The Fight
So this is total imagination.
Sid and Sana are fighting over sid saving paras in the immunity task.
Sid told her to get out of his life and all about how I didnt want to get attached.
What if Sana was actually hurt? What if Sana decided to give up? What if Sana didnt patch up with him at night?
"Sana mujhe laga mai paras ko bachau toh maine bacha liya... Ab mai tujhe kuch nahi batane wala." sid said.
"Mai toh bol hi rahi hu, rashmi ki bhi elite club ki jacket le lete hai aur ye joh jail lage the usme mujhe aur Rashmi ko band kar dete hai. Vapis tujhe mauka denge kisiko kholne ka toh iss baar tu rashmi ko khol dio thike?
Kyuki Asim, Mahira, Paras, Arti in sab ko toh tu mere upar bachake priority de chuka hai toh firr sirf Rashmi ko kyu baaki rakha hai!" sana said angrily and left.
(I actually wanted sana to say this in the fight, parr khair koi ni. Pyaar joh karti hai sid se kaise bol degi😂)
When Sana came to sleep at night, sid was still not talking. She tried talking to him but he just ignored. Sana slept quitely on the other side.
Then when she hugged him he pushed her away and put pillows in between.
Sid knew he had hurt Sana but in his anger he felt everything justified.
"Sid..." sana tried to speak.
"Shehnaaz camera udhar hai, udhar jaake apna dukhda suna. Mujhe teri ye bakwaas nahi sunni. Mujhe toh tere se baat bhi nahi karni!" sid blasted on her.
"Thik hai. Tujhe lagta hai ki mai camera ke liye rehti hu tere saath? Toh khush hoja aaj ke baad na camera ke liye aur na kisi aur cheez ke liye tere saath rahungi. Vaise bhi mai kab tak tujhe safayi deti rahungi? Meri bhi bardasht ki ek hadd hai Sidharth.
Mujhe pata hai mai easy nahi hu handle karne ke liye aur ab mai tujhe irritate bhi karne lag padi hu. Mai bohot jyada emotionally attach hogayi thi tere se.
Aur ab mai bohot toot chuki hai, mere se ab ye nahi hoga.
Aur ab bass meri yahi wish karti hu ki kal mai yaha se nikal jau aur bahar jaake firr kisika muh bhi na dekhu. Vaise bhi tu mujhe hazaar baar bol chuka hai ki mai bahar jaake tujhe dekhunga bhi nahi, milunga nahi, baat nahi karunga toh shuruvaat abhi se kar dete hai."
From all that sana said the only thing that kept ringing in Sid's mind was emotionally attach hogayi thi... Her hogayi thi gave him chills. The lone thought of her getting over him, falling out of love with him or moving on scared him. He went numb when he saw sana walk to the washroom wiping her tears. He knew he had hurt her alot.
He did not expect sana to break down like she did. He calmed himself down by thinking that she said all that in heat of the moment and she will be back.
Later at night,
Sid had finally gotten some sleep but couldnt have peace because Sana wasnt there. He finally decided to hug her for his mental peace atleast but when he looked around he saw that his bed side was empty.
Sana vapis nahi aayi?
Sana wasnt on his side and what made him tensed was her pillow and blanket also was missing.
That hit his jealousy nerve, he couldnt imagine sana sleeping somewhere else with someone else. He always knew asim would be ready to pounce on that one chance he gets to make sana on his side. He first checked asim's bed side, but she wasnt there.
He ran a hand over his hair and walked to the washroom area. Sana wasnt even there in the washroom.
Now that made his tension rise and he was scared at where could she go? Finally when he was moving here and there he heard sana call him.
"Shh, Sidharth?" sana called him as she was sitting on the small elevated place in the living area.
(If u remember rashmi sat there with her niece in family round)
Sidharth paced over there quickly and climbed the stairs.
"Tu pagal hai? Yaha kya kar rahi hai aadhi raat ko? Teko pata hai mai kitna darr gaya tha? Kaisi gadhi hai be tu?" he asked her angrily.
