Aiden's Pov

My suspension is over and I am back at school.. R.J was sitting for chemistry. We both stare at each other. 

Was getting beat not enough for him?

I walk up to this kid name Chester. A couple months ago he asked me out but i turned him down. I walk up to him. He looks at me confused. 

"Adrian?" i grab his shirt and pull him to me. I plant a kiss on him. Everyone gasps and is in utter silence. Chester pulls me close to him and put his tongue in my mouth. He grabs my ass. I run my fingers in his hair. 

"I knew it! ADRIAN'S A FAG!" Yelled a student.

I feel my shirt tugging in the opposite direction. R.J was pulling me out of the class room. I try to break free from his grip. 

R.J looks pissed... his face is bright red. He is holding onto my wrists so hard. We are walking a empty hallway. 

"R.J." I say... He looks into different classrooms. "R.J. what are you?" He pulls me into a empty music room. 

We stand in the middle of the room he wouldn't let go of my wrist. He doesn't say anything at first... Then he looks at the ceiling like he was trying to hold his tears. 

What is happening?

"Why didn't you tell me?" He let out finally. "Thats something you tell your best friend!" he yells. I look at him blankly. He grabs both of my arms."Did you mean what you said? That i am coward?" I can feel my face getting red. I look away from him. 

I didn't mean it... He cries harder. He hugs me super tight. i haven't felt his warmth in such a long time. I hesitantly put my arms around him. 

"You really hurt my feelings fuck!" My heart ached when he said that. I didn't mean to hurt him. I was just trying to protect myself. 

I'm a piece of shit. 

"I'm sorry.." I finally say. He cries in my shoulder. " I didn't mean what i said." I didn't think he would take what i said so seriously. I rest my head on his. 

"Can we start over?" He asks. Fuck me. Why can't i say no to him? I am so upset. I could cry right now.

"Yeah we can start over." 

"And you have to be honest with me. You can't hide anything from me." 

"Fine." I say to him. He pulls away from me and immediately his warmth is gone. 

"Ill be coming to your place tomorrow after school."R.J says. I nod. I am dumbfounded. He just turned around and made everything okay again. 

I am fucking pissed. 

I walk down the hall again and run into Kai. I turn around and start walking the opposite direction. 

"Wait.. Adrian.." I turn to face him. What on earth could he want? "I heard.." 

"Yeah and what of it?" He doesn't say anything. He looks down at the ground. 

"Did you feel anything for me?" Before i could answer he looks behind and curses. I turn to see a random student sprinting away. 

It only a took a day and now I am the news of the school. 

Adrian Smith is gay and they are saying that me and kai hooked up. More or less calling me a man whore. People kept putting shit on my locker. Kai got a lot of backlash. but he basically beat the shit of anyone who tries to make fun of him. 

So they just focus on me. 

I get back in my art studio to be honest i am okay. I relieved that i am not hiding it anymore. 

The door opens. R.J. comes in and looks around. 

"I haven't actually seen your studio." he says . I paint away. "Its amazing." 

"My parents really outdone them selves." I say to him. He looks over my shoulder. 

"This is beautiful. You have gotten better!"

I can feel myself blushing. 

"Its not that great." he pulls over a chair and sits next to me. 

"Seriously. This is amazing. You should put it the art show at the end of the month." I put my paint brush down and wipe my face. "I'll consider it." He laughs and grabs one of my cloths. 

"You got paint on your forehead. I swear when are you not covered in paint?" I chuckle and let him wipe it off. He looks around some more old paintings that i have painted. He pulls out one and smiles. 

"AWWW no way! You seriously still have these?" It was paintings of me from back when we were little. I turn to see his facial reaction. I couldn't help but smile. 

Those are some good memories. I remember when i had to bribe R.J to be my model when i was 8. I gave him all my candy that i owned. He even got used to it that he always asked me to paint him. 

But i never did a self portrait of him. 

Because nothing can beat seeing the real thing. 

"If you want.. I can try to paint you.. I can't promise it'll be any good." His eyes widen. He puts the painting back and walks over to me. 

"Would you!?" I nod and tell him to sit down.  I grab my phone first and take pictures of various angles. 

"What are the pics for?" He asks. 

"When your not here, it gives me a reference." I get a new canvas and look at him. He just staring at me till i say something. I walk over and fix his hair to make it fall better. He looks at me with soft eyes smiling. 

Why is he smiling at me?

"Is it to your liking?" I don't say anything. I walk back to my seat and start painting. I am overjoyed. 

It feels like old times.... 

Silence falls upon me as a focus on the outline of him that i am drawing.

" Adrian..." He says. 

"Hm?" 

"Aren't you going to ask me what i think about the rumors?" I continue drawing him. 

"No."

"Why not?" 

"Because the rumors don't matter." They are stupid.

"A kid saw you with Kai the day before the rumors broke out... I guess my question is.. You knew Kai didn't you?"

I sigh heavily. I really don't want to get into it. 

"I don't want to talk  about him." Not in my space. Not with R.J. in my happy space. R.J. seems happy for some odd reason.. "Why are you happy?" 

"Your not going out of you way to say you don't know him. You are at least your being honest with me." 

"Your weird.. You get sentimental over their oddest things." He chuckles. 

"I heard I get that from my mom. You promise you will tell me though?"  

"I promise."