Ellie's POV -

"What does he mean mummy?" Aimee repeated herself after both me and James didn't respond to her and tell her what James meant when he opened his big mouth.

"Daddy doesn't mean anything Princess." James smiled at her, wandering over to her and taking her from my arms at the same time.

"It's nothing. Daddy just spoke without thinking, didn't you?" I added, snapping my head round so I was looking directly into his eyes; he immediately knew that he had gone too far this time and I wasn't going to forgive him as I had done all the other times.

"Why did you upset mummy?" Aimee asked.

She may have been three, well almost four now, but she wasn't an idiot and she knew all the right things to say at times.

But there were some things that would wait until she was older and I was able to explain them to her without her getting confused; I already knew she was going to hate me for leaving Nathan and not allowing him to have anything to do with his daughter, but she would have to understand it from my point of view.

I was only thinking of her at the time and what was going to be best for her.

At the time, I didn't believe her growing up in the limelight with her famous father was the best thing for her; I still don't believe that and I probably never will believe that either.

"We were just arguing. Daddy was a very silly person." James replied.

"Silly? I was thinking more along the lines of fuc-"

"Very stupid?" James interrupted me before I could finish my sentence, and before I swore in front of Aimee.

"Yeah. Very stupid." I muttered as I walked into the living room and threw myself back into the sofa, leaving James to play with Aimee while I just considered what I really wanted, and how I was going to get what I wanted without too many people being hurt.

Now that Nathan was back in my life, I didn't want to lose him again and I wanted him to be involved with Aimee; especially since he was so sure that being involved was for the best.

But, then there was the fact, as soon as the paparazzi caught wind of this, they were going to be all over it and Aimee was going to be front page news in every paper across the world; that just wasn't fair on her and there was no way I was going to put her through that at her age.

Then there was the fact James had been cheating on me with someone else.

Some things I could forgive, but if there was on thing I couldn't stand, then that was liars and cheats. I was never going to forgive him and I was never going to be able to be the same way with him as I was before; it seemed to me that this relationship was over now and there was no saving it.

It was too late for that one.

I was scrolling through my Twitter and I decided that I was going to have a look on Nathan's Twitter, just to see what he had tweeted recently - I wasn't following him and, after I left, I deleted the Twitter that I did have and made a totally new one so that none of the boys could actually find me.

His latest tweet made me wonder what was going on;

@NathanTheWanted; I hate liars. I hate them even more when they're supposed to "love" you!

I went into my contacts and opted for texting him, rather than tweeting him, to find out what was going on and see if there was anything I could do to help him out.

It's not like I cared what James thought of me anymore, and it's not like I cared if he got jealous of me talking to someone else; it's even better when that other person is your ex-boyfriend.

To Nathan;

I saw your tweet. What's happened? X

From Nathan;

Jade told me that it's over between the two of us. Told me she's been cheating on me for six months now with some twat called James, apparently she never loved me! X

James?

This couldn't be happening.

James couldn't have been cheating on me with Nathan's girlfriend. They had never even met each other until the boys turned up in America a couple of weeks ago now.

No.

It's got to be coincidence that they both have the same names.

"James?" I shouted in a reasonably calm tone.

"Yeah?" he replied, as he appeared behind me with a grin on his face; I guess he must have thought that I was going to tell him I forgive him.

"This Jade girl you were sleeping with, does she have a boyfriend?" I questioned him, not making any eye contact with him because I felt sick with the thought of what was happening.

"Erm, she did have. She just text me to tell me that he had left him and we could be together now." James answered awkwardly.

"So, when were going to tell me that you were leaving me and going off with her then?" I snapped at him.

"I was never-"

"Don't even bother lying James. I know who Jade is, and I know you were going to leave me for her. Weren't you?" I practically screamed, remaining just inches away from his face.

"Fine. I was going to leave you, and I wasn't going to tell you either. I suppose you know all about leaving without even saying goodbye to the person you love, so it comes as no surprise you." James smirked.

"Why? Just tell me that James. Why?" I spat, not even feeling anything other than anger towards him.

"You were going to find out anyway, so I might as well tell you everything. Me and Jade have been seeing each other for six months now, and the first time I slept with her was just after your birthday when you refused to tell me what was wrong with you; I was getting annoyed with you and your bad moods so I decided it was time to hit you where it hurts. You know what, the time I spent with her was so much better than any of the time I spent with you." James replied with the biggest grin ever on his face.

There was a reason I was feeling down after my birthday, and there was a reason I didn't tell him.

I never thought he would do something like this though. I never actually believed he would cheat on me, and with someone I had never even heard of before she turned up in America with her arm around Nathan.

I loved him, and I thought he loved me too.

Guess I was wrong about that though.

"How did you met her then?" I asked, I didn't want to hear how he met her, but I was curious and there was something in me that felt like it needed to know the truth; there was a part of me that needed to know where they met and how it started between them.

"It was purely by accident really. I walked into a club and she was here with a group of friends, and she told me that she was going to be out here for a couple of months as her boyfriend and his band were coming out here to do their tour. We hit it off really well, swapped numbers and just text each other all the time; meeting up again only to end up in her hotel room, where I didn't even regret it in the morning." James shrugged.

"You know, her boyfriend was Nathan? Did she tell you that one?" I snapped.

"Oh well, not like I give a damn. They're over, we're over. Me and Jade are just going to be together and we're going to be happy; especially since she's pregnant as well." James laughed, and I didn't want to hear anymore because I could feel my heart drop into my stomach and a feeling of sickness rising up my throat.

At one point, he made me happy and he was my everything, now he was leaving me and starting a family with someone else.

I swear, the worst things always happen to me as a punishment for whatever I've done wrong on my life.

There will be a time when I find happiness and I'll be able to keep it because I'm tired of everything ended up like this, and I'm tired of always having my happiness snatched away from me.

"Leave." I finally spoke.

"Is that all you've got to say to me? Leave?" James mimicked me with a smirk that I wanted nothing more than to slap off his face right now.

"Please James, just go." I sighed, walking past him and up to Aimee's bedroom, seeing that she had fallen asleep on her bed. I moved her slightly so that she was under her covers as I noticed her shivering, and she was the only thing that brought a smile to my face right now.

At least I had done one thing right with my life and Aimee was proof of how well I had done because she was happy, and she had people in her life that loved her and wanted to look after her whenever I needed them to do so.

She even had her group of friends from pre-school that she loved spending time with, and I'd had them over to sleep more than once.

"Mummy loves you Princess. I promise I'll never leave you." I whispered, placing a kiss on her forehead as she moved a little in her sleep; getting herself into a more comfortable position and I wasn't lying either.

I was never going to leave her, and I was always going to be there when she needed someone to be there for her - she was my everything and I loved her so much.

I decided that I was going to text Nathan because I really needed someone right now and, as strange as it sounds, he was the only one I could think of that would actually want to come round here and see me.

To Nathan;

Are you busy? X

From Nathan;

Not really. Just packing Jade's bags for her, why? X

To Nathan;

I really need a friend right now :( x

From Nathan;

I'll be there as soon as I can. Always here for you El. X

At least I still had one person I could count on.

Even if there was no one else.