"Sidharth ek minute baith jaa. Shant reh thoda, meri baat bhi sun liya kar kabhi." sana said very calmly in a low pitched voice unlike her usual tone.
Sid had sensed the seriousness in the voice so he went and sat there with her.
"Pehle bata kya hua? Ghar bhar kyu ghum raha tha?" sana asked.
"Kyu ghum raha tha? Mai achanak uthke dekhta hu toh tu kahi nahi milti toh mai ghar bhar teko dhund raha tha."
"Toh kyu dhund raha tha sidharth? Mai tujhe bolke nikli thi ki ab tujhe meri fikar karne ki koi zarurat nahi hai. Mai nahi rahungi tere saath camera ke liye tu khush reh sakta hai. Mai joh bhi bol rahi hu, gussa mai nahi bol rahi hu.
Mai toh chahti hu ki mai kal bahar nikal jau aur ye show tu hi jeete." Sana gave him a smile.
The one man army sidharth was now very scared. He felt that sana might leave him and he will fall back alone and lonely again.
"Sana... Tu sahi mai baat nahi karegi? Itni gussa hai?" sid held her hand.
Sana ka dimaag yahi keh raha tha ki woh apna haath kheech le parr uska dil keh raha tha ki woh uska haath aur tightly pakad le.
Iss baar na usne apne dimaag ki suni na dil ki. She kept her hand still n let sid hold it while she herself did not hold his hand back.
"Yeh gussa nahi hai sidharth, agar gussa hota toh chilla ke nikal deti... Ye dard hai, mujhe lagta tha ki tu mera soulmate hai. Tu mujhe samajhta hai, chahe ghar wale mujhe fake kehle ya kuch bhi kehle mera dost sidharth humesha mere saath khada rahega aur mera saath dega.
Parr ghar wale kya kahenge, fake toh mai tujhe lagti hu. Ek baat mai humesha tujhe bolna chahti thi, ki tu mere life mai bohot important hai. Mai hai isiliye bol rahi hu kyuki tu humesha important rahega meri life mai, chahe tu khud meri life mai na rahe. Aur ab sojate hai, bohot der hogayi hai." Sana first pulled her hand from his hold, gathered her blanket, pillow and walked away to sleep.
She slept on their bed itself but in the corner and turned her face to the other side.
Sid was feeling very restless. He did not know ki ye kiss cheez ka darr hai? He was thinking about how no one can affect him but shehnaaz. How her one line saying attachment thi can kill his mood. How the fear of losing her was creeping on him.
After thinking about it, he let the two small tears that brimmed his eyes fall down and went into the room.
He slept on his side and saw how sana had turned her face other side. He quitely turned to her side and moved closer to her. He put his hand over her and pulled her even more closer. Her back was touching his chest and his hand had rightfully hugged her.
"Sidharth..." Sana was about to say something.
Sidharth cut her in between, he just said a small please. Sana did not expect the big man to say please with a cracking voice.
Her heart was aching to hug him back and rest her head on his chest or atleast hold him back but she controlled herself. She let Sidharth hug her and did not answer back.
After good 15-20 minutes when she felt that sid is finally sleeping she intertwined her hand with his.
Next morning,
Sid was awake before wakeup song, sana was still sleeping.
He kissed her on cheek and got up. Sana opened her eyes to see him leave.
She was very confused between her decision.
Sana yaar kaise rahegi tu iske bina? Agar wkv mein mai bach gayi toh aage ka hafta mai kaise nikalungi isse baat kiye bina? Upar se aur kiss karke chala gaya... Aaj akeli baith jaungi firr kal ki kal dekhenge. Haa ye sahi hai.
After wake up song, everyone got up. Sana went and sat on the garden area sofa.
Suddenly she saw Sid coming, she knew ki woh ussi ki taraf aaraha hai. He came and gave her cup of tea.
She extended her hand for the cup and said thankyou very formally.
"Aise legi chai? Tune toh mujhe chai dene ka koi aur tareeka bataya tha. Aaj uss tareeke se nahi dena?"
