Ever have those days where your just so tired and sleep isn't fixing it, you feel like crap and everything you thought was going was isn't anymore?

That's my day summed up. I retook a math test but scored lower than before and im trying my fucking best or was at least thinking i was, then all of a sudden im failing a class and the stupid teacher won't give us anything to actually improve our grades bc he was out for a week. Then a new school opened up and my parents asked if i thought about joining it at all and i said no, today was the last day to sign up for it but i silently said no.

I don't wanna leave another friend behind, and going to a new school isn't what i need rn. Idfc if art classes are there and i love art, i don't wanna leave my only fucking friend behind.

School and grades are already fucking me over, and i just wanna curl up and cry tbh. Im cold and sad, and very lonely and my parents are fed up with this failing stuff. Im sorry im such a fuck up, and don't wanna attend some new school. Sorry. They call me passive aggressive, which i guess is true. Bc i don't make decisions, im just to anxious to.

Sorry for the stupid rant, i needed an outlet somewhere before i have a mental breakdown about all this later lol..