MIYI'S POV

Monday, 7:30 A.M.

Seokjin

Seokjin:
Mi. I am sorry to make
you go through all this.
I really never meant to
do this.

It all just happened. I
just went out to bring
water and I thought
you'll be needing it. So
I went to the reception.

Me:
A water bottle is more
important for me than
the man to whom I lost
my virginity to?

You're unreasonable.

Seokjin:
Ik you're angry rn and
are taking my words in
most negative sense.

But I want to let you know,
I love you and I won't leave
you like that. I'll prove my
innocence to you. It matters
to me.

You matter to me.
More than anything.

Please smile a little for me.
I hate seeing
you sad.

Me:
Then don't text me.

Seokjin:
I love you Mi. You
don't understand...

If I don't talk to you,
I would go crazy.

Me:
Then don't expect an
answer.

Seokjin:
It's alright. You don't
have to. I deserve this.

I sighed, I hate him. It's a feeling that is deep rooted within my being. I just hate him. For all that he did to me. But I cannot do anything. I cannot breathe, I feel miserable in my own body.

"Hey Mi, you up?" Aera entered with a bright smile and I reciprocated her expression. Tried to.

"Yeah. Anything?"

"Today is the release man! How can you freaking forget?" She almost yelled.

"Ha ha... Yeah. Sorry. I would just get ready."

"Everything fine?" she asked, concern reflecting in her tone.

I smiled as I brightly as I could, "Obviously, I am so excited. Gimme a minute, okay?"

She nodded and exited my room. My smile instantly dropped and I could feel shards piercing my heart. It was difficult to act like nothing happened.

•••

BTS came to our company for the first premiere of our music video. It was of the collab of BTS and Dawn. The duet is not yet released. The music video isn't shot yet.

"Hey guys, you are so goddam tall. Just get back!" Dami hissed as the Maknae line was standing in front of the screen, obscuring it.

"No. I wanna see it from here," Taehyung protested.

"Come back," Ari whined with a pout.

"You can come here," Jungkook chuckled, exchanging places with her.

"Oh you're the best!" She gave him a thumbs up.

"If you think I'm gonna whine and pout then no. You're wrong. Just come back here before I snap my thanos fingers on your forehead," Dami glared at Jimin to which he immediately acquiesced making everyone laugh.

"Tae, you should let Mi come in front. Your height is taller than anyone," Jin said.

"It's fine Tae, I had seen it before. You can stay," I said and he gave a broad boxy smile. The video started and it was really lively and breathtaking. Obviously.... BTS!

"I swear, it's gonna be dope," Jimin spoke.

"I can bet," Dami chuckled.

"So, when are we releasing it?" I questioned.

"Tomorrow," Namjoon replied and added, "How is the duet going on?"

"About that-"

"We're thinking about that," Yoongi interrupted me making me confounded.

"No I-"

"She sent the lyrics to me for revision," Aera added.

"No actually-"

"And we are doing the choreo," Dami added.

"I am just-"

"I love Dami," Jimin blurt out making everyone gape at him. Even Dami had her jaw dropped.

"We are dating," he said.

"What in hell?" Taehyung passed as a response to each perplexed countenance in the room.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Aera questioned Dami who smiled awkwardly and then gave Jimin some death glares.

"They told me," I said.

"What? And you didn't bother to tell us?" Namjoon questioned, rather roughly.

"I knew that too," Jin passed.

"Woah?!" Namjoon's jaw was on the floor along with his eyeballs that popped out.

"It has just been a few days. They were about to tell y'all once they're comfortable. What's wrong?"

"What's wrong?" Taehyung quoted me.

"Did you guys have a party?" Jungkook furrowed his brows.

"A small one," Dami added and Ari fell down dramatically.

"Shit! We missed the party!" Aera sighed and Namjoon laughed taking me by dement. They were fine with them dating! They were just acting.

"Excuse me," I excused myself from the pomp and show going on in the open, admiring the solace the grey tufty clouds had to offer.

A loud sound of thunder took me by stupor, it sent a jolt of shivers down my spine. I am scared of sudden loud sounds since I was a kid. There was another streak of lightning and I knew the sound is coming in a few seconds but before it could, there was music playing.

"Hush, now my angel. I will always be with you. In your pretty smile..."

The music flowed and there was a warmth on my ears, apparantly someone made me wear headphones. I turned to the side and Jin appeared with a bright smile.

My heart skipped a beat as I looked onto his radiating self in this bleak and gloomy weather. I quickly broke the eye contact and took off the headsets, giving to him.

"Thanks. I don't need them," I said blatantly.

"Who doesn't need music to heal their souls? Especially when the angel who's broken is the most melodious one?" He smiled even more and disconnected the Bluetooth headphones from his phone, placing it back in his pockets and the headphones round his neck. The music now playing freely without any constraints.

I was just looking at him when the rain started pouring. Another streak of lightning brightened the world but before the sound could be intercepted again, he placed his hands on my ears.

I gulped. Somehow, I wasn't uncomfortable but there was my conscience asking me to push him away rather than being the naive me I have been. I felt as if I should not let myself be broken over again.

It's difficult. It's so so difficult.

How does he manage to make my heart jump still? Now... It makes me guilty to my morals. Don't I have any self respect?

I pushed his hands away and walked in, leaving him behind.

•••