This is Kai Meranos! 

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Adrian's POV

This cannot be happening. My mind has been branded with the picture of Emma kissing R.J. 

I locked myself in my art studio the next day. I haven't felt this shitty in a long time. 

He is going to date her. Why would he say no? I frantically start painting. I am overwhelmed with anger and fustration that i could just explode.

My art teacher wants more emotion? Fine! I physically exhaust my body and produce a product. 

I stare at my final product and immediately start crying. Why does is hurt this much? I want to be numb. 

My mother runs into my studio as sees me on my knees. She runs to my side. She caresses my head. 

"Baby." She says to me. I can feel the pain in her voice. "You'll get through this... " She kisses the top of my head. "I love you soo much." 

The next day on the bus is sit with Emma. She looks nervous.

"What are you freaking about?" I ask. She fidgets with her hands. 

"R.J. agreed to date me." Another stab into my heart. I knew this was going to happen.. What guy wants to be another guy?

Not a normal one. 

"Great. You'll have meat head babies." I mutter. She looks at me annoyed. 

"I don't know what your deal is but you better cut it out. Its not funny." Is she all ready being annoying.. I stand up and shimmy out of the bus seat. 

"Where are you going?" She says. Ignore her and find another seat. I am not going to watch my nightmare play before my eyes. R.J. and the rest of the kindermans come on the bus. He sees me and then looks at Emma... and then back at me. I plug up my ears and close my eyes. 

God, let me make it through the day without crying. I get off the bus and immediately i feel a hand on my shoulder when i step into the school its R.j.

"Hey whats up with you and Emma?" Stop asking about Emma. I ignore him and continue walking. He grabs my hand and immediately i got chills. I rip my hand away from him and punch him in the face. 

Holy Shit i punched him. 

That wasn't the plan. His lip starts bleeding. He looks at me in horror. Thats right hate me. It makes it easier.I start to hyperventilate. Shit.. Shit.

"LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" I yell at him. Everyone stops and sees what the hell is going on. I start walking away again. Tears just falling uncontrollably. He grabs my arm again. I punch him again. He falls to ground. 

R.J rams me into the locker and knocks out all the air out of me. 

"What the fuck is your problem!? I am your friend, Adrian! I don't know what the hell happened to you but this needs to stop!" He yells at me. 

"Fuck you!" I spat. "You think your all that because your popular! Your a coward." He hands start to quiver against me he is pissed. 

Good.. Be pissed. 

"We are not friends... We are strangers.." 

"I have enough of you!" Then do something that I never thought i would do in a million years. 

I spit in his face. 

He punches my face. We get into a full on brawl. Everyone yelling and gathering and taking pictures. 

"BOYS!" Emma yells at us. "R.J! STOP PLEASE!" She cries. R.J. stops fighting me and looks at Emma. I kick R.J. in the stomach from the ground. He falls in pain. 

Security separates us and teachers are coming from no where. 

Our parents sit in the principal office and watches the video that kids taped of us fighting. Me and R.J. look fucked up. We have bruises  and cuts all over our faces and necks. Not to mention the stomach pain from the punches. 

My mother and my Aunt couldn't even look at the video after 10 seconds. 

"Look i have never had a problem with both your children, but i can't have this kind of fighting in our school. I am going to let it slide but they need to do a couple weeks in detention and a two day suspension."

"I have soccer!" R.J. says. Aunt Rosie pinches the back of his neck. 

"OW!" He says. 

"You should thought about that when you fought Adrian!" She says firmly.  

"Thank you this won't happen again." Said my father. I all ready feel the headache coming on.

"We will handle it." Uncle Lance says to the principal. He nods. We all leave. Our parents look at us waiting for an explanation. Me and R.j. stand next to each other speechless. I feel like a 5 year old again. 

"Well one of you are going to have to speak up!" says my father in a threatening tone. He looks at me. "Adrian?" I don't know what to say. I look at my mom. She looks like she is on the verge of tears. 

I'm more upset that i made her worry. 

"FUCKING SHIT." Says Riccardo. "What do think about this Lance?" Lance sighs and rubs the back of his head. 

"I think its best to talk to them separately. I want to talk to my Son about this." Gee i wish i had a dad like Lance. "I will contact you soon, but for now you need to calm down." My dad tries but i don't believe it.

My dad is going to kill me.

Aunt Rosie put his arms around R.J and take him home. He doesn't even look at me.

Maybe this is it for us. 

I sit in the car and look out the window. "I don't know what to do with you anymore." My dad says finally. "From you telling me that your a fucking Fag-" 

"RICCARDO!" My mother yells at him. We get to our house, but my parents just stare each other down. "Baby go in the house. I want to talk your Father." I get out immediately and head into the house and stay in my room. I don't even have the energy to paint. 

Later that day Emma comes into my room upset. I sit up. 

"What the fuck Adrian!?" I don't say anything. " I don't know what the hell is wrong with you but its gone far enough. Whatever happened between you two get over it. He is my boyfriend!" 

I'm in love with your boyfriend. 

I wish he would be mine. 

But i can't tell you this.

"So your going to take his side? I guess your not my sister anymore right?" 

"You need stop this! I am not picking sides! You two have to get along. Not just more me but for our parents! Its going to be so awkward going to the kindermans. Sometime you have to sacrifice for the good of the family. Mom and dad aren't even talking to one another now! Are you just going to let this continue?" I throw my book at her. She dodges it and gets herself ready to yell again.

Why do I have to sacrifice? 

"Fuck you." So i have to sacrifice everything i am? Hide myself in this fake shell? Fuck that!

Not anymore. I am over it. Im going off the deep end. 

"You want to know why mom and dad fight. Its because a year ago I came out to them as gay." 

Her face goes to deer in head light. "What the fuck.." She mutters. "There is no way." 

"You don't have to fucking believe it.I am telling you! Dad hates the fact that I only like men and mom has nothing but supported me! Don't you think i feel bad that their fighting but this who i am!!! and you have the balls to tell me that i have to make sacrifices to keep the family together. Fuck you!" 

" Adrian.. I had no idea.." 

"Yea thats because you have your head up R.J's ass." Tears start running down her face. 

"Get out of my room i don't want to see your face. And tell your BOYFRIEND THAT I DONT WANT TO TALK TO HIM EITHER HE CAN FUCK OFF!" I yell at her. She runs out and cries in her room. 

Im done hiding.. Nothing good has come from it. 

This who I am.

I am not going to feel bad about it anymore.