humara rishta saccha hai joh woh kabhi nahi tha. Mai tujhse pyaar karti hu joh shayad maine usse kabhi nahi kiya..." she kissed his heart.

"Aaj subhe se bohot gehri gehri baatein kar rahi hai moti, itni samajhdaar kab hogayi tu?" he teased her.

She made him sit and sat on his lap and hugged him tightly.
"Toh ab tu soch, mera ye ek ex aaya toh teri yeh halat hui padi hai. Tera toh pura sansaar pada hai yaha pe..." she said in his ears sounding so very sexy. She nibbled on his ears.

He threw his neck back to let her continue while his hand was on her waist holding her tight.

"Sana... Sunn na." Jahan came out interrupting their moment.
(I know you were missing this... Matlab SidNaaz ka moment ho aur Jahan aake interrupt na kare... Aisa kabhi hi sakta hai?😂
So sorry for doing this to you!)

Sidharth grunted, he expected Sana to now stand uo from that hug but she didnt. She still sat with him, her hands around his neck.

"Tune apne personal camera laga rakhe hai na Jahan? Barabar Time pe kaise tapak padta hai tu?" Sana laughed.

"Woh mai bass dekhne aaya tha tu thik hai ya nahi... Teri chinta horahi thi." he said.

"Koi zarurat nahi. Its ok, uski chinta karne ke liye mai hu yaha. Tum jaa sakte ho." Sidharth gave him a look.

"Mujhe bass chinta horahi thi ki woh akeli hai ye sab past vapis aagaya... Sana maaf karde na." he came closer to them. He so wanted her to stand up. Ge couldnt bare to see her sit so close to him.

"Jahan jiss Sana ko tu janta tha woh ab vaisi nahi rahi... Mai tab akeli bhi thi aur kamzor bhi. Aur abhi mai na akeli hu aur naa hi kamzor. Meri takat aur khushi dono iss insaan ke roop mai mere saath hai, aur jab tak woh nere saath hai mujhe duniya ki koi pareshani pareshan nahi kar sakti." she kissed his cheek.

Jahan was leaving from there wordless. He was unhappy and angry that Sid and Sana got together.

"Sana agar aage se iss keede ne humko disturb kiya na toh ye darwaze se nahi udke bahar jayega. Yaad rakhna." he tightened his hold on her as she laughed.

She sat beside him, her head on his chest.
"Tujhe pata hai mujhe iss moment pe tere baare mai kya lag raha hai?" she asked.

"Kya lag raha hai?"

"Gaa ke bataungi..." she cleared her throat and started singing.

(Do listen to the song! Its beautiful.)

Jaise Koi Kinaara
Deta Ho Sahaara
Mujhe Wo Mila Kisi Mod Par
Koi Raat Ka Taara
Karta Ho Ujaala
Waise Hi Roshan Kare Woh Shehar

She held his hand as her favorite part came by.

Dard Mere Woh Bhula Hi Gayaa
Kuch Aisa Asar Huaa
Jeena Mujhe Phir Se Woh Sikha Raha

He felt her tears drop on his hand.

Hmm.. Jaise Baarish Kar De Tar
Yaa Marham Dard Par
Koi Mujhko Yun Mila Hai
Jaise Banjare Ko Ghar
Naye Mausam Ki Sehar
Yaa Sard Mein Dopahar
Koi Mujhko Yun Mila Hai
Jaise Banjaare Ko Ghar

She hugged him tightly while she sang the last part.

Kisi Shaayar Ki Ghazal
Jo De Rooh Ko Sukoon Ke Pal
Koi Mujhko Yun Mila Hai
Jaise Banjaare Ko Ghar

"Thankyou Sidharth." she whispered into his ears and she drifted off to dreamland on his shoulder.

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And.... We're done! Phew!!
4000 WORDS, DAMN IT! I hope its long enough beacause I read comments who said make it a long update.

"Welcoming the ex" story is over, will you miss it?

One important question!

Now you have read my One shot stories and now short story too... So now how should I continue, do you enjoy these short 2-3 short stories on topics like these? Or should I stick to one shots?

Because I have planned one more short story like this and also I have a few ideas for some One shots too... So I will continue like you guys say.