//I, Kylie, am not feeling this way right now, and I am fine.

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My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone,

My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone.

Shouto woke up, his eyes fluttering open. His vision was blurry, but he couldn't bring himself to move just yet. He could feel that he was laying on tile, and as his vision cleared a bit enough for him to see that the ceiling above him was the ceiling in his bathroom.

Suddenly, nausea hit him like a bus, and he sat up. He barely made it to the toilet in time, before he started hurling his guts out into the porcelain bowl. Once his gut was empty, and his dry heaving was done, he flushed the toilet. He watched the bile go down the drain, and when the bowl began to refill, Shouto slammed the lid shut, and sat back against the vanity.

He began to cry, covering his face with his hands, as he brought his knees up to his chest. Slowly, his quiet tears became louder, and louder, till all he could hear was his own broken, pitiful sobs.

"Why can't you just die?!" He shouted brokenly into his hands, speaking about himself. He'd downed his whole bottle of medication the night before, and took too many sleeping pills for good measure.

Gone too far and yeah I'm gone again,
It's gone on too long, tell you how it ends,
I'm sitting on the edge with my two best friends,

Ones a bottle of pills, ones a bottle of gin,
I'm twenty stories up, yeah I'm up at the top,
I'll polish off this bottle, now it's pushing me off,

Asphalt to me has never looked so soft,
I bet my momma found my letter, now shes calling the cops,

"I bet Midoriya found my letter." Shouto said quietly, downing the last bit of his gin. He looked up and smiled drunkenly at the starry sky. His smile slowly fell as he heard sirens off in the distance.

I gotta take this opportunity before I miss it,
'Cause now I hear the sirens and they're off in the distance,

Believe me when I tell you that I've been persistent,

'Cause I'm more scarred, more scarred than my wrist is,

I've been trying too long, with too dull of a knife,

But tonight I made sure that I sharpened it twice,

I never bought a suit before in my life,
But when you go to meet god, you know you wanna look nice.

So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow,
Yeah I'll see you tomorrow.

Shouto has been texting his friends all evening. He wasn't sure if he'd make it through the night, so he figured that he may as well give them something to remember him by.

The last text he received was from Katsuki.

Katsuki, to Shouto: See you tomorrow, IcyHot.

"Yeah, if I survive, I'll see you tomorrow." Shouto said softly to himself, though replied to a simple 'okay', and a smiley face.

My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,

My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.

Shouto has always been wary of guns, so he was reluctant to use one as his exit from the living world. He looked longingly at them sometimes though, but never ended up even holding one.

We hit the sky, there goes the light,
No more sun, why's it always night
When you can't sleep, well, you can't dream,
When you can't dream, well, whats life mean?
We feel a little pity, but don't empathize
The old are getting older, watch a young man die,

A Mother and a Son and someone you know,
Smile at each other and realize you don't,
You don't know what happened to that kid you raised,

What happened to the Father, who swore he'd stay?

I didn't know 'cause you didn't say,
Now Momma feels guilt, yea Momma feels pain,

When you were young, you never thought you'd die,

Found that you could but too scared to try,
You looked in the mirror and you said goodbye,

Climb to the roof to see if you could fly.
So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow,
Yeah I'll see you tomorrow.

My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,

My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.

I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
Oh I might just try.

Shouto stood on the edge of the roof of the building, his arms outstretched. He smiled softly as the wind pushed against him. This time.. this time, he was going to leave it up to fate. If he died today, it wouldn't be from his own doing.