Today I got called on in my 2nd period.

My teacher wanted me to tell him what leadership meant to me

My face went hot, and my mind went to a blur. My heart beating fast.

I answer, "what sarah said" bc a girl in my 2nd just answered something that sounded pretty good.

He said no, tell me your meaning of it.

I didn't know what to say.

It's a simple thing to explain, yet i couldn't seem to find a definition for it.

"Being a leader." I answered dumbly, knowing it wasn't right.

He then told me that isn't a good definition, making no sense at all.

"Tell me a characteristic of being a leader."

I couldn't think of anything.

He then called on someone else, leaving me to try not to cry.

He must think im dumb.

She must think im dumb.. (One of my "friends" or acquaintance mostly)

Can't even answer a simple question.

And for some reason, i spent that period trying not to cry and break.

I hate that class...

He thinks calling on me more will help break the shyness.

What he doesn't know is that it makes it so much worse.