Emma's POV~

It was quiet as I sat at home, alone. I tugged on the sleeves of Spencer's hoodie. I knew I had to give it back, but I just wasn't ready too.

It had been a week since I last seen him. Since I told him I loved him, since I last held his hand and kissed him.

I missed him. There was no denying it. I'd be lying to myself if I said I didn't miss him.

Avery yelped as he climbed onto the couch and snuggled into my lap. Just like he used too when he was a puppy, when he knew something was wrong.

I sighed as someone knocked on my door. I just hope it wasn't Spencer.

I got up and peeked through the little peep hole. I groaned quietly, seeing my mom. I opened the door and glared at my mother.

"What?" I spit with hatred.

She smirked, "I see you finally broke with Jesus boy. Why? What happened?"

"Don't play dumb!" I snapped, "You were half the reason!"

"He wasn't right for you," she replied.

"Leave. Now or I'll call the cops!" I demanded.

She gave a sly grin, "I knew you'd choose the right, darling."

"Don't ever come back!" I yelled as I slammed the door.

I wasn't in the mood to deal with my mother at the moment. Not when she had something to do with the reason why I broke up with him.

I hated myself for doing it, but I couldn't have his whole life on the line. I couldn't do it. I'd rather my happiness be ruined than his. Yeah, he'll be heartbroken, but he'll find a different girl and fall in love again.

I turned around and leaned up against the door. I slid slowly to floor, and brought my knees to my body. I laid my chin on my knees, just staring into space.

Just the thought of him loving another girl made me sick to my stomach. As selfish as it sounded, I wanted to be the only one he touched, or hugged, or kissed. I wanted to be in his arms again, seeing him smile and hearing him laugh.

If it wasn't for my dumb mother and his fans, we'd be together. We would have been celebrating our first anniversary in less than two months. Actually, two months exactly from today.

I bit my lip and laid my head down. I was done and sent over the edge.

I was soon crying, then sobs left my mouth.

Then it occured to me.

I was never getting over Spencer. I would always love him.

~*~*~

I woke up in my bed. I just didn't feel like moving.

Wait, a second. How did I even get here?

Doesn't even matter anymore. It was a sunday, but I didn't feel like getting up. Morgan was probably at church already with everyone else. Then she'd be leaving in the morning to visit her parents back in Missouri.

I'd be even more alone. Unless I could convince my sister to stay with me for a little while. I'm sure she would if I asked.

Or I could just bathe in my sadness.

Sadly, I liked that idea better. Just laying in bed all day, alone. Probably watching Stranger Things.

It was weird. It was my favorite show, I loved it even more while with Spencer. He helped me make fun of the show, and let me cuddle him if something scared me. Which rarely happened, but I still loved cuddling with him.

"Em! I'm back! Donnie, Joey & Jewel are here too!" Morgan called, slamming the door shut.

I groaned and pulled the covers over my head, immersing myself into the darkness.

"Hey, Em. Feeling any better?" Joey asked.

I sighed, "No."

I heard his footsteps coming towards me. Out of the guys, I was probably closer to Joey than the others. He was my guy best friend.

"It's gonna take time. You'll be okay eventually." He soothed, rubbing my back.

"I just want Spencer," I whimpered.

"Jewel!" Joey called. Soon enough, I heard her footsteps in my room as well. He sighed, "Help me. I haven't really been through this."

Jewel laughed as she came closer.

"Hey, it will get better. You'll meet another guy, and fall in love again." Jewel reassured.

"I don't want to fall in love again. I don't want him to fall in love with another girl. I just want him." I sniffled.

She sighed, "Em, you'll get over him. Your forever is still out there. You're only one more heartbreak away from finding him."

"What if Spencer was my forever?" I asked.

"Then let God have control. Remember, God without a man is still God. He hears you, and he's working on you. It will get better." She whispered.

"With him, I had everything. Now, I feel like I have nothing. Spencer's been my best friend since were 3, he led me to my faith. I just wish we had support from the fans." I sighed.

A/N

Here we go! Book 2 of 3 is a go! All shall be revealed about Emma's and Spencer's relationship, so do not worry.

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