Noah's p.o.v

When I got home, I checked my phone. I had 57 missed calls from Finn and I had twice as many texts from him. Wow Finn. What could be so important? Well, it isn't very late, so I should probably call him back. I'll just tell him about Millie tomorrow though because I'm tired and I don't really feel like having that conversation with him right now.

"NOAH!"Finn screamed as soon as I picked up.

"What, and Finn your being kind of loud right now," I said in more of a regular voice.

"Sorry, I'm just excited,"Finn said, calming down.

"Oh what about?" I asked.

"Well, you know the new girl,"

"Millie, yeah,"

"I think I like her," Finn said in barley a whisper.

"Oh...ok, well...wow...um...good for you," It took all I had not to break down and cry at that moment. I really liked Millie, and Finn was so much better than I was. I had no chance now. 

"Noah, are you ok?" Finn said in a concerned tone.

"Yeah...I'm fine," I said. 

"Well I'm thinking about asking her out in a couple of days," Finn said in more of a happy tone.

"Good for you dude!" I said with fake happiness.

"Ok, thanks Noah!" Finn said hanging up.

Wow. There go my chances with Millie. I can't help but be sad about it either. I just met her, yet I feel such a strong connection. Like I didn't know how to breath without her. It's stupid. I have only known her for a day. I knew I shouldn't have fell for her, and now all I could do was cry.

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I didn't go to school for the next week. I didn't pick up my phone, and I barely ate or drank.  I don't think I could stand Millie and Finn flirting, and I think I would break if I had to watch it. I guess I just got my hopes up to high.

I guess I'll just have to learn to deal with it. If I did it with the bullies, then I could probably do it with Millie too. The only problem with that though is that to deal with her I have to talk to her. How could that be a problem you may ask, well when I so much as think of her I start crying. So if I tried talking to her, I don't even know what would happen. 

"Noah!" Chloe yelled from downstairs, "There is someone at the door. They would like to talk to you,"

"Coming!" I yelled back.

When I got to the door I saw Finn. Oh shoot. He's probably going to brag about Millie or something. Finn was one of my best friends, but I did not really want to talk to him right now. 

"Noah! How are you! I have some great news to tell you!"

"Oh hi Finn," I was right. He was going to brag about Millie. 

"ME AND MILLIE ARE DATING!" Finn yelled, his eyes full of excitement. 

"Oh....that's awesome!" I replied plastering a fake smile on my face.

"How are you by the way?" Finn said, now more concerned than excited,"You haven't been to school all week," 

"Oh, well, I haven't been feeling very well lately," I said with a fake cough.

"Ok! Well, I don't want to catch what you have, so I'll see you when you get better! Get well soon buddy!" Finn said with a wave walking out the door. Although I was glad that he bought it, I just crumpled onto the floor, crying. 

"Noah, do you want to talk about it? It might help if do," My sister Chloe said behind me.

"Sure, but can we talk about this in my room please?" I asked.

"Sounds good to me," Chloe responded.

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As soon as we got to my room, I sat on my bed, trying not to cry for the 100th time today.

"So there is this girl named Millie, she's new at our school. And a couple days ago, I was approached by some bullies, it really scared me, and I didn't know what to do. But then Millie came in. She protected me, and it made me feel special. When we got to school, I got to tutor her in the hallway for almost every one of my classes. It really was amazing. Then we went over to her house to watch a movie after school. And it was really cute because she fell asleep on my shoulder, so I carried her to her room. And that same night, Finn told me that he liked her....and after that it seemed like it broke me. But if she's happy then I'm happy. It should be like that right? I should be happy if she is happy? It doesn't feel like that's the case. And even though I am really happy for her, it still hurts so bad. I mean, look at me! I'm a mess. And there is nothing I can do about it," In the time it took me to explain all of this, I had started sobbing. 

I just wanted her to be happy, and I wanted to be happy too. But apparently both couldn't happen at once. But I'd rather have her be happy than my own happiness. Because she was all that mattered to me now. Wow though, I didn't know one person could affect me this bad. But then it hit me. 

I was in love with Millie Bobby Brown.