(Chalo sidnaazians batao konsa tareeka bataya tha shukla ji ko shehnaaz ne?)
"Sidharth... Yaha baitho ek minute. (Sid sat beside her, shehnaaz shifted a little to make sure she does not give in. )
Ab humari kal joh bhi baat hui hum dono bohot serious the uss bare mai. Aur ye karke aap usse mere liye aur difficult bana rahe ho. Aapko ye sab karne ki zarurat nahi hai." Shehnaaz said.
"Aap? Really Sana? Tu ab mujhe AAP bulayegi? Toh ab hum formally baat karenge? Toh mai bhi ab tujhe Shehnaaz Gill bulata hu, Sana toh nahi bol sakta ab mai. Itna hakk nahi hai mera?" Sid becane serious.
Sana knew that she was hurting him. She knew that this aap word will trigger him and so will her formal talks, parr hurt toh usne bhi kiya hai...
(Inke hurt-hurt ke game mai ek din hume pakka attack aajana hai😂)
"Toh... Toh achi baat hai na. Mai koshish kar rahi hu ki camera ke liye mai aapke paas na aau. Aur vaise bhi aapne hi kaha tha ki fuck off from my life..." shehnaaz took her tea and started walking off.
(Shukla ji ke shabd unhi pe pheke gaye hai...)
"Sana... Mai gusse mai tha. Tujhe pata hai mai gusse mai kuch bhi bol deta hu. Baat karle na yaar..." Sidharth pulled her back.
"Mujhe taiyaar hona hai, koi activity hone wali hai. Aap bhi taiyaar hojao"
"Sana tujhe meri kasam vapis aake mere paas baith do minute." Sidharth knew that Sana kuch bhi kar sakti hai parr uski kasam nahi tod sakti.
Shehnaaz was shocked by his kasam. She stomped her feet and walked to him. She sat beside him but at a distance.
"Ye joh tu mere baith te hi dusri baju khisak gayi mujhe dikhane ko aur raat ko jab tujhe laga mai so gaya tab mera haath pakad lena ye dono baat match nahi kar rahi. Kyu dur hona chahti hai tu mujhse?
Mujhe apni gandi wali aadat lagakar ab tu mere se durr hojayegi?"
"Aap woh... Ek minute! Sidharth kya bola tu?" his words of gandi wali aadat rang in her mind.
Sid held both her hands,
"Tu mujhe roz bolti hai ki mai kuch confess nahi karta. Aaj mai tujhe ek bohot important baat bataunga...
Tu mujhse bohot choti hai, young hai, Beautiful hai... Biggboss ke baad tera career tujhe kaha se kaha le jayega. Mujhe darr lagta hai yaar. Ye Asim aur Paras tere hi umar ke hai. Mere mann mai yeh chalta rehta hai ki kahi tu unki na hojaye, tu mere se durr na hojaye.
Aaj tak jaisi tere se meri attachment hai vaise kisike saath kabhi nahi rahi hai. Mera iss ghar mai best equation, best yime joh spend hota hai woh tere saath hota hai, aur ye by chance nahi hota mujhe bhi acha lagta hai.
Aur bass yahi thought ki kal tu kisike saath mere bina khush hogi mujhe bohot satata hai..." A little tear rolled down his eye during his honest confession of his insecurities about their bond.
Sana was shocked seeing his tears. She held his hands and moved closer to him. She knew what could make him calm, she put her head on his chest and calmed him down.
" Parr kal teri baato se mujhe pata chala ki tu bhi mujhe nahi chod sakti... (Sana kissed his chest) Mujhe please ek promise kar, tu mujhe chodne ki baat kabhi nahi karegi... Yaha bhi aur bahar bhi. Tu meri hai, samjhi gadhi?"
"Mujhe ye vishwas hi nahi horaha ki mere bebu ne ye bol diya... Bebu... Ganda baccha..." she kissed his nose and he pulled her on himself and they lied comfortable on the small uncomfortable sofa.
"Gadhi hai tu" he whispered in her ears and she laughed.
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